A week ago we had our house fumigated and we had to stay out for four hours. Both cats have been outside TONS of times before and occasionally stay out overnight. So I let the cats out and went next door to wait.
When I got home Daniel was waiting for me, but no Barney. I called and called, walked up and down the alley,rattled his food dish,he was nowhere to be found. He has been gone a few days before, just catting around, so I wasn't too worried at first.
When I broke up with my ex, he emptied the house and took all three of our cats. I did fine with it at first not having a kitty around,but I eventually gave in. I was at this couple's house and I saw the paper. "I'm going to find a free kitten in the want ads!" I said. I looked and turned a few pages but there was no free kittens. The look of disappointment on my face was apparently too much to bear. The next day the couple invited me to their house for a visit and when I showed up, they had this cute, adorable kitten for me! They went to the shelter and paid for him, paid for his shots, got a voucher for a neuter, and kitty supplies! I was so happy. Barney cried for two weeks non-stop, but then he became a calm kitty and did all his kitty playing by himself. We became each other's kitty.
Well, now he is gone. I had a good cry this morning and felt a little better after that. I keep thinking that I see him out of the corner of my eye. I still see his hair on the bed. I miss him of course.
That leaves me with my elderly kitty, Daniel. I have no clue how old she really is, early to mid
20's, but when she passes..I am through with kitties. I can barely take care of myself let alone a cat. I go to Boulder every week to see my gentleman friend,Jason and he is getting a kitten really soon,so I can enjoy her.
When I live my dream and move to Boulder after my Grandparents are gone in a few years, I may get a VERY mature shelter kitty. I wouldn't want my cat to outlive me.
Barney, you were a very special kitty because you were such a surprise.It pains and horrifies me to think what happened to you and it sucks even more that I probably will never find out. I had you for 7 years and love you very much.I really have faith that I am going to see you in another time, another place. I am sorry for being such a horrible kitty daddy. :-(