Yet another first in my life (pics)

[Dystopian]

This is the first time in my life....
that I have pictures of the first and last time.

In the past few years...
Usually when I know that I'll never return...
I take a photo...Unbeknownst to him.

Our first meeting....as he got on his bike to leave I noted his reflection in the mirror.
To me....life is a photograph.
I took the picture.. drizzle....I was elated. I did a pixel thingy with it....


Last night....last time.
I asked him to please stop at the newly erected roadblock at his camp.
It was metaphorical. Roadblock.



Went out with my camera this afternoon.....





And then drawn back to the macabre







Life....death...and in between.
Back to my life .... "doing nothing and moping around"

What a ride....
No replies please....I'd just like this to stand as is....

As I am....


peace & love~

[Dystopian]

1. Something of my own? Here and now...

I have entered....the space of the unknown...

This is kool....
I've decided that this is my own little
DU Facebook
DU Twitter....Tweeting!

I can't go to those places.
I don't want a DU journal...
So...this is it...

This thread belongs only to me.
In life we must have something ...
A place where no one else can enter.
Thank you all for allowing me this one little thing.

I have such places in real life...
Now I have one online.

I want to keep this kicked so I can see it.
What is there but to update my status...?

I have been dubbed the "wallflower"

Flowers:

Only wildflowers make me happy....
Many years ago I had baskets and beautiful bowls
of dried roses. One man....several years...
Dead flowers.

I have a flower of happiness. One.
I picked it in my yard last year. ... It was a sad day
and I don't remember why....But I picked a flower and
brought it inside....Into a mug it went...no water...left to dry.
It sat on my kitchen window sill for over a year. Each time I saw it....
A long ago memory of happiness...contentment enveloped me...
All I remember is that I was outside playing with the doggies...
My heart wasn't there.....
Odd that, nothing they did could elate me...out of the norm.

Several months ago I looked at it...yes a memory of happiness...
I placed it in a tiny vase...and of course...took a picture...
I just looked...it was this past June...

I first placed in with other dried flowers....
Only I knew it was there...hidden.



I needed it to remain standing alone.
And so it still does...I can see it as I type.



Happiness is a dead flower.....
Life after death...
Precious...


peace~

[Dystopian]

2. A New Day Yesterday....

But it's an Old Day Now....


http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Hm0XT2cqzLI


"Ducky! Ducky! Louder! Louder! ......Let me get on with my ego trip...."



I posted this song before:
http://www.democraticunderground.com/discuss/duboard.php?az=show_topic&forum=105&topic_id=8920510
Seems like so long ago...

Trying to stay awake.....


Today was a beautiful day....children .... kitties......doggie...
I have the best job in the world....
I just hate the paperwork....

Want to be sleepy......
Must stop living on four hours of sleep...




peace~

[MiddleFingerMom]

3. I'm sorry you've gone through that sort of loss... but I'm a living example of the fact...

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[Dystopian]

4. !

MFM...
You stumbled into my thread!
Now there is no way out...
It's just you and me, sweetie...:-)

Thank you for your kind words....new life.
I'm so happy you're here again.

:hug:




peace~

[MiddleFingerMom]

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[Dystopian]

7. I think we're alone now...

Shall we dance?
Would it be like this?


Or this?




peace~

[MiddleFingerMom]

8. It's quite obvious that you've never seen me grace a dance floor.

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[Dystopian]

5. The End

Unmarked Grave


The End
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=GC-F8VG-PFU

This is the end
Beautiful friend
This is the end
My only friend, the end
Of our elaborate plans, the end
Of everything that stands, the end
No safety or surprise, the end
I'll never look into your eyes...again
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Can you picture what will be
So limitless and free
Desperately in need...of some...stranger's hand
In a...desperate land
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Ride the snake, ride the snake
To the lake, the ancient lake, baby
The snake is long, seven miles
Ride the snake...he's old, and his skin is cold
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It hurts to set you free
But you'll never follow me
The end of laughter and soft lies
The end of nights we tried to die

This is the end


peace~