Who, me? Drunk? Nah, never happens

[crim son]

Lovely and charming women of the Lounge, to what do you attribute the fact that men take you for granted? I had a gentleman tonight, who I know is interested, tell me "So, shall we leave it up to chance?" Yes, we shall, but Christ, my friend... show a little enthusiasm.

I'm way too old for this shit, despite being cool lik Miles Davis. I hate being old.

[Shell Beau]

1. He was being a gentleman! That is sweet!

[idgiehkt]

2. "leave it up to chance"

nice. Tell him you'll leave it up to the chance you've got any energy left after you wear out a few 25-30 year olds.

Eff that mother, where is he, I'll beat his ass. Yeah. After I take a bath. Mmmhmm. Sumbitch.


:hi:

and you are way, WAY cooler than Miles Davis. And you play piano better too. He did play piano or something, right?

[crim son]

5. I don't know.

SA said that. I am stupidly drunk so I imagine it means something which it does not. Stupid online nothing bonds.

Idg. I am hopeless.

[Ms_Dem_Meanor]

10. He played the saxophone

[crim son]

15. Amusingly, one of my Loves did play the sax, and every instrument

he came across. I hated him for it!

[Ms_Dem_Meanor]

18. did you beat him with it?

I would have.:evilgrin:

[crim son]

22. Nah. I am always weak when confronted with those assholes

who play everything by ear. Plus, it's not his fault I wasn't the one. :) I suspect I am nobody's one.

[Ms_Dem_Meanor]

25. Honey, You are ALWAYS the ONE!!!

He just WASN'T the one in YOUR league!!!:D

[crim son]

27. Oh sweetie.

Thank you. Stupid drunk Lisa.

[Ms_Dem_Meanor]

32. I think that...

If it weren't for us, their raggedy ass wouldn't even be here. Women gave men life and they need to realize that we can take it away. So cheer up and have a :hug: or :hug: :hug:

[crim son]

35. I will take them!

You are right. I have often the oddest experiences... it doesn't matter. I am what I am and nothing more or less, yes? Thanks, Ms_Dem-Meanor! :hug:

[Ms_Dem_Meanor]

37. Your welcome.

Here's some candy for you:


Enjoy! :D

[crim son]

40. Mr. Law is my kind of candy.

And I love you for knowing that! :loveya:

[Ms_Dem_Meanor]

43. AWW!!!

Love you too.:loveya: And have a great night honey.:D

[Ms_Dem_Meanor]

3. Do you want...

a gentleman or an asshole? I know you want the one that is in between. :)

[crim son]

6. stupid duplicate

[Ms_Dem_Meanor]

12. Okay, you just want some for right now.

I'm with you on that. Go on and work it, girl! :applause:



Edit: Response to # 7

[crim son]

14. Not exactly. I want nobody who lumps me in with all the other

lovely tits and ass out there. It's a tall order and I doubt it will be filled.

[Ms_Dem_Meanor]

21. A considerate asshole?

Okay, I got'cha. ;)

[crim son]

7. I want nobody other than the man who left me.

So I guess I want the most foul asshole you can imagine.

[Ms_Dem_Meanor]

16. Stop drinking!

Response to edit for #6 :hangover:

[crim son]

20. I have.

An hour ago. But thank you for the advice.

[Ms_Dem_Meanor]

We have to watchout for each other...

no matter where we are. :)

[S n o w b a l l]

4. I stopped thinking they were taking me for granted

a long time ago. Now it's usually me taking them for granted and I don't feel an oz of guilt doing that.

[crim son]

9. But engi,

you can only think that way if you deliberately ignore what they do.

I want to want nobody. I wish I wanted to be alone. I miss - thinking I was loved though I wasn't. As I said, I am maybe drunk!

[S n o w b a l l]

36. And that's what I do...

You get to that point when you finally feel self sufficient. Who really fucking cares? There's no guy or anyone else worth more than you. One day when you are alone, you might just find you like it. It's not the end of the world to be alone. I've found it very enlighteng & satisfying. You don't need a man to love you...

[crim son]

41. I agree. It's just when one rejects you after promises and

more, your heart is shattered. There will definitely be no other and I wish I was happy about that!

