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Edited on Wed Jun-23-04 04:17 AM by last_texas_dem
...and change my attitude, change my general outlook more than anything, starting as far back as junior high. I think a lot of the disappointments that I have about my life come from the defeatist attitude and low self-esteem I sufferred from so much back then. I still revert to those lows from time to time, but within the last couple of years I've realized that's a problem whereas back then the hopelessness was almost comforting and I tended to find myself in a rut that it was harder to get out of. I don't know how much sense my rambling makes... I'm at a weird point in my life right now so have just been doing a lot of reflecting since I'm about to graduate from college and all, and I've been thinking about my past and having a lot of regrets. I want to turn my life around; it's not that it's horrible or that I feel like I've wasted it; it's just that it's not nearly as good as I think it could be... it's like I almost want to "reinvent" myself while staying true to what really matters about myself... and it's hard to find the proper balance....
ON EDIT: I kinda got hung up on the "relive/make changes" aspect without really considering the "high point" aspect. The answer for me is, yes, I'd even make some changes on my favorite period of my life. Hopefully the high point is still to come, though...
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