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What were you doing before you were conceived? What about before you were born? Remember any of it? Some people like to think they do,and maybe they do, who am I to say they can't?.But when I get real honest with myself I admit I don't know what occurred in my existence before my existence. What will my death be like ? What will happen after life? All I can say is I dunno,I'm not in control of planning my own death nor am I in control of being born where I want.If I had a choice I might choose different parents,a different family..In fact I must admit I control very little of what happens outside of myself in this existence .Also I'm not very much of a position of control inside my body either,I can't decide to stop eating because I'd rather spend my money on other things.I can't decide never to pee again can I ? Humanity does not agonize of this fact of being out of control does it? Why is death different,everyone shits,everyone dies.Death is a function necessary to life just like eating living things to death is. I can control only how I respond to my existence and the circumstances it throws at me at the time I react..I have no way of predicting my life or anyones.And even then in those weird moments of precognition the vision,and control is not absolute or certain or even accurate. All I have is a choice now.And my choice opens up a billion more choices and potentials,known and unknown as It closes them too..but I can only pick,one and the one is NOW.
Is there an afterlife? I dunno? Do you know if there is life before birth? Life in a coma? I dunno what life is.But because I cannot define it,test it,sample it, or remember it does not mean it cannot be,even when by all appearances to my eyes it isn't alive. I have never walked upon the dark side of the moon in my life.This Doesn't mean I never will,doesn't mean I never have.Because I do not know where I came from before I came here and I have no clue what happens to me.. whatever I think am might not be what I am.. after the body goes..does the body die or does it change or does it not I change? I dunno.. The more I get myself worked up in a case of hubris and fear of god or what happens if..and tell myself how much I MUST know ~or else~, about the unknown ...along comes one more discovery /experience that shows me just how unknown of the known I am.And it shows me just how much unknown isn't known because there is no end to our seeking to know until we get to the end and know it all.We won't know if we tell ourselves we know,we only know by finding out for ourselves.If we know it all will we finally be able to really find out that we really do know nothing at all? That seems to be the pattern we run into here when we try to see what is here.
Is there life after death? I dunno..But don't worry we will all find out what happens, and then we will know by experience,when we find out,we know and not a moment before. We are not in control of our own deaths or births or even the circumstances of birth or our own genetic combinations...among our parental parameters. We do not hold the clock of our own lifespans in our egos hands.This want of control does not give any control to your mind,even though your cells might have a clue the ego and super ego doesn't know and this is the part of self that stresses over abstract issues the most.. your beliefs not withstanding,does a scab you scape from your elbow that is made of you,fret to your mind about it's only life being cut short by your desire to scratch,does a scab worry itself sick over life after death issues as you toss it away mindlessly and kill more of yourself with peroxide? So why do your ego worry? Is it because it can't control or predict the outcome? Neither could the cells of that scab.Is the scab unconscious dumb matter? Are you alive in your own cells? You can try to kill yourself when your mind feels oppressed ,I have tried plenty of times and it is very difficult fighting the body to give up it's life for the mind's sake before it's the bodies time,even though your psyche and emotions really want to flee this life you can't..you are here even when you don't want to be and you go despite wanting to stay.. You can cling to your life and be afraid of every cough,avoid bad neighborhood or get shook up over every world event,but you will not live a life worth living either.
Being dead to life because you are depressed is no way to live. Being alive and fearful of death is no way to live. The scabs our bodies cells 'do not stop forming when you want to die..They don't stop forming even when you tear them off repeatedly by scratching them to death. Are scabs on your skin conscious of impending death by your fingernail? Are you? Is there an afterlife?
When are babies not born,animals not born ..do they still have a consciousness? If they are not born with consciousness we say they'd be stillborn. Stillborns rot like old people do in the grave. If they never had consciousness they would not be conceived. If they aren't conceived what are they? The unknown people in our dreams,fantasies or thoughts? Where did cars come from when there were none? A thought.
When we are born,where did our consciousness come from? What makes consciousness appear to live in bodies? Can it be anywhere else? What IS life? And what IS death? And do you know what Consciousness is? Consciousness obviously with anyone who has it finds it can shift states,it trances,dreams,imagines just like bodies sorta do. What is consciousness for? What is a body Why do we even have these things? What inside us causes us to think of things never seen on Earth by anyone else before? And how do people apparently on the same wavelength of thought as your imagination is make the same thing you thought up,years later and sell it? What force made them choose to make it manifest and not you? What is reality and manifesting? Why are these imaginary archetypes so similar cutting across,cultures,races,time and space as the same archetypes of tribes long ago affect our own conscious process today? How can this be? How long has consciousness been conscious of being conscious?
By the time you are 7 years old all your cells in your body that you were born with have died off and been replaced. Everyone is already dead and replaced cell by cell with someone else at age 7. We digest and absorb DNA because we eat life to live.
WE are dying all the time and being born all the time. Think of this next time you pick a scab and it heals.Cells have divided made and new cells that did not exist before.You are dying already,from the minute of your bodies conception.
The only thing "natural" and healthy that "lives" forever are one celled creatures ..,Unnatural things that live forever are corporations and cancer.And they destroy the very things enabling them to exist.Their hosts..Life frozen in growth forever in the same state is not a good part of this existence that appears to be made of constant change.Change it seems is what that makes life and death and maybe even consciousness possible to perceive itself.
We are these living/dying colonies of billions upon billions,we are legions made of legions,we are personal nations of flesh,living in nations on earth ,we are cities of cells living their lives whether the conscious ego knows about it or not,the cells know when they need to repair the body,our ego does not command our heart to beat or cells with bad DNA to die. WE live healthier now because of the deaths of our cells.This apoptosis or programmed cell death,is an ensurer of our quality of life. Without death we will become cancer and die in misery.Even our real consciousness our sense of self changes itself with every death,every event, every choice made and not made changes us bit by bit unperceptive like cell death or dramatically like a scar..A self is a multiples .Proof is,when you talk to yourself at the grocery store ,whom are you speaking to? Someone else..an interlocutor inside you barely under awareness,an anima or animus..It's maybe this archetype thing...in you..that inhabits everyones psyche at different times that lives through the mental history of all humanity.
We are not what we think we are,nor are we what we are told to be..We are selves inside of selves,inside selves writing soliloquies of selves.A mystery, But...We are.
This might not solve the mystery of life after death,as conventional society views it,and how they view it,do they know? Can they? Do ANY of us know? No one has come back to tell us,that is alive today .The people who allegedly lived to see and afterlife and founded religions lived all conveniently in the ancient past and utilize texts and memes to tell people who they are,and which way to see.
But for me It's reassuring to know that I already died today,because I'm dying everyday,since I was born and I live despite that. I change and go through this state than another,my hair mysteriously gets gray,my body gets old,who determines our aging? Our selfish genes? Or is it something else? I never was in control of any of this process. Life is death is life.Without death we would be cancer and life itself would kill us to live because life is a state of flux,inside of flux . We would stop living if we ceased dying. We are alive and dead a process of change a soliloquy and consciousness at the same time connected to an existence perceiving a reality that nobody really knows what it is..Buddhists claim it's all an illusion,I myself,I don't know because this is all I know.Every heaven looks like a nicer here Why is that? Every God acts so human,yet he seems cooler than us Why is that?
What are we? What is life? Where do we go after we die? We aren't not even sure of what the isness of IS..yet. Let alone what isness isn't.
Maybe we are asking all the wrong questions?
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