I'm losing Amanda

[hyphenate]

I had to bring Amanda to the vet today for the third time in a month. She's been failing for awhile, but I thought it would be okay, since it started as a tooth infection.

She hasn't eaten food in quite a while, but I thought it was the sinus infection she got from the tooth. She's lost quite a bit of weight as well.

Today, the vet gave me a grim diagnosis. Apparently, there was an abscess in the tooth that broke, infecting her sinus cavity, and is pressing on the left eye, which is bulging out. She's probably in a lot of pain as well.

She gave me some pain medication for her, and told me to take her home for a couple of days to properly say goodbye to her. I have to go back to have her put to sleep probably Friday, or Monday if she is able to.

I hate doing this shit. I lost my three old ladies about ten years ago, and I lost two, Dax and Kira, in 2003. I adopted Amanda when her "mom" (one of my best friends) died in 2003. She is now 15 years old. I've grown very attached to her over the past two years. I'm going to miss her very, very much. :(

I'm going to have her cremated, and get the ashes. She can stay with the other three of my old ladies, and they will get their proper memorial.

I just wanted to let it out--there have been so many disappointments, tragedies and death and loss in my own life lately, and combine that with the state of the nation, and there is little wonder why there is so much demoralization right now.

[sakabatou]

1. At least you know where your last cat is

I suspect that my last cat is burried under the sidewalk somewhere...

[kikiek]

2. We went through that this past weekend. The pain is horrific. I am sorry

you will be feeling it too. Take care and bless you both.

[havocmom]

3. Heartfelt sympathies to you at this time.

They are such an important part of our lives and leave such big holes in our hearts.

Know that the bond and love does not pass when the vessel breaks. An old feline friend taught me that. Though I miss her touch still, after these many years, she let me know the bond remains.

You did a good thing to give her a loving home after you and her lost your mom.

Here when you need a shoulder.

Peace & strength to you
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[UrbScotty]

4. My dog Bonnie died in 2003

You can bet I miss her a lot.

:hug:

[Mikimouse]

5. Sending you and Amanda hugs and good vibes...

I always check my furchildren and hug them when I read threads such as yours. Please accept my most heartfelt condolences, and give Amanda a hug for all of us, from Pooky, DC and Tootsie!

[In_The_Wind]

6. I'm so sorry hyphenate

When it became apparent that my old golden retriever was near the end of his life ... I sat outside with him for hours every morning for his last 4 months. When it was time, we took him to the vet on July 30, 2001. I have his ashes in an urn. I understand your pain and sadness.

:hug:

[Bumblebee]

7. Sorry about that. We buried one of our cats last year

Still hurts. She was only 10.

[Sticky]

8. I'm sorry you have to go through this....

You sound like a wonderful, caring person. Amanda has been lucky to have you.

Try to enjoy your time together without thinking about the days or hours. And mostly, be good to yourself.:hi:

[alittlelark]

9. Give her ALL of your available time...

You know you are doing the right thing - you just wish it wasn't right now. There is never a good time. I know you are feeling horrible right now, but try not to let her see it.

I have cremated all of my fur-babies. Their urns and ashes will be cremated w/ me when I move on.

Peace.:hug: :cry:

[Vinnie From Indy]

10. Good Friends Are Always Hard To Lose!

Try to make a point of remembering the times she made you laugh. It helps!

[barb162]

11. OH, I AM SO SORRY

I hope the pain meds work really well and that you can keep her a few extra days. Peace for you and your little dear.

[hyphenate]

12. It will be hard to take her tomorrow

morning, but I held her today for a long time. She's been pretty much in the same spot I left her in yesterday evening lying on my bed. She's beyond all comprehension now, I think, and all I'm doing is crying. I know the decision to let her go is the best one, but it's always so hard to do. I am going to miss her terribly.