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"The Mistake"
With the mistake your life goes in reverse. Now you can see exactly what you did Wrong yesterday and wrong the day before And each mistake leads back to something worse
And every nuance of your hypocrisy Towards yourself and every excuse Stands solidly on the perspective lines And there is perfect visibility.
What an enlightenment. The colonnade Rolls past on either side. You needn't move. The statues of your errors brush your sleeve. You watch the take turn back—and you're dismayed.
And this dismay at this, this big mistake Is made worse by the sight of all those who Knew all along where this mistake would lead— Those frozen friends who watched the crisis break.
Why didn't they say? Oh, but they did indeed— said with a murmur when the time was wrong Or by a mild refusal to assent Or told you plainly but you would not heed.
Yes, you can hear them now. It hurts. It's worse Than any sneer from any enemy. Take this dismay. Lay claim to this mistake. Look straight along the lines of this reverse.
—James Fenton
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