How dark is your darkside?

[Lilyhoney]

I have seen my darkside and it is ugly. It is mean and cruel and spiteful and vengeful. It hates you and it hates me. It lashes out without warning or relent. It is never sorry. It never forgives, or forgets. It takes and takes and takes and does not give anything of use or value in return. It has the will and the strenght to kill. It is raceist and predjudice. It is greedy and selfish. It is cold with a heart made of ice. It will kick you when you are down and wish you ill will. It will not help, only hinder. It lies, cheats and steels.It teases and taunts and tempts. And it smells very foul.

But it does have a weakness. It is afraid of the light. My light side is much stronger than the dark side has proved to be. With love,understanding and forgiveness I was able to bind it in restraints and put it in a place where it cannot hurt anyone.

I fear for the day if/when the beast breaks free.

Lilyhoney



(Each small candle lights a corner of the dark. -Pink Floyd)

[redqueen]

1. Scary dark.

Nearly as strong as my light side, I'm afraid.

[Lilyhoney]

12. May the light always be the victor!

:applause:

[Wetzelbill]

2. dark enough

I think we all have thoughts that can scare ourselves.

[Lilyhoney]

14. Unfortunatly, my dark said has acted out it's thoughts in the past.

May we all shine on...

[Wetzelbill]

33. you haven't murdered anybody have you?

:: gulp ::

[Lilyhoney]

47. some might think so.

[Shell Beau]

3. I don't think mine is very dark.

Really! I rarely ever ever ever have any type of dark thoughts. Even when I am at my very worst, I don't have too much darkness. Maybe I will one day, who knows? I have had enough bad experiences to have a dark side, but I haven't found it yet.

[Lilyhoney]

Shell Beau,

You will be the first person I call upon if my candle is burning low. :hi:

[Shell Beau]

8. I've got plenty of light to share!!

:hi:

[Lilyhoney]

6. self delete dupe

[djeseru]

4. Dark enough to try & kill off another part of me.

That side had some issues...

For the first time in years I'm doing okay with it.

[Lilyhoney]

9. Me too.

:pals:

[dpbrown]

5. Whew. That's pretty dark

I think I'd better keep the lights on for all our benefits.

:dilemma:

[Lilyhoney]

10. The brighter the better.

:hide:

[DS1]

7. When Dick Cheney walks into a room with me

it's like the lights just turned on

:D

[Wetzelbill]

11. hahahaha

[Lilyhoney]

16. I did'nt get it, then I thought I did, but I don't.

:hi:

[Lilyhoney]

42. Ok, now I do get it.

:silly:

[supernova]

13. Let's just say,

cemetaries feel like home. :hide:

[Lilyhoney]

15. I was just

reading your post, and when I read the word cemetaries, the person on tv said the same word at the same time. This happens to me ALL of the time.

Even when the words are unusual or not topical.

[Xipe Totec]

17. Forgive?

Never forgive,
But pretend to forgive.
Say amiably that you forgive.
Convince that you have forgiven.
Thus, devastating is the effect
When at last you lunge
And reach for the throat.

- Mixtzin, Aztec Autumn

If I die, I forgive you.
If I live, we shall see...

- Spanish proverb

(Are these dark enough?)

[Lilyhoney]

21. I think they qualify.

:spank:

[Xipe Totec]

27. LOL

That's why I must choose my friends carefully...

and my enemies doubly so...

:evilgrin:

[BlueIris]

18. Darker than any of my friends or family will ever know.

No, not in a violent, cruel or self-destructive way. Let's just say I've got certain moral...flexibilities. I've actually broken quite a few laws in my time--victimless crimes, as far as I know, but still. And you know how they say there are people who have a knack for seeing the best in others? Well, I can see the worst in your average human being, and that's another part of my dark side--my pessimism about what people are capable of knows no limits. This makes my vision for the future extremely bleak in many ways. So, yeah, my dark side...dark.

[Lilyhoney]

22. Moral flexibilities.

I love that. Thank you for your response. It is what I wanted to hear. The truth.

