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"Where Will Love Go?"
Where will love go? When my father died, and my love could no longer shine on the oily, drink-darkened slopes of his skin, then my love for him lived inside me, and lived wherever the fog they made of him coiled like a spirit. And when I die my love for him will live in my vapor and live in my children, some of it still rubbed into the grain of the desk my father left me and the dark-red pores of the leather chair which he sat in, in a stupor, when I was a child, and then gave me passionately after his death-our souls seem locked in it, together, two alloys in a metal, and we're there in the black and silver workings of his 40-pound 1932 Underwood, the trapezes stilled inside it on the desk in front of the chair. Even when the children have died, our love will live in their children and still be here in the arm of the chair, locked in it, like the secret structure of matter,
but what if we ruin everything, the earth burning like a human body, storms of soot wreathing it in permanent winter? Where will love go? Will the smoke be made of animal love, will the clouds of roasted ice, circling the globe, be all that is left of love, will the sphere of cold, turning ash, seen by no one, heard by no one, hold all our love? Then love is powerless, and means nothing.
—Sharon Olds
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