for the first time in my entire life, Christmas has not fucked with my head

[graywarrior]

It's like it doesn't even exist. I feel no depression, no anger, no resentment. I'm not having bad flashbacks of xmas trees hitting the floor and decorations getting smashed to bit or cats flying across the room. Xmas ads and xmas songs do not bother me. I have not bought one single gift for anyone, nor do I expect to receive anything from anyone. I am broke beyond belief, but it's ok...I have what I need.

I have hope for the first time in years and I don't know why. It just happened without much fanfare or ado...no spiritual awakenings, no flashing lights, no thunderous applause. I still go into dark places but I don't dwell there.

This is all very weird.

Happy Holidays, dudes. I hope you're all feeling hope for the upcoming years. 1-20-09.

Peace out.

[Inchworm]

1. Enjoy it for once missy

It can be a trip when you get to actually live these cool, celebrated days.

:woohoo:

:hug: