Is there anything that seems to be on your mind much of the time?

[Wapsie B]

With me it's having the feeling that I'm not being told the whole story. That feeling extends to many different things in life such as a salesperson concealing something about the fine print,employer/employee relationships, or personal relationships. Part of this stems to believing what I was told when growing up. The conservative mindset was predominant in my family, and I just accepted what I was told. Then when I grew up and left home I started to question things, finding out that much I learned wasn't true. JFK wasn't the Antichrist. Rock & Roll wasn't evil music. Sex doesn't get better after marriage.

I don't know if this points to possible vocations or is just something that I still need to overcome. But trust and blind acceptance in anything or anyone really is next to impossible for me.

[Chan790]

ummmm...yes.

My hat. oh you didn't mean literally.

filthy things.

[SPKrazy]

1. I Relate To All Of Your Points

I have many things on my mind much of the time.

:shrug:

too many to list

[Wapsie B]

2. Yeah, that's what makes us human I guess.

[ThatsMyBarack]

3. My big skating competition next week in MN.

I have to skate against 12 people. Top four qualify for nationals. Hard to do when you're skating against former "child stars". Actually, I'll be lucky if I place anywhere in the single digits. If I hit rock bottom again, I'll be dangerously pissed! :mad:

Stay tuned....

[Wapsie B]

5. If you work hard and give it your best shot

that's all anyone, including yourself can ask. Good luck!

[Omphaloskepsis]

4. I'm turning 30 soon...

and completely lost.. And scared.. And I can't afford a convertible, shit, I can't afford to drive the 1987 Volvo wagon that I own... URRGH.

[Wapsie B]

6. I know what you mean about being lost in the world.

I'm 50 and still trying to figure it out. Aside from the missed connections in my past the one thing I truly wish I'd have done differently is at least try to enjoy the journey.

[Cabcere]

15. I felt the same way

turning 20...and, a few months ago, 21. :shrug: I don't know where my life is going or what my place in the world is - it's not even so much as not knowing where to go from here as it is not even knowing where "here" is. :shrug: Life is confusing, isn't it? :hug:

[Wapsie B]

23. Yes it can be very confusing.

My only suggestion would be to make sure your self-esteem is up where it belongs. I remember walking around in a funk much of the time and missing out a lot. It's confusing to me, and I'm just now sorting it all out.

[Cabcere]

7. Lately...

http://projects.washingtonpost.com/fallen/dates/2007/feb/14/daniel-t-morris/

:cry:

[Wapsie B]

8. Oh god no.

Is he your son?

[Cabcere]

14. No - a friend from high school

He was a year younger than me, but we had band class together, and he took my best friend to our junior prom. He was a great guy, and even though I hadn't seen him in about a year, I miss him so much - the world is a darker, colder, and less friendly place without his smile. :cry:

(Sorry to bring down the mood here, but I've been thinking about him a lot lately. He hasn't even been dead a month yet, and he's always on my mind. I don't know if I can ever forgive Bush for sending him to die...)

[Wapsie B]

18. I am so sorry.

:hug:

[femmocrat]

9. Yes. Work. It's always in the back of my mind, 24/7.

Even when I have days off, I think about what I have to do when I go back.

[Wapsie B]

19. Yeah do that at times.

I'd love a job that doesn't feel like work. That is one of the searches of my life.

[LostInAnomie]

10. Nihilism

And, the lies society tells us to keep us in line.

Other than that I'm a jovial son of a bitch!

[Wapsie B]

20. Yeah, I hear ya.

I'm getting better about trying to just enjoy the ride.

[mark414]

11. Friday

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Pjx2AQb0ACE

[Wapsie B]

21. Cool.

Great video!

:thumbsup:

[alarimer]

12. I don't want to get your thread locked

other than that, money. Or perhaps lack thereof.

[Wapsie B]

22. Yeah, that's on my mind

a great deal. Actually both of them in massive quantities. ;-)

[crim son]

13. Yeah, WHY? Why, why, why?

I used to think I had a handle on why, or at least I could pontificate with some confidence. Now I have no fucking clue. I've also recently begun to worry about the possibility that maybe mankind is not fundamentally good.

[graywarrior]

16. What ever gave you that idea?

[crim son]

17. I've always believed it, ever since I came across the question

reading as a wee 'un. There was a time when the presumption was that we must have the goodness beaten into us :crazy: I decided it wasn't that people were bad, merely self-centered and stupid which isn't the same thing. Now I'm changing my mind.

[Wapsie B]

24. As cynical as I can be at times

and as hard as I've been on myself for seemingly forever I still believe mankind is fundamentally good. The problem I have is that of having too high of expectations on some people or situations in my life. Then when things fell short it would only stimulate and feed the inner anger that consumed me. It would justify me seeing life in nothing but shades of gray.