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"The Mysterious Courtesy of Fondness"
What could it mean, this room, a piece of time so much like others and so much its own disheveled particularity in the life born to me or given or treed like an animal climbing away from fear? Small, square, and hopeless, full of light for the sake of its windows, toppling and awry with books, images and imaginary doors, this room accepts itself wearily, one old friend annoyed by another but adjusting the curtain, proffering the favorite chair because what else is there now but the mysterious courtesy of fondness? I have been everywhere, flying this room as though it were Spinoza's scientia intuitiva or an arrow shot blindly toward the wandering soul. And now here we are together, whole, and not very sad. Outside is snowy wind and a life of glass breathing in its winter den. The room and I make ever so small a bow to what is other and wish good days and nights, for all of that, and all of us, camped on the lonely plain.
-Christopher Howell
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