To express how I feel right now in song. I give you The Who.

[coloradodem2005]

I've had enough of bein' nice
I've had enough of right and wrong
I've had enough of tryin' to love my brother

I've had enough of bein' good
And doin' everything like i'm told I should
If you need a lover, you'd better find another

Life is for the living
Takers never giving

Suspicion takes the place of trust
My love is turning into lust
If you get on the wrong side of me you better run for cover

I've had enough of bein' trodden on
My passive days are gonna be long gone
If you slap one cheek, well, I ain't gonna turn the other

Life is for the living
Takers never giving

Fooling no one but ourselves
Good is dying

Here comes the end
Here comes the end of the world

I'm gettin' sick of this universe
Ain't gonna get better; it's gonna get worse
And the world's gonna sink with the weight of the human race

Hate and fear in every face
I'm gettin' ready and I've packed my case
If you find somewhere better, can you save my place?

Fooling no one but ourselves
Love is dying

Here comes the end
Here comes the end
Here comes the end of the world


The Who, Who Are You, 1978

[Squeech]

1. Yeah, but

I'm a loser, no chance to win
Leaves start falling, come down is calling
Loneliness starts sinking in

But I'm one
I'm one

And I can see that this is me
And I will be, you'll all see
I'm the one

Where d'you get those blue blue jeans
Faded patched secret so tight
Where d'you get that walk oh so lean
Your shoes and your shirt all just right

But I'm one
I'm one

And I can see that this is me
And I will be, you'll all see
I'm the one

I got a Gibson without a case
But I can't get that even tanned look on my face
Ill fitting clothes and I blend in the crowd
Fingers so clumsy, voice too loud

But I'm one
I'm one

And I can see that this is me
And I will be, you'll all see
I'm the one

[coloradodem2005]

2. What song is that?

[Squeech]

3. I'm One

from Quadrophenia. It's about trying to meet arbitrary standards of coolness, and screwing it all up.

I'm not entirely certain why I thought it was relevant. Maybe I feel like if you solve this problem, all the other problems of adolescence fade into irrelevance, including the problem in the song you chose. Or maybe I just like the line "I got a Gibson without a case."

[coloradodem2005]

4. Here's another one to expound upon that.

I went back to the doctor
To get another shrink.
I sit and tell him about my weekend,
But he never betrays what he thinks.

Can you see the real me, doctor?

I went back to my mother
I said, "I'm crazy ma, help me."
She said, "I know how it feels son,
'Cause it runs in the family."

Can you see the real me, mother?

The cracks between the paving stones
Look like rivers of flowing veins.
Strange people who know me
Peeping from behind every window pane.
The girl I used to love
Lives in this yellow house.
Yesterday she passed me by,
She doesn't want to know me now.

Can you see the real me, can you?

I ended up with the preacher,
Full of lies and hate,
I seemed to scare him a little
So he showed me to the golden gate.

Can you see the real me preacher?
Can you see the real me doctor?
Can you see the real me mother?
Can you see the real me?