[BarenakedLady]

8. Hey baby!

How are you? I've been missing you. :hug:

:toast:

You are NOT old young lady!!! Don't make me come over there and smack you. :spank:

[crim son]

11. K

I am lonely. Why does nobody... ah, self pity. The quicksand of the lonely. Fuck that eh, sweetie?

[BarenakedLady]

19. Why does nobody what?

Come on tell me. I'm lonely too. I haven't even been out of the fucking house since Wednesday. I didn't even bother getting dressed today.

Let's talk self pity, sister.

:hug::loveya:

[crim son]

24. BNL,, imagine dressing yourself up.

Doing your hair and your makeup just right, so you don't intimidate anybody. And then you go out! You are approached, you are flattered, you are wooed. But something about you is so horrible, ugly, dreadful. that at the end of it all you go home alone and are GRATEFUL. BNL. I hate being this old woman. In my head, I'm twenty! LOL.

edited: typos. There are probably more.

[BarenakedLady]

28. You want to know what happens when I do go out...

All dressed up and purty with my friends....Absofuckinglutely NOTHING. I've NEVER been approached in a club or a bar or any other place for that matter. I go home feeling like a fucking ugly-assed piece of shit EVERY FUCKING TIME. And I swear, it happens every time....

There is obviously something about me that is totally unapproachable. I'm scared to death that I'll never find love....if I'm ever out there again. God that is depressing...I think I'll toast to that.

:toast:

Pardon my foul language...

[crim son]

30. It's only because I am irrepressably cheerful that people talk to me.

And then they decide I'm insane.

BNL, I would hug you if I could :pals: :loveya: You WILL find love. You are nothing, NOTHING like an ugly woman. The only difference between us is that I am bold but, sweetie, no man likes a brave woman.

[BarenakedLady]

34. No man seems like a timid one either

Which is only me at first...then I'm a tigress. LoL. RAWR! And I'm also insane...so I've got that going for me...:rofl:

Oh yes, I can just see the line forming for when BNL is available. *snort*

Hey we can do this all night....wheeeee....:nopity:

I'm probably better off just sucking it up and remain living my life in a constant numb dazed state. :silly:

I can't take another rejection.

[crim son]

39. ,I understand. I think tonight I will crawl into bed with Chris.

He may be a sonofabitch, but he's the only one who looks at me tired and old, and thinks I'm lovely. BNL! You are wonderful and the people who don't recognize that deserve to be fried in cheap oil! :hug:

[BarenakedLady]

47. Are you sure you want to do that?

Tomorrow you may feel a hell of a lot different. I haven't been tempted to do that yet, but I'm sure it's only a matter of time when I cave in to just wanting to be held again. :(

[crim son]

49. It's been almost a year. I begin to think that if I were meant

to be alone, to be strong, then I would feel that way by now. MJC went back to his wife and I believe she was much more horrible than my Chris, in many ways. If he thought she was worth the trouble then... what? She was worse than him but he went back. I might as well. BNL, I have lost my resolve! Don't do it because it doesn't feel like a triumph. :hug:

[SPKrazy]

55. It Isn't A Triumph!

It sucks, it hurts, it felt right before. The only difference is now you are drunk and feeling sorry for yourself

but what the hell do I know?

:shrug:

[crim son]

60. Well, you have that right!

I've been feeling sorry for myself for months. Any time when it's not apparent is an act! Really, I am more confused and shocked than anything else. I never believed anybody could lie like he did. Now I know and I will never be so stupid again.

I'm going to bed, pawpicker. Sleep well!

[SPKrazy]

64. Good Night

:loveya: :hug:

[SPKrazy]

13. Come On Old Fucker!

you're old like me

let's blow this pop shop and go somewhere that people appreciate us old fogies!

I'd tell him to blow it out his stupid ass

I'd just tell him you're leavin' las vegas!

I'm leavin' las vegas, I'm leavin for good!

I'm standin' in the middle of the desert waitin' for my ship to come in!

You are the best crimminal sweetie!

Jest stick with me kid, I've got it all under control (well not really but who the hell cares?)
Let's go have fun, blackjack on a Saturday night

:hug: :loveya:

[crim son]

17. Pawpicker, I would lose the game and ruin everything.

I don't understand why he left me. I'm pretty freaking outstanding. But he left. Pawpicker (S) why?