[Splatter Phoenix]

19. Very dark...

My dark side, I'm ashamed to say, has contemplated everything on the no no list from Genocide to Suicide... Almost always it gives up on the former, though murmurs resentfully, "Wouldn't that be great"... but the latter it lingers on, and says, "That will be great."


My dark side is an asshole, but we agree on what we'd like to see happen to Bushit and Co. ^_~

[Lilyhoney]

24. Thank you for your honesty.

Keep the balance.:hi:

[Splatter Phoenix]

25. Absolutely. v_V

I highly doubt I'd ever have the means to commit genocide, and my light side is a real wuss when it comes to suicide. XD So no need to worry.

[Rabrrrrrr]

20. If you were in a room that dark, you would go immediately insane

and gouge your eyes out while screaming in languages that are more ancient than the universe itself and which the human mouth was not created to speak, too blasphemous even for Satan himself.

[Splatter Phoenix]

23. Damn!

Topped again. WILL I NEVER FIND PEACE. (/angst)

[Lilyhoney]

26. Oh my word.

This should'nt make me laugh, but it does.

[Rabrrrrrr]

31. Thanks!

Maybe a little over the top...
































but then again, maybe true.

Dark times call for dark thoughts...

[Wapsie B]

28. Are you talking dark thoughts

or actions or both? My darkest thoughts can be overwhelming at times. But my light side wins out.

[Lilyhoney]

29. I just meant you and your personal dark side in general.

Keep up the good work in the battle of good vs evil.

[Wapsie B]

30. Thanks. It can be a struggle at times.

[sakabatou]

32. Undortunately, my dark side will put anyoen in the hospital...

Yeah, it's that powerful.

[no name no slogan]

34. Mine's landed me in the hospital

but I've already bored everybody with the details of that numerous times before.

It is always darkest before dawn. Don't EVER forget that.

[Lilyhoney]

54. That's when the birds start chirping. nt

[xmas74]

35. I've enjoyed revenge on more than a few occasions.

I definitely have a dark side.

[BigMcLargehuge]

36. Black, impenetrable black

I have looked into the abyss.

[arwalden]

40. That's Difficult To Believe...

... you're a new DADDY! How can you have a darkside?

[BigMcLargehuge]

41. we all have darksides

sometimes life makes you look deeply into yours. Mine did. I didn't like what I saw.

[sendero]

37. I embrace my dark side..

.... because it is as much a part of me as my light side.

I'd never physically injure someone, or hurt a child, but everything else is on the table :)

[Lilyhoney]

46. That leaves a pretty big spread on the table.

:evilgrin:

[sendero]

62. Yeah...

... but it's merely in the realm of possibility, not actuality :)

[khashka]

38. Jung was right, your shadow will be with you

Mine? Honestly?

Anger. The sick joy of cruelty. Arrogance. The overwhelming need to be in control - of myself and others.

You have to acknowledge it to fight it.

AVulgarianHue and I used to sit in Denny's and joke that we fit the description of the typical serial killer. I think it was more of a joke for her than it was for me.

There but for the grace of the Goddess go I....

So I try to find the kindness in myself rather than the cruelty. I try to be humble in the face of my own arrogance. I try to give up control rather than take it. I fail, but I try.

Khash.

[Lilyhoney]

45. "I fail, but I try".

:dilemma: :hug:

Thanks.

[enigmatic]

39. Dark as the basement in "Don't Look In The Basement"

pretty dark.

[Lilyhoney]

43. You just don't know how afraid of the basement I was as a child.

Until I lived in a basement and made it my sanctuary.
I am still afraid of what is down there but I am not afraid to go there.

[MrScorpio]

44. Very, Very Dark

It just may scare some of you

[Crazy Guggenheim]

49. Same here. I don't tell people about it; they would run as far as

possible.

[MrScorpio]

50. A few DUers actually know how dark I am

I'm NOT naming names

[Tikki]

48. Not so much....but don't you go disrespecting my husband or....

...my sons...

You will disappear.....

...oh, maybe, some people (nobody that counts) may claim that you still exist....



Tikki

[Lilyhoney]

53. Yours is the first response to actually scare me.

Did I offend you? Or are you just saying "you" in general? Because if I offended you, I did'nt mean to.

[Tikki]

55. Hey Lil.... you and I are just fine....

...ya know what I'm talking about??!!!!



Tikki

[Lilyhoney]

56. Just making sure. The dark side is strong on this thread.

:pals: :evilgrin:

[BlueIris]

59. It is? I find it comforting that so many of the nicer posters are the

ones admitting to a dark side--which is balanced out by a light side. The brighter the light, I guess.

[Lilyhoney]

71. Yes, the light does outshine the dark in this thread,

but the dark side is still strong, just contained.

:dilemma: :spank:

[leftofthedial]

51. it sucks light and all matter into its heart

[Lilyhoney]

58. Well lucky for you,

I just picked up a copy of "The Elegant Universe' superstrings, hidden dimensions, and the quest for the ultimate theory". If I find something in the book that might help that, I will let you know.

But seriously, that is heavy.

[leftofthedial]

70. let me know what you find out

I think the other side of the black hole is a new universe.

[Droopy]

52. Unspeakable

I've intentionally hurt more than one person in my life very badly. It's been a long time since I've done that and I like to think that I'm an enlightened individual now. The last time my dark side got the best of me I almost lost a life long friend. I called him the day after that event to apologize and the poor guy was crying over the phone. He said it was evil. I think what made the event more horrible to him is that I'm usually a mild mannered person and rarely do I show any anger. The contrast is what got him. And yes folks alcohol was involved.

I will forever be haunted by stuff like that. You can bet that I won't let it happen again.

[Lilyhoney]

57. Lesson learned is a good thing. Kind of like a growing pain.

Thanks for sharing.:spank:

[tjwmason]

60. To be entirely honest

It's one of the very few things of which I am genuine scared.

Nobody here has seen even a small fraction of it - for which both you and I should be most grateful.

[Lilyhoney]

66. May we never see it, unless we need it. nt

[WCGreen]

61. I have been to the pits of hell.......

And lived to talk about it....

[SarahB]

63. That's such a complex question.

Generally, I'm a happy, positive sort, but when I get sad, I tend to become extremely sad. Gut wrenching, want to jump off a bridge, bawling my guts out sad. Then I let it go.

I am patient and empathetic, but when I'm pushed over the edge, I can be downright cruel lashing back when I've been hurt.

I'm responsible, nurturing, and kind of geeky and quirky, but extremely sexual, raw, and full of emotion in certain contexts.

My extremes in my light and in my dark has been a tough balance in my life, in particularly in relationships. I'm an intense person at times and finding someone who could not only understand my dichotomies, but appreciate them (and I, theirs) wasn't ever simple. For the first time in my life I feel as though I have that. It's pretty cool. :)

[Lilyhoney]

67. I truely understand what you mean.

Thank you for sharing. :hug:

[MissMillie]

64. Not very dark

[Lilyhoney]

68. You are fortunate. nt

[bluestateguy]

65. Keep this quote in mind

"The dark side of the force is a pathway to powers some consider to be un-natural"

Chancellor Palpatine

Keep that quote in mind as we move into the 2006/2008 elections. I'm talking about doing some truly evil things that will just have to be done for the good of the country. Use your imagination.

[Lilyhoney]

69. I saw Star Wars a couple of weeks ago, and that quote

I heard loud and clear.

As for using my imagination, that can be scarry too.

[Schema Thing]

72. Not very

I guess I'm lucky that way.

I have extremely dark humor, but no real darkside. I take the pain, I never intentionally give it.

I'd be really proud of myself, except we're all just animals anyway.

[Lilyhoney]

73. I am amazed by what I find funny sometimes,

and am glad the laughther is only in my head.