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Edited on Sat Sep-06-03 10:12 PM by Booberdawg
I avoided this yesterday caused I was bummed out anyway. I try not to dwell on the negative ...
I lost my job in January - got a 30-day notice on December 6. I worked in the IT department as a systems analyst for a crop insurance company. We administered the Federal Crop Insurance Program. Anyway, the company went belly up so we were going to be let go in stages so the last crop year business could be run off. Most of us were let go on Jan 6, as I was.
I had just purchased the house I grew up in 6 months prior to the layoff. It was a great 100-year-old house that had been severely neglected over the years and I wanted to fix it up. It's nice now, but I got taken to the cleaners by the original contractors and had to hire another contractor to finish it and repair what the other one destroyed. To make an long story short it put me an extra 60K in debt that I couldn't afford.
So when I was laid off I was already stretched to the limit with no cushion. I can't blame the fuck-up on my house on bush - that has more to do with a crack habit the contractor developed (or re-started) halfway through the work on my house. So I had to file bankruptcy earlier this year. I still had hopes I would get another job in a few months and was still making the house payments. I did get a severance package.
But, the month's wore on, I've sent hundreds of resumes, even been through about a dozen interviews, and still no job. There came a time I was no longer able to make the house payments. Unemployment barely covers the utilities and food and COBRA. So, foreclosure proceedings have been initiated on the house and I will lose that too. Incidentally, did you know the Sheriff comes knocking at your door to personally deliver that? Well, I knew it was coming, but that was such a blow.
The foreclosure process is long, so I'm told, so I have several months before I have to move. I'm just concentrating on trying to find a job in the meantime. I really didn't think I'd still be looking after all this time. The longer it goes on the more difficult it is to maintain or redevelop the kind of attitude and creativity necessary to find a job or discover alternatives.
I wish I had spent more time early on trying to discover a way I could pursue some type of self-employment. My mind is not as sharp or creative now and I'm not as motivated anymore. My energy is - gone. Sometimes it scares me to think if I DO get an interview, will I be able to show that emotional energy and wherewithal, and paste that can-do winning smile on my face long enough to get through the interview. I can't fake the sparkle that I used to have in my eyes. I loved my job, and I loved working.
This is not a pity post - please - I do not do without anything I NEED. There are FAR worse things in life and there are people in FAR, FAR worse shape than I am. I will have a place to stay. Eventually I will find another job. Money can be replaced - I don't care about the bankruptcy or the loss of money right now. I always had my credit cards paid off anyway and never carried a balance so that is not going to hurt me. I WOULD care if I had to move without my PETS!!! Now THAT would HURT me! LOL! My babies!!
Oh, I DO find the idea of moving very annoying. It's just a major pain in the ass. For now I plan to move to an empty house owned by a relative and then when I get back on my feet I'll have to move again. That's a lot more than some people have. I am very fortunate, indeed ....
Linda
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