The perfect kiss

[Ediacara]

Please allow me to take a trip down my own memory lane.

Eight years ago, when I was much younger, I briefly dated a guy named Mike. Mike was a sweet guy, very smart, good looking, and generally fun to be around. Our relationship ended when he went back with his ex, a very pretty, but horrifyingly immature drug addict named Scott. They had "history."

Amid all the anger I have felt concerning Mike and Scott, above all I have a fond memory. In fact, it's the fondest memory of the most perfect kiss I've ever had.

Mike and I are very short men, both within a quarter inch of 5'6". This perfect kiss took place outside, on a paved trail in a wooded area on the campus of the University of Washington. It was raining and we were both soaked. Because we are the same height there was no painful neck craning, no too-tall or too-short to worry about. There was just Mike, and a tight embrace, and the cold rainwater running off our faces and into our mouths. For the very first time I lost all fear of kissing another man in public. It was perfect.

A few days ago, I learned that Mike committed suicide in early 2004. I had always assumed that one day Mike and I would reconnect, apologize, make up, and become friends again. Instead I've been completely shocked and overwhelmed. There are so many things I need to say to him, so many things he needs to know about his influence on me becoming the man I am now. So many things that just echo in my head. I know that one day, somehow, I'll get the message to him.

I also know that when I think of Mike, the very first and very last memory I will think of, is the memory of this most perfect kiss.

[Ptah]

1. I'm saddened to learn of your loss.

:hug:

[Ediacara]

6. thank you

I can't imagine what Scott has been through. Part of me wants to contact him and apologize, but most of me doesn't want to reopen the still fresh wounds.

[AussieDave]

2. That is so sad - I'm sorry to hear that

but at least you have that kiss to remember him by. It's funny how life takes turns, but it's always depressing (to me, anyway) to think about the "what might have been".

Hugs to you, mate....:hug:

[Ediacara]

3. Thanks

In the meantime, I've been married and divorced, and I'm now happily dating a man that I think I'm pretty much committed to for life. But I think maybe, if I were to turn back the hands of time, I could have had an equally happy path with Mike.

More than anything, this reenforces to me that you should only hold grudges for so long. I don't know if I could have done anything to help Mike had I been in touch with him, but it hurts me to know I wasn't able to try.

[Droopy]

4. I'm sorry, DinoBoy

Best wishes for a happy future and many more fond memories being created.

[Ediacara]

5. thank you

[petronius]

7. That's a powerful story - thank you for sharing it... (nt)

[GoddessOfGuinness]

8. Oh no...I'm so sorry, Dinoboy

:hug:
I hope Mike has found peace...

[Ediacara]

12. me too

thanks :hug:

[CaliforniaPeggy]

9. My dear DinoBoy.........

That is the most beautiful story, sweetie....

Thank you for telling it to us...

Isn't it funny how much good a simple kiss can do for us?

I recently shared one that was wonderful too.......

It will live in my memory forever!

And we must always remember to tell the people that we love......that we love them!

I don't honestly think you can say it too often.


:hug:

That which is remembered, lives......

Mike gave you a great gift........the gift of love.....

[Ediacara]

13. You are so right

Life is too short to let pride and anger get in the way of love.

[lavenderdiva]

10. that is a beautiful story, DinoBoy-

thank you for sharing it. A perfect, sweet kiss in the rain. What a lovely memory of Mike for you to hold onto.

I am so sorry for your loss, but am glad that you still have sweet memories of Mike to keep forever. :hug:

[Lethe]

11. sorry to hear about it

one of my good friends commited suicide while i was at college. to this day, i feel guilty because i know if i would have only called him i could have prevented it. i feel this 100%. i could have prevented my friend's death but i just didnt know about his problems at the time.

[Floogeldy]

14. I believe that he hears you and has received the message.

;)

I wish Peace to your heart and soul, DinoBoy.

[xchrom]

15. the bitter and sweet of remembrance.

take it easy dinoboy.

[terrya]

16. I'm so sorry about your loss

That's...so heartbreaking. It would have been wonderful indeed if Mike came back and you guys got back together again.

Perhaps you and Mike will re-connect sometime.

But for now...please hold on to the good memories of Mike. And the perfect kiss.

:hug:

[In_The_Wind]

17. I'm so sorry, DinoBoy.

I can only imagine how horrible it must have been to get this shocking news.

[Phillycat]

18. Oh, I'm so sorry. What a sad story.

Thank you for reminding me today that life is short and I should live fully each and every day, and tell the people important to me that I love them. :hug:

[miss_american_pie]

19. I'm so sorry for your loss

That's a beautiful memory. :hug:

[MadAsHellNewYorker]

20. thanks for sharing

:hug:

[redqueen]

21. I'm so sorry for your loss...

Thanks for sharing that lovely memory, though. I'm glad you got to experience something like that... *sigh*

:pals:

[NewWaveChick1981]

22. Oh, DinoBoy, I'm so sorry for that...

:hug: I just wanted to let you know that yours is a beautiful story. I'm saddened that it ended before you could reconnect. :hug: