Journal 4. 13. 06 William Sloane Coffin
by Robert Shetterly
I loved Bill Coffin. He died yesterday. It seems that he was the midwife to every important moral decision I ever made. He could never have known that, but I always consulted him in my heart when I had to risk something principled ---starting with turning my draft card over to him at an anti-Vietnam War rally at Yale in 1968. He inspired moral courage.
I had a long phone conversation with him the day before he died. A woman from Westport , CT had emailed me about having William Rivers Pitt & Stan Goff speak there on May 21st, and she wanted to know if I knew Paul Newman( ! ), who lives in Westport, to get him to introduce the speakers. I said I didn't, but I knew William Sloane Coffin who was currently coaching Newman for the movie role as the preacher for Marilynne Robinson's novel Gilead. Maybe he could make the connection.
So I called Bill. The first thing he said was that he now had Hospice care at home. (The obvious subtext, the string was finally out). His voice was, as usual, buoyant, exuberant, but even more slurred than the slur caused by his stroke of several years ago. Medications, I thought. I could hear children playing in the background. His daughter Amy was there with her kids. His wife Randy, too. I thought of T. S. Eliot's Quartets --- children’s voices among the leaves. The sweet sound that mixes mortality and hope. The quality in Bill's voice was not forced bravery in the face of death. He was exuberant. He knew he had lived nearly as good a life as he could have. He forgave himself his excesses & mistakes; he'd learned from them and lived long enough to redeem them through courageous action. If I had an aptitude for synaesthesia, I'd see his voice in a rush of deep, rich greens, blues and yellows. Or, to purposely mix metaphors, starting a conversation with Bill Coffin was like turning on a tap & having to jump back from the unexpected gush of water pressure --- an immense, sparkling surge. He extolled Hospice, but, even better, he said, was having a catheter --- "You don't have to go to the bathroom, the bathroom comes to you!" (sounds Shakespearean ---- Macbeth isn't it?) I asked for the Newman information & he called to Randy to bring him his address book. When he had it he said, "Half the people in here are dead, and half the pages are missing, & the parts don't coincide." He said he'd call me back tomorrow.
But before hanging up, he wanted to talk about my portraits. When he had first seen the one I'd done of him he'd had two problems, one of which he was tactful about, the other, not: He was not tactful about the fact that I had accentuated his jowls. I lamely tried the excuse that the photograph of the portrait that he had seen made it (them!) look worse than the real portrait. I was a bit surprised at his touch of vanity, but I also suspected that he was pulling my leg, that, in fact, he was pretending to be vain. I wanted to say adamantly, "Bill, this about telling the truth!!!" The next time I drove up from Maine to visit him in Vermont, I took the portrait with me. He conceded that the jowls were not so jowly. What could he say.
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