[SPKrazy]

23. Because He's A Moran!

you know why he left

he was using you to make her jealous

he used you and led you along for 7 months

unless you are talking about the dude tonight, he's just a frickin' super moran

I know what you look like, and more importantly I know some about what is in your heart.

Anyone who walks away from that is a major league fool.

end of that story

:hug: :loveya:

[crim son]

26. I am talking about him.

He said I was his soulmate, S. I loved him and I was too old and hideous, or too smart, or too comfortably well off, or something. In some way I was not deserving and how am I supposed to fix that/ I don't know how, pawpicker. No amount of alcohol makes me understand why I turned from beautiful to hideous in his eyes.

[SPKrazy]

29. Ohhhh Crimmie!

alcohol won't help you figure it out either.

He was using you! USING you to make his wife jealous! He succeeded and kept you on a string just in case it didn't work out. I'm sorry it hurts :hug:

You are soooo much better than that and I've told you many times before, but I won't ever stop telling you that you are wayyyyy too good for that type of treatment. No matter if you feel guilt about what you did (had sex) it doesn't justify bashing your self over and over because of HIM>


Please go to bed soon and let this go. You are a beautiful woman inside and out. I know that you want to diminish that idea. I can't stop you from that. I just know the truth!

:hug: :hug: :hug: :hug: :hug: :loveya:

[crim son]

31. S, if I were beautiful he would not have left me.

This I know is truth. But I do thank you for being a good and loyal friend. :loveya;

Pawpicker, why do men lie? I would have been with him even if he hadn't lied

[SPKrazy]

33. Women Lie, Men Lie

people lie to get what they want

if you were beautiful? :spank:

:loveya:

that's me, good and loyal friend...

:cry:

[crim son]

42. Really.

I didn't lie.

You are a friend; there is nothing to be sad about there. I need you and good people like you to keep me alive.

[SPKrazy]

45. I Know You Didn't Lie

I just said women lie

if I'm sad, it's just the way it is.

[crim son]

46. I wish I could fix it. I know I can't.

I have no idea how to fix anything! :hug: :hug: :hug:

[SPKrazy]

53. Little Stupid Hugs Help!

why I don't know

thanks

now straighten up! Or I will come and kick your ass!

:hug: :hug: :hug:

[crim son]

57. I wish you would!

I need a hug but I think I will crawl into bed with the STBE. He's got to be useful somehow. Goodnight, pawpicker. :hi:

[SPKrazy]

59. Don't Do It! nt

[crim son]

61. Convince me.

I'm so lonely S. I used to think I was... I don't know... good, okay. Now I realize it was an illusion and I am screwn! It's self-pity but it's also facing reality, you know? There are so many older women out there, looking for somebody to love them. I know Chris loves me no matter what form it takes.

Dissuade me, S. Or don't - I'm okay :hug:

[SPKrazy]

63. ...

I just don't know what to say to you sweetie. I can't make you see what I see and believe. I also don't know what's best for you either. So, I want to believe you are okay, but I think you are not and that you are feeling lonely and hopeless tonight (and drunk) and that you are making decisions based on that.
Oh I don't know crimmie, I can't make it better either.. :hug: :hug: :hug:

[crim son]

67. Goodnight, pawpicker.

You have been a big help. Sleep well, my dear friend.

[lildreamer316]

48. This is SO not true.

It is because he saw your beauty and thought that he was not deserving that he left.
He will never admit this, but it is true.
You are beautiful and he is worthy. He does not believe this. That is HIS problem. NEVER NEVER yours. Do NOT own his problems.
I love you.:hug:

[crim son]

50. lildreamer316, you bring the tears which are always close to the surface,

to overspill. I thought he was worth it but he did not.

Jesus Christ, I will not recover from this. Your kind words help though. They really do.

[lildreamer316]

54. .....

:hug: :hug:

[SPKrazy]

56. Yayyy LilDreamer!

so damned right, so damned right!

:hug:

[liberaltrucker]

38. Me, either

**hic**

:puke:

:rofl:

[crim son]

44. I am sobering up!

Or ag least I have no inclination to puke :) I hope you are happier, my dear friend, than I am tonight. :hug:

[Mary Tyler Moore]

51. Awww crim son

I know how you feel. Time will help, that's really the only thing.
I have cried a million tears, letting them flow in a running shower, and I wondered if that anchored me to the pain, rejection and loss. It actually brought forth a new strength, fabricated out of necessity, but authentic all the same.

