I wrote my boss an email and I am sort of nervous about it

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I said basically that I needed to talk to him about scheduling and other things and about the fact that I feel like I am not included in whatever planning we do. (for background- my boss is pretty cool and pretty much leaves it up to us to get things done- but there are two people I work with who basically never include me- or at least that's how it seems to me). My coworkers have managed to get many hours of overtime this week (we don't get paid overtime but paid time off at time and a half) while I still have a long way to go to hit 40 hours, so I was available to do things and it wasn't necessary for them to do it all.

I am really under a lot of stress lately; I haven't been sleeping well and I dread going to work because of the actions of these two. I lost out on a promotion that I really wanted and it really, really hurts. And maybe I am more sensitive right now because of a loss in my family but I do not think I am overreacting. And I think the tone of the email was quite reasonable. The only reason I wrote it at all was because I left before he came in and I wouldn't get a chance to talk to him until tomorrow. But now I am sort of regretting it. The thing is though, I have been stewing over this stuff for a very long time and it never gets better. I have brought it up off-hand once or twice but it is never resolved.

I really, really want to find another job.