I don't like the way I'm feeling

[allalone]

I've gone past stunned, past anger to some emotion that I can't even name. asshat's mumbling and bumbling today combined with the magical appearance of some aid has sent me over the edge. How can this be? What is this emeotion?

[redqueen]

1. Disbelief?

I've been there a few times over the past several years.

It'll pass... hope it does so soon. :hug:

[Splatter Phoenix]

2. I don't know.

I do know I feel guilty whenever I use the toilet, or eat. I feel guilty right now, being on the computer. guilt, guilt...no gratefulness, just guilt.

Hell, I didn't make the damn hurricane, I didn't NOT reinforce the levees, I didn't do any of that shit...x_X and yet...guilt.

[khashka]

3. Despair?

allalone, you are not all alone. We are all feeling it.

Khash.

[bliss_eternal]

4. (((allalone)))

We'll get through this. Don't worry about trying to label your feelings right now...just feel. It will come... In time, words will come to you to describe your feelings.

It took me to today to cry (with mourning and pain). Today was the first day I could actually name what I felt.

:hug:

[wovenpaint]

5. I know how you feel

I'm holding back a MAJOR rant-you're not all alone with this jumble of emotions.

I've been thru alot in this life so far (child of 60's:D) and as overwhelmed as I felt watching the Vietnam war on the news every night, it seemed to pale as I watched the Trade Towers fall on TV.

Over the last 5 years, I've found myself thinking time and time again that it can't get worse-but it does. The Iraq occupation....now this. It's just too much to witness. I feel very powerless and helpless right now. I live too far away and donating money just seems so...cavalier- I guess is the closest way to explain it.

Also, I think that having this happen on the heels of Cindy Sheehan's vigil and the birth of "Camp Casey", events that I watched unfold with ever so cautious hope-that hope has faded to horror now.
I'll keep a good thought for you-and all of us. I sure hope it helps. :hug: :hi:

[crispini]

6. Well, I keep thinking I am about to wake up.

I am having a hard time coming to terms with the fact that this is reality.

[wovenpaint]

7. Please read this. It helped.

www.democraticunderground.com/discuss/duboard.php?az=view_all&address=105x3952041