If Only ... Nov 26 1927 - Aug 23 1997

[auntAgonist]

If Only

(anonymous)

If I had only known it was the last walk in the rain,
I’d keep you out for hours in the storm.
I would hold your hand, like a life line to my heart.
Underneath the thunder we’d be warm.
If I had only known it was the last walk in the rain.

If I had only known I’d never hear your voice again,
I’d memorize each thing you’ve ever said.
And on those lonely nights, I could think of you once more.
Keep your words alive inside my head.
If I had only known I’d never hear your voice again.

You were the treasure in my hand.
You were the one who always stood beside me.
So unaware, I foolishly believed that you would always be there.
But then there came a day,
And I turned my head and you slipped away.

If I had only known it was my last night by your side,
I’d pray a miracle stop the dawn.
And when you smiled at me I would look into your eyes
And make sure you know my love for you goes on and on.
If I had only known,
If I had only known,

The love I would have shown, if I had only known.


I wondered the other day why I was so 'out of sorts'. I was testy at work, weepy at home and bitchy everwhere else. Then IT dawned on me, the countdown to the 8 year anniversary of my Mother's death. God I miss her too much for words. I STILL go to pick up the phone to tell her things, and then realize she's not there. She was a wonderful soul, a kind and caring woman who worked far too hard too long. She moved from her home in Scotland together with my father and sister and brother to give us a better life in Canada. I took that for granted for the longest time, until I moved from Canada to the USA with my new husband! I never realized the homesickness she must have experienced, the not having family close by, the longing for something familiar. How I long for the days when I'd hear her say "coffee?" she loved to sit and have coffee with me. She loved her grandkids, they loved her, .. I miss my Mummy.... I really do.
Rest in sweet peace Mum, I love you .. forever and a day ...

In memory of a loving wife and our mother. Jessmina ******, Nov 26 1927 - Aug 23 1997

Mum, I know You watch over me, and I pray You are safe and pain free I miss Your touch. rest among the angels,...

ever loved always remembered,

Your daughter.

[Zomby Woof]

1. A beautiful tribute

:hug:

[auntAgonist]

6. thanks for the hug and for taking the time to read this.

:hug:
I just felt like letting people know , .. ya know?


:)

[bertha katzenengel]

2. Kesha

:hug: RIP Jessmina

(Maybe she hangs out with my Mom. Your Mum could have coffee; mine would have a Pepsi. :))

[auntAgonist]

3. just thinking

about the possibility .. is heartwarming.

thanks K!

:cry: :hug:

[JimmyJazz]

4. I'm sorry.

:hug: Your tribute to her was touching. It's nice to know that one can have such fond memories of a parent.

[auntAgonist]

5. thanks JJ

I really wish everyone could have fond memories of their parents. I feel very blessed.

[nini]

7. Unfortunately.. I know exactly how you feel

My dad died july of '98 and I get moments such as you described. It's a void that while we 'accept' still hurts. :cry:

This is a beautiful tribute. :hug: Sounds like you have many wonderful moments to remember your mother with.

[auntAgonist]

10. it does still hurt nini

the pain changes over time but it's still there. i too am sorry for your loss

:hug:

[Spacemom]

8. I didn't know who the poem was for

but as I read it, I thought so strongly of my mom. Then I get to the bottom of your post and read that you're thinking of your mom. I just lost my mom in June and it is unbelievably hard. You mention heading to the phone to call her up, and I do the same thing on a daily basis.

I have the same birthday as your mom. She sounds like a beautiful person and you honor her memory beautifully.

:hug:

[auntAgonist]

9. Spacemom;

many :hug:'s for you ..


the pain stays, it's just different as years pass. Seems like only yesterday though some days.


kesha.

[FuzzySlippers]

11. A beautiful tribute, auntieA.

:hug:

[auntAgonist]

12. I'm off to work, thank you all for taking the time

to read my post :)


it helped just to let it out .. y'know?

:hug: