I'm scared to go to sleep...

[VelmaD]

I had the worst nightmares I've had in years last night. So bad I woke up early early this morning sobbing and ended up running to the bathroom to throw up repeatedly. Never did get back to sleep...skipped work...tried to nap and failed...spent some time with my best friend and my niece trying to get my head back together...

And now I'm home and facing bedtime and I'm scared. :(

[TimeChaser]

1. Can you describe the dreams?

Or are they too personal?

[VelmaD]

4. It's really personal..

I'm fairly certain it ties in to my personal abandonment issues and some things that have been going on in my personal life the last month or so. But i'm really not ready to talk about the details with anyone...I just spent several hours with the woman who has been my best friend since I was 13 years old and I couldn't tell her about it. I can't even think about it without bursting into tears.

[Guy Fawkes]

2. distraction...

get a good book, something satiricle or funny, and read for a little while before you turn out the lights.

[VelmaD]

6. Thanks for the advice...

I have some good humor around the house and I will give it a try when I eventually go face the bed.

[Not_Giving_Up]

3. Damn

What were the nightmares??

[VelmaD]

5. Can't really talk about it...

see my post #4 above. Really personal stuff and thinking about it makes me cry and want to go throw up again.

[RevCheesehead]

7. Have you tried writing down your dream/nightmare?

As painful as it is, it might help to externalize it by writing it down. It may also help you (later) to look at it objectively when you are able.

I'm sorry for your pain, and sincerely hope you'll be able to sleep tonight.

[VelmaD]

8. That's probably a good idea...

I promised one of my friends earlier tonight that I would talk to him about it tomorrow. Maybe I'll spend some time tomorrow writing it all down first. I'm just not up to that yet I don't think. Gonna try to sleep...thanks to the well wishes. :)