Let's get this serious crap outta the way!!!

[MiddleFingerMom]

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Hi, all!
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Back home safe and sound.
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Definite THIS time... I was having (or I had had -- more likely) a heart attack
(though absolutely none of the sudden dramatic symptoms/signs of one -- pain,
numbness, etc.). It's probably at least my second -- the last time they didn't
definitely diagnose heart attack as my alphabet soup of medical conditions can,
in combination, appear like one.
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What I was definitely having when I finally went in to the ER on Tuesday
afternoon (and probably for the previous day or so) was A-fib (short for
atrial fibrillation), where my atrium just flutters about aimlessly, and very
little blood gets pumped.
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Thus the weakness, thus the fluid in the lungs, thus the panting and the
gasping and difficulty expressing myself with much more than a very short
grunting approximation of a complete sentence.
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The ex-MrsMiddleFingerMom would have immediately misdiagnosed those
things as "just his style of foreplay".
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GOSH, I miss her.
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Last time it was this bad (they said about 2 years ago -- I'da SWORN it
was more recent), they tried to fix it with massive doses of heart
pace-regulating medication given IV and it made my blood pressure for
all intents and purposes disappear (it's the only time I've ever seen an
ER staff a little rattled).
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So (this time) they sedated me and shocked me with paddles twice to get
the normal rhythm back.
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Didn't work.
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Decided on the meds again at a milder push and that worked (although my
first night was horribly uncomfortable and constantly, um... concerning.
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I FINALLY went to sleep and "converted" my heart rhythm back to normal
sometime during the night in the ICU -- woke up and didn't even realize it
at first -- though the difference was calm vs chaos.
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Maybe more later on subsequent things. Some good stories to tell. Some
really EXCEPTIONAL FOLKS helped me get better.
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Thank you so much for your vibes posts -- funny sweet touching -- the whole
gamut. Part of my problem is that I have an enlarged heart... but those
posts caused my heart to swell 'til it was big as a barn -- and not in a
good way, neither... in a FANFUCKINGTASTIC way.
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DEFINITELY healing -- incredibly therapeutic.
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Thank you. Doctors.
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[foxfeet]

1. Wlcome back! Glad you're feeling better.

We missed you around these parts.

[kayakjohnny]

2. Welcome back and thanks for filling us in.

Hope you stay good.

Take care and be well.

Cheers.

(I can tell you're still a little weak. There are only a few dots here and there. As if you can't push the dot button like you used to do. When we see loads of dots, we'll know you're better)

:hi:

[handmade34]

3. we all know you have a BIG HEART

no matter what you say... :-)

[Duer 157099]

4. Woot!! Glad to see you back!

It just wasn't the same around here without you, why, my scroll button *barely* got used at ALL!

We can't have that!

:hi:

[jotsy]

5. Stay well

Please!

Welcome back.

[kimi]

6. Glad glad glad to have you back, MFM!!

A guy with such a big heart - in so many ways - is, I guess, bound to have these things happen. But not ever again, please!

Welcome home!! :hi:

[applegrove]

7. Glad you are okay. Yeah they can do wonders with hearts these days.

You sound like you got great care.

[mix]

8. scary, glad you made it

:hug:

[lunatica]

9. I've been so busy this week I didn't log into DU much

I didn't know you were so sick. But I'm very happy you're OK and back.

[one_voice]

10. Welcome back!

Happy to hear you're feeling better! Please take care of yourself. :hug:

[redwitch]

11. Yay you're back!

Glad you are. :hug:

[redwitch]

12. P.S. Some people will do anything ...

to avoid a DU fund drive!

[zabet]

13. ....

Glad you are better. :hi:

[CaliforniaPeggy]

14. My dear MiddleFingerMom...

You know how glad I am you're OK...

It was wonderful hearing your voice!

Hope we can do that again sometime!

Please take care of yourself...

:hug:

[Tobin S.]

15. I'm glad you're okay, MFM

I was absent here for the past several days and missed the original post. Take it easy and don't go on any 3 day benders for a while. Two day benders maybe, but not them 3 day deals. :)

[MorningGlow]

16. Yikes!

Glad you're all right. Now don't do that again, y'hear? :toast:

[Phentex]

17. Wait! They let you back in here??????

lol


It was kinda fun to see the responses from people who thought you were female.

:hi:

[Tuesday Afternoon]

18. good to see you back...

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a lot

:D

[tigereye]

19. glad you are ok- best of luck with your recovery and feeling better!

[Flaxbee]

20. I've been gone and didn't know you were having such a frightful time ... very glad

to hear you're better and back home!

Take it easy! :hi:

[abq e streeter]

21. Take care of yourself, MFM

I just finished (a week ago) wearing a heart monitor for 3 weeks and will get the results on the 10th (fluttery, skipping, beats etc for which I was already taking a beta blocker, and they seem to have stopped on their own in the past 10 days). But meanwhile, I've lost about 20 pounds in less than 3 months; got maybe 10 more to go at the most; and am walking (hauling ass, not just strolling) 45 minutes a day, half of it uphill too. Your having gone through this is certainly extra inspiration to keep this up.Best wishes to you for a complete recovery and that before long you'll be even stronger than before this happened .
Didn't mean to make this post so much about me instead of you, but just wanted to mention that I've had vaguely similar, though obviously not nearly as serious, problems, but I'm feeling physically real good right now, and hope, and have confidence that you're going to be feeling good and strong soon too.

[MiddleFingerMom]

22. kick for the Sunday evening crowd