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That sentence normally should frighten me but it hasn't because I'm pissed and I finally couldn't take it anymore. Unfortunately for me, and probably many of us out here, I work with a bushite christian repuke, just him and I in an office and he desperately wants control. Being the kind hearted person I am, I have overlooked alot of his comments in the last several years but mostly I have overlooked his stupidity. I have sat back silently and was simply refered to as the "liberal" when all I was surrounded by was repuke idiots and I took it in stride. But today I lost it. I don't know if it was because of the Ohio election robbery last night, I don't know if it was because I'm tired of trying to make sense in an insane world, or if it was I finally had it with being used and then them wanting to control me some more. I just know that I lost it.
One of the most difficult emotional feelings that has been going on inside me lately is I want to scream and scream and scream some more until I'm hoarse at how stupid this all is, that the life I helped create by being a "boomer" is being ripped away by rich, uncaring assholes that want nothing more then to make me homeless and on the streets or better yet in jail because I am a unstable liberal "we are all alike" they say (glad I don't own a weapon because today I might have used it). I want to know why one of these assholes government figures hasn't gotten a bullet through their heads yet when I watched John Kennedy, Bobby Kennedy and Martin Luther King get one in theirs. I don't know where to put this agression and anger. I just try to find peace in knowing that I'm not alone and that there many people out here that have the same emotions as I am experiencing. I have read a lot of sites this evening with the same emotion and I guess I needed to share my own personal one.
I'm not worried about my job, the asswipe called me at 5:30pm and asked me what my plans were. I simply told him I needed space and a vacation and I would see him Monday. He has no power to fire me, but we are supposed to be a team. I'm not worried, there are other jobs I hope, but I finally ran out of steam today. I guess it had to come eventually, but I wonder why everyone's steam feels just a little more squeezed out today, more then normal.
Could it be 14 more soldiers dying, or could it be we are all simply at that breaking point. I don't know, you tell me?
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