I'm sorry this happened to you.

[crim son]

52. MTM, do you think so?

It has been just about a year and it does not get much better. I don't any more want the man who thought I wasn't good enough, but the fact that he thought that of me, it has destroyed me. I'm laughing now because it's so pathetic. Thank you.

[Mary Tyler Moore]

58. Crim ... I am counting on it.

It still hurts. I do not trust men easily, I know how destructive they can be to me, and to relinquish that to someone who did not regard it as precious... took it's toll. I won't lie, it still does. I still think of that time when everything was beautiful as the best in my life, I wish I could muck it up with ugliness so the bitterness would flow easier.
Time has enabled me to see that I will be ok. I am already ok, he missed out on someone that loved him purely. I missed out on the fantasy I created from fragments of a fairy tale.

Boy... I really unloaded myself.

[crim son]

62. Mary Tyler Moore, you express my thoughts.

He took the lesser because he didn't believe what I offered him was real. It was, at the time. Now I'm empty.

I wish you, dear, happiness and love. You deserve it and you are capable of being somebody's everything. :hug: :pals: :hug: -Lisa

[Mary Tyler Moore]

65. Crim -- now that you are a member of the heartbroken

You need to learn the secret handshake...

It involves a middle finger and a well placed hip check.


:pals:

[crim son]

66. Lol.

I could probably manage that.

I will not take my stupid ass to bed. Thank you, MTM, for being kind. :pals: -Lisa

[Mary Tyler Moore]

69. Hugs

Feel better tomorrow.

[idgiehkt]

68. Here's a nice song for you crim son

It's righteous, totally gets you going:

Fighter by Christina
to a fanvid of Xena and Ares:

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-yH3YKJ2yjA

And watching her punch the lights of the smarmy, arrogant fuck in this video is great therapy, if you know what I mean.

Christina Aguilera - Fighter Lyrics

After all you put me through
you'd think i'd despise you
but in the end i want to thank you
cuz you make me that much stronger

Well I, thought I knew you
Thinking that you were true
I guess I,I couldn't trust Called your bluff, time is up
Cuz I've had enough

You were, there by my side
Always down for the ride
But your, joy ride just came down in flames
Cuz your greed sold me out of shame

After all of the stealing and cheating
You probably think that I hold resentment for you
But, oh no, no no, you're wrong
Cuz if it wasn't for all that you tried to do
I wouldn't know just how capable I am to pull through
So I wanna say thank you

Cuz it makes me that much stronger
Makes me work a little bit harder
Makes me that much wiser
So thanks for making me a fighter
Made me learn a little bit faster
Made my skin a little bit thicker
Makes me that much smarter
So thanks for making me, a fighter


Never saw it coming
All of your backstabbing
Just so you could cash in
On a good thing before I realized your game
I heard you're going round
Playing the victim now
But don't even begin
Feeling I'm the one to blame
Cuz you dug your own grave

After all of the fights and the lies
Yes you're wanting to haunt me but that won't work anymore
No more, oh no, it's over
'Cause if it wasn't for all of your torture
I wouldn't know how to be this way now
And never back down
So I wanna say thank you

'Cause it makes me that much stronger
Makes me work a little bit harder
Makes me that much wiser
So thanks for making me a fighter
Made me learn a little bit faster
Made my skin a little bit thicker
It makes me that much smarter
So thanks for making me a fighter

how could this man i thought i knew
turn out to be unjust, so cruel
could only see the good in you
pretended not to see the truth
you tried to hide your lies, disguise yourself
through living in denial
but in the end you'll see
you wont stop me

i am a fighter (fighter)
i aint gonna stop ( i aint gonna stop)
there is no turning back
i've had enough

makes me that much stronger
Makes me work a little bit harder
Makes me that much wiser
So thanks for making me a fighter
Made me learn a little bit faster
Made my skin a little bit thicker
It makes me that much smarter
So thanks for making me a fighter

thought i would forget ( but i remember)
yes, i remember
i remember

Makes me that much stronger
Makes me work a little bit harder
Makes me that much wiser
So thanks for making me a fighter
Made me learn a little bit faster
Made my skin a little bit thicker
It makes me that much smarter
So thanks for making me a fighter