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BITTER WORDS
There she was, only twenty, a little lady with chestnut hair, sauntering past my eyes and a row of desks, a big, black belt around her hips, the briefest glance jolts my lightning crashing; the monsoon drizzles her bitter words
A Navajo poet - or what I imagined was one- once called her “the petite girl who always wore the white dress,” a static, thunder-filled dress by its own merit, but I sing Blackfeet warrior songs in my urban, desert shower about that cinched belt
Those torrential words! Swarming ubiquitous while I empathize her life, leafing through courage, finding similarities which may join us at those hips, drunk on minute memories we salvage together, intoxicated by alcohol I will never taste, storming electrical sobriety A German Pikuni, and an American Jew, I may love her for that reason alone; So what would Hitler, White Calf, TR and Ariel Sharon think? Surely,“ why the hell not?” If only she’d be foolish enough to fall in love with a man who would give her an oppressed drunk of a child
Then the desert blooms like Browning, Montana, festive, ripe as Indian Days in summer time, Yet I’m squalled over by bittersweet rain; longing to be gripped like her belt. That I could definitely handle! I would capture those words to a reservation home
We could ride around in my ugly green reservation car except that the mechanic sold it, because I never paid to get it from his shop, How embarrassing for her; a raging tempest speechless! Blushing from white trash indigenous shame. But, she is accustomed to disappointment anyway
Still, she is endearing: feminist yet fragile, opinionated and reticent, her words contrasting strength and vulnerability; this is when she is at her sexy, enthralling best, making me forget I swore off of white girls, since my friend married one for a month that did not last until death tore them apart
“You’re too much,” she says. This bad boy who is not one; her brilliant, acrid words scorching smooth like Thunderbird Now, I’ll leave where there are no monsoons, tightly cinched black belts, and the big powwow is over, I’m finished. Bitter. Raining. Remembering the days I made her bitter words laugh
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