ended a relationship this weekend

[blue_roses_lib]

.. and I'm not doing too hot. I don't post as much as some, but I feel safe here. I'll spare too many details... I'll just say that I'm broken hearted and my self esteem is in the tank, but what's killing me the most right now, and I can barely even stand it, is knowing that I broke his heart... it hurts me that I hurt him. it's all just really raw right now.

I read this poem about 10 yrs ago, and it about sums it up:
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Solitary Observation Brought Back from a Sojourn in Hell (Louise Bogan)




At midnight tears
Run in your ears

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Not sleeping much and can barely eat. Trying to put on a brave face at work took about every once of energy I had.

Apologies for the sad topic; just needed a safe place to let go of some grief.

:cry: :hug:

[Haole Girl]

1. Hope your heart can heal... soon

:hug:

[blue_roses_lib]

6. thanks for the hug....

:hug:

[abq e streeter]

2. I wish I had some eloquent words to post , but I don't

Just another stranger here , but I am sorry for all this hurt in your life right now, and hope and pray that you'll start feeling better soon. And as far as I'm concerned , and I'm guessing everyone else who reads this too,you have NO need whatsoever to apologize. NONE. Many if not most of us have been where you are .I sure as hell have. I don't know you, but I care. I hope that means even a little something.

[blue_roses_lib]

7. It means everything.

:hug: :hug: :cry: I'm working on not feeling like I have to apologize for my feelings and for leaning on others. It's hard.

[CaliforniaPeggy]

3. My dear blue_roses_lib...

I'm so sorry you're hurting...

That poem really evokes your pain...

This is a very safe place; vent all you want.

We've got your back...

:hug:

[blue_roses_lib]

8. Poems...

Like songs, and tears, when words can't quite explain it. The recollection of crying at night explains more than a thousand words.


:hug: Thanks for being here.

[LoveMyCali]

4. sorry you're in so much pain

I've been there before but there had to be a reason why you broke things off so it must be for the best. Time really does heal wounds.

:hug:

[grace0418]

5. I'm so sorry dear.

I thought I was going to be doing that soon. Things seem to be doing better for me now, but we're not out of the woods.

You will get through this. Until then, know you've got a place to get some e-hugs and good vibes. Everyone here has been lovely to me.

:hug:

[Callalily]

9. I am so sorry that you

are hurting. :hug: