I am nervous that I might actually get the job that I want

[Nikia]

My current job is the first permanent job that I have had after college. I have been there for four years. It is a dead end job. It is not the best job in the world for me for other reasons as well. I have applied to other jobs seriously for over a year. My current job doesn't pay as much as a would like but pays more than equivalent or lesser jobs within a short commute. As my husband is unemployed and we are in debt, I cannot take a pay cut.
The job which I have interviewed for is an advancement in position and should be in pay. I have reason to believe that it will be a better company to work for overall and is definitely better in some areas.
I have reason to believe that I have a better chance of getting this job than some other jobs. Other than being nervous, which may or may not have shown, I think that I had a good interview. The interview also shared that someone who had worked for my company who now works for their company gave me a positive reference. There are also fewer candidates in the running than at many of the other jobs that I have interviewed for.
What makes me nervous about getting this job that I want?
It is a quite a distance away. We would probably move. Some people do drive that far to work everyday, but the time and gas money would not make that worth it to me. I might have to make this commute for the first weeks or months of the job though until I could move. I always get nervous about moving. Although it is a larger city/town than the one that we live in now, it is not close to any bigger cities. It is further away from friends, our best friends, who we already drive a distance to see.
There is also a health issue. I have anxiety disorders and an eating disorder. Although I believe that I can handle this potential job, I worry that this could make things worse. I won't have insurance for the first three months. As I understand how COBRA works, that would just be too expensive. Since we are young, we have seen reasonably priced private plans advertised, but I don't know how my health history would affect that. I currently see a therapist once per week and go to a group meeting once per week, but have considered more intense treatment. If I would have to go for treatment, obviously it would be better to have medical leave and disability pay available to me, which I would not have at the potential new job.
Despite my health concerns, I have reason to believe that this could possibly help in my recovery. Although it is true that we take us wherever we go, I really do feel like I am a prisioner at my job. There are several negative things going on there that have negatively affected me that I have reason to believe would not go on at my potential new workplace. I also think that a change in place could be positive for both my husband and I, as we have never really felt part of this community and feel cramped in our duplex, which has become chronically messy. Overally, getting a new job would help me feel empowered to make a change and reaffirm my self esteem.
I apologize if this was long. I also hope that I didn't blow my anonymity to my potential new employer. I probably won't even get this job, but it is something that I have been worrying about since the interview and my husband and friends all say the same thing.

[cornermouse]

1. Although its true that you take your problems with you when you move,

you also change your surroundings and sometimes that's enough to change the equation into something that is easier to handle.People that affect you negatively are often not in your space any more and although someone may come along to replace them, it usually takes them a while to find you. If you want it, go for it and good luck. :)

[Nikia]

2. The people at this company do seem nicer

Everyone who I saw there said "hello" to me and smiled. That would never happen with a job candidate at the company that I am currently working for. I am sure that there are negative people everywhere, but from what I saw and asked about, it is a better people environment.
Where I am currently, if I stay, I could try harder to find and build positive relationships outside of work, but going somewhere for 40 hours per week that I don't want to be and being around people who are more negative than positive to my life, is certainly not a help to my situation.

[cornermouse]

3. I know.

I've been there too. Sometimes moving really does help.

[micrometer_50]

4. You must be a liberal.

You seem to have thoughtfully considered many of the ramifications
of such a big decision.
Four years of continuous employment is a good indication of your commitment to supporting your family.
The recommendation from a former co-worker is a big plus.
Good luck to you and yours.

:toast:

[Nikia]

5. Thanks

And yes, I am a liberal.

[hickman1937]

6. Good luck with whatever happens.

Change is scary, even change for the better.