I just woke up from the worst nightmare of my life..

[everythingsxen]

I almost threw up when I awoke and now I am slowly sipping coffee to try and clear my head. I gotta get out of the funk I am in...

That dream !@#$ed me up.. bad.

:scared:

It makes me want to go see a shrink.

Basically I dreamed I went to school (not unsuprising considering my talking yesterday about wanting to go college); except it was an elementry school and even though I was me, everyone else was little kids. I couldn't do anything right in class and I kept getting beaten up. (By little kids! :o)

One bully in particular was really bad and one of my RL friends was in the dream and he joined this bully against me and told me to eff off and die.

But wait it gets worse. :scared:

I dreamed then that I went home and was talking to someone online; she told me we could never speak again and to go eff off and die.

Then there was another part that I don't want to say here, basically in which I was told the meaning of the dream. It was not very nice.

Finally, it ended with me running away crying. I ran through a giant throng of people.. everyone I have ever known in my life, plus a lot I've never met. They were all yelling at me, telling me to kill myself and holding various methods of suicide (nooses, guns, razors etc.) and also laughing at me and insulting me.

I woke up and wanted to cry. It was pretty awful. It was also pretty "real". I feel so ill. I also feel really depressed. I went for a quick walk to clear the vomiting butterflies out of my stomach, however, I can still hear the voices of all these people I know yelling to kill myself. (No, I'm not going to, it was really horrible though) :cry:

I am eating some chocolate and drinking coffee hoping that will alter my chemicals or whatever and make me feel a little better.

[demnan]

1. I hope I can help.

First of all it seems you are very worried about what your friends and peers think of you. I just want to tell you that what is true for you is true at any age - if your friends are decent friends, they will stand by you, if not then you are better off without them. It doesn't change your value as a person if they act like jerks.

Secondly, I think young people place a lot of importance on friends. Later on you may place more value in your family - parents, brothers, sisters and such.

Most of all, place a lot of value on yourself. You are the only person who can truly do that for you.

[everythingsxen]

3. Yeah I know.. thanks.

I am feeling a little better now, the cold terror in my blood having moved out of the way of warm coffee and sweet chocolate. :D

It was just such a gut-wrenching nightmare.

Why couldn't it have been something stupid like being chased by a vacuum cleaner? (My recurring childhood nightmare that's not haunted me for years) :shrug:

[La_Serpiente]

2. Eeeek

that sounds like a scary dream. Sometimes, loneliness can be a frightning thing, worst than some other situations.

[OldEurope]

4. Cheer up. I think the message of your dream is not that people

don´t like you anymore or that you should commit suicide. I think, the message is just: you should change some things,e.g. go to the college!
Dreams of one´s own death are normally interpreted as a invitation to go through changes. So don´t be afraid.

:hug:

[everythingsxen]

5. Thanks.

I am feeling better, still a little shaken though. It's so hard to erase the really terrible parts from my mind.

[Syncronaut Seven]

6. Psyops

You live next to a cell phone tower? ;) I had a creepy one this morning too. I was letting the black widow spiders hang around for company, but when I decided to evict them there were thousands of little ones. They were not thrilled about being evicted & were coming for me. I was looking for the Raid when the alarm went off.

Wierd, we don't even see black widows up here in Portland. Maybe they've put something in the water.

[everythingsxen]

7. May be..

:shrug:

Lots of black helicopters fly around here......

and there is a cell phone tower nearby.

[Cheswick2.0]

8. you are thinking of big changes in your life

and a lot of us were giving you suggestions. Even though you are ready for change and looking for ideas, in a way we were telling you that who you are now will die and you will have a rebirth. I know I am not saying this well, but major change often feels like death. It can be very scary.
You will be fine.

[AlienGirl]

9. Chocolate and coffee, good

I like the iterpretations about death and rebirth, though.

It could also just be a "sum of all fears" nightmare; I have those too.

:hug:

Tucker

[everythingsxen]

10. Chocolate and coffee very good.

They defeat terror well!

I lean toward the "sum of all fears" dream; though the rebirth thing could be applicable as well.

[Bossy Monkey]

11. They're the worst, except for alcohol

Both affect dream cycles adversely. Stop both (at least the coffee) or get used to this kind of dream all the time.