I can't take any more of this

[leftofthedial]

I've tried for years now to ignore it, to just go on with life as though nothing is fundamentally wrong, to just keep trying, putting one foot in front of the other and soldiering on in the belief that somehow things would get better, that someday things would get back to "normal," whatever that was.

It's no use anymore. It's like I can "see" without the sunglasses from _They Live_ and it's just too insane to keep on any longer.

I'm sorry.

[lizziegrace]

1. I'm sorry if I'm a bit fuzzy

I'm having some troubles of my own. In what way can't you "keep on any longer"?

:hug:

[leftofthedial]

12. playing the game

going along like everything in our country still works according to the "rules."

It doesn't. It's time to stop pretending that if we just work a little harder, or get a few more votes to go our way, or play by the rules that things will change.

They won't. We need a fundamental, activist, no holds barred, hell-with-the-"rules" opposition to the current corporate, neocon, fundie trends.

Thank you for the hugs. I'm just fed up and pissed off. I'm mad as hell and I'm not gonna take it anymore!

Now I have to go to dinner and a movie with my daughter (who will be 18 in a couple of days, which I can't frigging believe!).

I hope I didn't scare anyone else. I guess the OP was kind of dark and desperate, which is cool, because I'm writing a song from the point of view of a dark and desperate person and I'm "in character."

[lizziegrace]

13. I hoped that's what you meant

I agree completely. I'm trying to square-off against a landlord who has money and obviously I don't.

My daughter turned 19 last week. I'm still shaking my head.

What movie are you seeing?

:hug: to you and your daughter. Enjoy a little sane time!

[leftofthedial]

14. We saw Good Night, and Good Luck

great movie. Made me even more pissed off.

Now we have 1000 McCarthy's and no Murrow's.

[Random_Australian]

2. You sound depressed. (No, I really am scared)

"Just too insane to keep on any longer" I want a promise that you'll talk to someone if you feel suicidal.

Wanna hug? Have one...:hug:

[leftofthedial]

15. I'm so sorry.

I am depressed, but definitely not suicidal. I didn't mean to scare anyone that way. Insensitive of me.

Thanks for the concern and the hug!

[LaurenG]

3. It's always darkest before the dawn

at least that's what I was taught and seemed to be true so far. Is it the neocons? If so they are destroying themselves, hang in there, NOTHING lasts forever.:hug:

[leftofthedial]

16. It's always darkest

right before it gets totally fucking black!

I'm just pissed off is all. Thanks for the hug.

[Random_Australian]

4. I want that Promise LeftOfThe Dial!

I'm serious!

(kicks post)

Been there myself.

[leftofthedial]

19. see above, Random_Australian

All is good on the wellbeing front at the moment.

(although it's time for my husky's late walk around the park, which I may not survive. he's been cooped up way too much today.)

[Blue_Tires]

5. wow....i thought i was the only one that felt this way

a lot of crap going on in my life as well

[leftofthedial]

17. i'm just offal

circling a drain it seems.

[Blue_Tires]

27. we'll try to pull out of this shit together?

how about it?

[huskerlaw]

6. leftofthedial...

I'm really worried about you, please find someone you trust to talk to. :hug:

[leftofthedial]

18. I'm sorry huskerlaw

I'm not suicidal or anything like that. Just totally fed up with the way things are. I'll be changing some (more) things about my life to help myself find harmony somewhere. But first, I'm pissed off.

Thanks for the hug.

[huskerlaw]

26. Pissed is good

suicidal isn't. I'm glad you're ok. No need to be sorry, that's what we're all here for.

:hug:

[MaggieSwanson]

7. leftofthedial, please don't despair

We need people like you too much. You are part of a community that rails against the powers that be, and we all are here for each other. At least in the Lounge.

[leftofthedial]

20. I'll keep on railing!

Thanks, MaggieS!

[Random_Australian]

8. LeftOfTheDial! Where are you! Answer goddammit!

I'm not letting a fellow DU'er sink into despair!
Promise, dammit! Promise you'll talk to someone if this all gets too much!
CALL 1-800-273-TALK if you need to! LeftOfTheDial! Don't give up... Please.

[leftofthedial]

21. I'm so sorry I alarmed you.

I guess it was kind of a dark post.

I just got back from a dinner and movie with my daughter, so I'm feeling pretty good right now. .

[Sugar Smack]

9. leftofthedial, we love you. You're special and you make us laugh.

I know that one of the things that moves us to humor is pain. Are you talking about our current administration, or is this a more personal thing than that? I've felt what you're feeling about our country for some time, occasionally waking up to the nightmare. I'm really sorry, too, if it's personal.

Will you check in with us please? We care about you so much. :hug:

[leftofthedial]

22. man, I feel like an idiot. I'm pissed and things DO suck.

but I'm not a quitter.

I have a close friend whose son committed suicide a little over a year ago. I will NEVER do that to those I love, so don't y'all worry when I get dark.

Thanks for the concern, the affection and all the hugs!

I'm sorry I alarmed you.

[Deja Q]

10. No apology needed. You're a free man.

We're all mortal anyway.

[leftofthedial]

23. if only I was a free man in Paris!

LOL

[SofaKingLiberal]

11. Don't give up.

At the risk of sounding cliche, don't give a temporary problem a permanent solution.

You are not alone, many of us have been there before and it can get better.
I know you feel like the darkness won't end, but you are wrong. I can tell you're a good person and we can't afford to lose people like you.
Please seek help, continue the fight.

[leftofthedial]

24. I'm no quitter. Don't worry.

I used to think things could be better
Now I wonder how things will get worse

But, I'll never stop trying to make it better.

[graywarrior]

25. You didn't cause it, you can't control it and you can't cure it.

Sometimes you have to accept it or it will kill your spirit. I get that way often. Nothing you can do but let it pass. Hey, you have us.

[BelleCarolinaPeridot]

28. I felt the same way you did a couple of weeks ago ...

I got fed up and got myself some help . Had a bit of an attack last night due to not eating but I can tell you , going to the doctor's really helped me .

I hope that things get better for you . One day at a time and everyone at the DU is behind you 100% :hug:

[Blue_Tires]

29. feeling any better?

[khashka]

30. Don't be sorry

I was a little radical to begin with, but the sunglasses in They Live made all the difference.

Totally crap movie! But I began to see how we are manipulated and never see it.

So don't give up! Sure it's a tough fight! Any fight worth fighting is! Are there setbacks? Lost battles? Sure, there are!

But if it's worth fighting for, it's worth figting for! We all get a little tired and need some R&R.


But the fight ain't over until we are dead!



Khash.