What age would you like to go back to if you could?

[BelleCarolinaPeridot]

Me I am alright at the age of 26 but I would'nt mind being a baby 0 months to the age of 4 again. I had it made :)

[idgiehkt]

1. I'd like to have some time back

Having finally found out what is wrong with my brain and the way I relate and percieve the world around me (or don't, mostly, lol) I would really have like to have found out a lot sooner than my late 30's. Even 30 would have been a better age than now.

[BelleCarolinaPeridot]

2. Me too...

I would do a lot of things differently now if I knew that I had a chemical imbalance that causes depression. But I work on what I have now and I don't take any day for granted.

[idgiehkt]

3. I'd certainly give anything to be 26 again.

I found out about the depression in my early 20's. Of course, I was misdiagnosed a few times too, most glaringly as bi-polar (manic depression) although I can say with complete confidence at 38 that I have never had a single manic episode in my life.

[BelleCarolinaPeridot]

4. I went to the doctor's for the first time this past February.

It got to the point where I could not go on the way that I was. And I was given medication but I don't to rely on medicine. Although with the week I had I feel like going back on my meds.

I think I started feeling signs of depression when I was in HS. Because I would spend my summers crying for no reason. I remember wanting to just disappear , wanting to not exist. I can't even remember or tell you why I felt like that. Its just the way my mind was. By the time I got to college - it was beyond repair. I was not under any supervision and I did not have a lot of support so I felt even more lost. And that made me go into a stage where I had panic attacks and nervous breakdowns. I felt like I was closer and closer to suicide everyday. I took myself out of college. Then I moved to Germany where I got some "peace". But then that peace ended when my then fiance started hitting me. I thought I could hide the pain through pain killers , kind of like having a natural high so I could feel alright through the pain. Came home in 2004, felt ok. But eventually by 2006 I got myself some help and tackled my problems and now I ok :)

[idgiehkt]

6. wow.

It sounds like you have really been through the ringer. I am so glad that things are going well and that you feel like you have tackled things and found what works for you. I also fell apart in college, fell into addiction/whatever. Actually I think that one of the reasons I'm still around is that I left college when I did and went to work. I was a functional alcholic but it did give structure to my life that college didnt' since I would stay out of class so much.

I'm sorry you were in an abusive relationship, I didn't experience anything like that til my late 20's after I stopped drinking/using...weird.

Right now I'm just kind of grieving. I finally have an answer for why I am so weird, but there has just been alot of damage done to my life for not knowing this, from the way my family reacted to my weirdness and disconnection with them as a child forward and I'm just processing it. I'll be over it eventually. I always wanted an answer and now I have one, I'm just sad it took so damn long...this is after years of doing all kinds of twelve step/therapy work that I legitimately needed.

[BelleCarolinaPeridot]

9. My family did'nt know how to act around me once I came home from Germany

because before I left I was in a state of deep depression. When I came back I was a totally different person and I just turned myself around. Everything did not happen over night. I just had to take the iniative to make myself better before I start a family. And now that my family sees that I am happy and that I am doing good things, they act alright behind me. I used to have crying fits and I would go off for no reason. But now I just laugh it off because I don't want to be sad again.

[idgiehkt]

12. my family are all crazy too.

they don't have any room to talk, lol.

I am really glad it is working out for you.

The bi-polar thing really resonated with my family and not in a good way. I was the 'scapegoat' in the dynamics of my family so when that diagnosis came down it was just proof in the pudding to them that I was 'the crazy one'. It's laughable to me now because I'd love to be bi-polar given the choice between that and straight depression but the truth is I'm just a depressive like practically all of them are. In fact most of them have been on meds. I like being 'high' (though I've been clean save for a couple of hours for 14 years) so I think I would enjoy having a manic period every now and then, but I just don't have them. However my family won't let that botched diagnosis go. Whatever...even though I get tired of having it thrown in my face occasionally when they get mad at me, I'm powerless over it. They can believe what they want.

They are all just as sick as me, in fact most of 'em are sicker because very few have done any real work on themselves and their is harrowing child abuse in both my parents' backgrounds. It's sad to me really. I am just the only one who became an addicted person and the only one who sought therapy, which they see as a deficit on my part but I do not.

Because of my history of depression I am always worried were I to have a child that I might have post-partum depression. I wonder if the two are related?

[BelleCarolinaPeridot]

16. I have wondered and worried about that too.

I worry because I already have depression and post partum depression would just make it even worse.

[MissHoneychurch]

5. Considering that I am only 31

and don't have much choice, I would say mid to late 20s. I want to change some of my decisions back then x(

[BelleCarolinaPeridot]

7. Guten Morgen !

Wie geht's dir :) :hi:

[MissHoneychurch]

8. Guten Morgen

:) :hi:

I am doing fine. Got over my jet lag, had a long weekend and next weekend I will go to London :D

So I can't really complain right now.

How are you doing?

[BelleCarolinaPeridot]

10. Es geht mir gut :)

It would be better if today was Friday. Oh my gosh work this week has been nervewrecking . I need some of these headache pills

Sometimes when I am there I just want to put a pillow over my head and go to sleep.

[MissHoneychurch]

11. It is hump day

week is almost over :pals:

Do you already work in the other department?

[BelleCarolinaPeridot]

17. Not yet ...

dear lord I don't know what is going on. There is just weird things going on. I just have to be patient.

[Ariana Celeste]

13. 8 & under

before the problems began, before my mom divorced the man who raised me as his own, before the abuse, and most importantly before my brother died. x(

[MissHoneychurch]

14. ...

:hug:

[Ariana Celeste]

15. ...

:hug: thank you.

[Skittles]

18. I wouldn't

I like the wisdom attained with age

[TheBaldyMan]

19. late twenties - early thirties : easily best years of my life

they were the happy mix of youth and maturity, not too much of either.

[GreenTea]

20. 93!

[RFKHumphreyObama]

21. 16-20

The best years of my life. Young, optimistic, idealistic, hopeful for the future, my life situation was ideal and I was living in an environment of peace and prosperity with a wonderful and visionary Democratic President in the White House.

Those were the days

[NewWaveChick1981]

22. I would go back to 25 or 26 and make a few major decisions differently.

My life would probably be much better because of that. :)

As far as how I feel now and how "together" I am, I'd just stay 43 the rest of my life. :woohoo: :D :bounce:

[wildhorses]

23. 15 and never mind why

[anarch]

24. The Age of Leo

10,500 BC - 8,000 BC or so. That would be cool.

[HarukaTheTrophyWife]

25. If I knew what I know now, I'd probably go back to about 14.

I'd appreciate my dad more, because I feel like I didn't show it enough. He died when I was 19. I'd also change some personal choices, because there's shit I've really fucked up along the way, that I really wish I didn't get set back by.

[xchrom]

26. if i could know what i know now -- or have a better sense

of the future -- i'd be a teenager.

[Haole Girl]

27. Couldn't do it again..

..it was too painful.

[cobalt1999]

28. Can I just have this year over again?

It was a lot of fun, I'd like to do it one more time before proceeding on.