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. . . . at the time it was being waged, my perspective:
I went through the under your desk drills and at the age of 9 or 10, I thought they were stupid. I'm talking 1958, 1959, thereabouts. Grade school. I had been through a couple of bad tornadoes and knew the kind of damage they did, and I knew from all the cold war fear literature (Weekly Reader versions) that an atomic bomb was considerably more destructive than a tornado. Hiding under a desk wasn't going to save anyone from a bad storm, so it was likely not to provide much safety from a nuclear attack.
Throughout the Eisenhower, Kennedy, Johnson, Nixon, Ford, Carter, and Reagan eras, the USSR was painted as The Great Enemy. Reagan ratcheted up the rhetoric, but the threats were always there. I remember when Castro came to power, I remember Bay of Pigs, I remember the Cuban Missile Crisis, the raising of the Berlin Wall, and so on. I think I was about 12 or 13 when I saw the movie "Fail-Safe," where the president authorizes the use of nuclear weapons even though he knows his own wife will die. As you can see, that was the deepest impression the film made on me -- I understood that positions of power came with truly awesome responsibilities and you shouldn't volunteer for that kind of power without understanding that it might have a high price.
Because my entire family was Republican, I grew up as a Republican. Not a rightwing nutcase, but certainly what would have been called a "fiscal conservative." But at the same time, I questioned a lot of the more conservative social policies. HOWEVER, the major issue that stuck out, at least in my mind, was this whole thing about the communists/Russians/USSR. I did go along with that aspect of the Republican agenda, because I didn't see any reason to question it. They were the bad guys.
In spite of that, I did not live in fear. Not as a child, not as a teen-ager, not as a young adult, and not as an adult in the 1980s under Reagan and dealing with all the Brezhnev/Kosygin saber-rattling.
I don't think it's possible to sustain an attitude of fear for very long without reinforcement. We know there are threats from all kinds of dangers, but we go ahead and live our lives pretty much the same day to day. Could we have a fatal car accident on the way home from work? Yep, but we drive home anyway. Could we be caught in the crossfire of a road rage shooting? Yep, but we get on the freeways anyway. Could our plane develop engine trouble and drop out of the sky? Yep, but we plan the trip to Chicago for our mother's 75th birthday party anyway.
The constant drumbeat of terror-terror-terror-threat-threat-danger-war-catastrophe will eventually take a toll. But more important than the long term effect will be the short term effect, which is to condition us to react in a prescribed manner if/when the terror-threat-danger becomes real. Even as we spend time -- and obviously I'm as guilty as anyone -- discussing the viability of these threats and dangers, we are giving them reinforcement in our minds.
I think the real question, JanMichael, ought to be "What specific changes have you made in your life as a response to fear of a terrorist attack? Have you stockpiled antibiotics in case someone drops anthrax spores all over the place? Have you built a fall-out shelter in case a rogue terrorist groups unleases a bunch of dirty bombs? Have you had yourself sterilized so you won't leave any children to live in a world of nuclear winter?"
To live without any fear is foolish. If we don't fear things, we can act in ways that put ourselves and others at unacceptable risk. Do we fear HIV/AIDS enough to practice safe sex? I think most of us do. Do we fear imprisonment enough not to go around knocking off all the people we don't like? Probably. Do we fear food poisoning enough to store our food wisely? But these are rational fears, based on rational knowledge and experience.
To me, based on 55 years of life in these United States, fear of terrorism, of Saddam Hussein, of al-Qaida and bin Laden and so on is a waste of energy. Irrational fear won't stop the events from happening. We have little to no control over them.
On the other hand, I do fear the policies of the bushies. I fear they will lead to widespread misery in this country and around the world. I fear that if left unchecked, these policies could lead to violent revolution. However, there are at least some things I can do in response to these fears. I can work to register and get out voters who will overturn this illegal and immoral regime. And if that fails, I can resist, or even join a revolt.
So, we'll see.
But, to answer your original question, no, I never lived in abject fear of the irrational, nor have I changed my lifestyle in response to it. I take shelter when there are storm warnings, but I don't cower under the bed when the sun is shining.
Peace,
Tansy Gold
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