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I had bleeding and splinters afterwards. I remember begging the dr to stop, of breaking my long fingernails on the examining room table from my death-grip from pain. I certainly was loud enough. After it was over, the only thing she could say was... "that was weird." I had told her of my history (see below.) She was a block of ice...young and now (I say with a smile) heartless... a * voter.
Fortunately, when I called the next day, after spending the night in pain... alone ( Mr. kt wasn't with me)... the health care provider immediately made room for me with a GYN. Actually, a GYN that specializes in trauma cases, such as rape, molestation and other injuries.
It had a happy ending. But I'll never forget it. The GYN told me if that ever happends again, to kick the dr. in the head if they won't stop after I beg them to stop. Can you imagine?
Now, I'll let everyone in on a secret. I'm not shy about this fact because I beleive that everyone shold be aware that some doctors are dangerous.
When girls are young, sometimes they have more skin than adult women who may engage in sexual activity. A very young and inexperienced doctor decided it would be better to seperate that skin on me to avoid an infection. He did so without any anasthetic and with a tounge depressor in the office. It hurt. A lot. I feel like he pressured my mother. She took me to her own GYN a few days later and he said the procedure was completly unnecessary. The doctor who did this was guilty ridden and remorseful. My parents forgave him and as an adult, I have, too. This happened when I was 6. The experience sticks with me, but I am ok with it. I have allowed myself to move on.
Needless to say, doctors make me nervous when they're poking around in certain areas. So, this particular experience was especially traumatic with the pap smear. Please, if you are the parent of a young girl, be aware that there is no danger of infection. Get an opinion for a GYN... more than one, just to be sure. This was in 1981 and people (maybe just people like my parents who use to be too trusting) didn't feel the need to aggressively advocate their own helth care issues as we do now.
Please do not delete this or lock and delete the thread. I'm not shy about this info. It's important to remind people that doctors are not perfect and make mistakes. We must always get a second opinion and ask many questions. My mother still lives with the guilt even thought I have never held her responsible.
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