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Priest Abuse and Recovered Memory
The Passion of Paul Shanley
By JOANN WYPIJEWSKI
http://www.counterpunch.org/jw01292005.html...
IN HIS JANUARY 2002 LETTER TO LOVED ONES, Shanley confessed: "I am sorry beyond telling for the wrongs of my life and for the sorrow and anguish of which I have been the occasion. How I envy those who say in their declining years: 'if I had it to do over I would not do anything differently.' For me it is the opposite: I would do many things differently. For one, I would never have become a priest and tried to wrestle with mandatory celibacy and the myriad consequences of that folly. But who knew?"
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As for Shanley, should he lose, any sentence is likely to be a life sentence, given his age. His silence, for a man whose life was distinguished by rebellion, indicates how much he has already lost. Shanley's defeat came long before his name was made tinder for scandal. When he decided to resign his pastorship at St. Jean's in November 1989, by his account because he could not take an oath committing pastors to give "internal assent" to the Pope's position on any issue, his lifetime of loyal opposition and prophetic witness was finished. As he wrote then to the cardinal: "I do not leave in protest, or for a woman, or from disillusionment. I leave the active priesthood in grief. . . . To take this oath would dishonor the priesthood. . . . With rage at the dying of the light." From there, his archdiocesan file traces his decline-ailing, without a mission, estranged from the family of the church, full of doubt and disappointment though not without a brittle humor, finally accused.