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...took a break to watch the lift-off of the shuttle which we could see from 45 miles away as the crows fly. Several people had portable radios and the excitement was very high as the rocket fuel smoke trail became visible over the tree line to the east of us. The space shuttle main rocket was clearly visible at the head of the smoke much like a distant jet liner is flying at 20,000 feet from the ground.
Suddenly there was that burst and the separation of the rocket plumes, many of us thinking that the booster rockets had been dropped from the main rocket. Seconds later the entire shuttle was exploding and rocket smoke trail separated into three distinct trails and things began falling. I was stunned when I came to the realization that something very serious had happened and then shocked a few seconds later when the radio announced that there had been an explosion on board the shuttle. Minutes later because of the distance we could hear the faint roar of the rocket engines. I did not want to stay outside and witness what I thought would be sound of the explosion. All I could do was go back inside and try to work to get my mind off of the horror of it all.
People were abuzz with speculation and disbelief. I only knew that the shuttle against better advise from certain NASA engineers had been launched under protest due to extremely cold weather conditions as Reagan administration officials for weeks and months had been applying pressure to make the shuttle program operate more like a transportation system into space, rather than what it still was, a scientific experiment into space travel. I remember being angry and sad at the same time, sad for the families of the astronauts and the tragic loss for our country, angry at the administration and the bureaucrats for being so irresponsible as to ignore the realities at that time of the risks and the best advice from engineers with first hand know
Like the JFK assassination 23 years earlier, I had a sense of tragic loss and many questions as to how and why such a thing could happen. I contrast that to the events of Tuesday September 11, 2001, where my almost immediate reaction to the situation was one of disbelief that again the country was being mislead and duped and my anger began to grow almost immediately. Perhaps it was because I was much older and experience had taught me that the questions of how and why such a thing could happen really were the wrong questions to be demanding answers for. Instead, I wanted to hear from the highest levels of government, their responses as to what they knew, when they knew and what measures they had taken to prevent such a series of events from happening. We all know what that response from the Bush administration was, avoidance, cover-up, secrecy and suppression. That is why I am still angry and will never accept any explanation until the truth comes out.
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