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This morning, I woke to an email from one of the employment agencies I am signed up with, there's an incredible opportunity for a job, I EASILY qualify for. The duties and requirements could have been cut and pasted right off my resume! I was so excited! 5 years ago...I'd land this job if I slept thru the interview! 50k a year, this was THE one right? Wrong. Once she submitted my resume, the company didnt even want to interview me.....why? Because I'm a 99'er...
I've been out of work for nearly 3 years. My last employer went thru a "merger" (more like a buy out) to a large corporation that was buying out similar businesses in the western united states. (My boss scored himself a seat on the Board of Directors) Once I'd learned of the coming layoff(only because someone leaked the info) I decided to get my real estate license (you know what they say about hindsight) I worked incredibly hard and invested tons of money into building my business, to no avail...by late 2008 I had to cut my losses and quit. I've been looking for work ever since....I'm signed up with every agency who services my area, I send out 10 or more resumes a day...craigslist, career builder, monster, local papers etc....I put hours a day into this...for 3 YEARS! I get an interview about once every other month....but it always ends the same....
3 years later, I've lost my marriage and my house, (which he kept since I cant pay the mortgage), my 401k, my savings, my credit rating, my health/dental insurance, most of my valuable stuff (sold it).
I've also lost 30 pounds since im not eating out anymore but thats a very small silver lining lol
I dont have kids or I'd be on welfare, I live in what amounts to a large master bedroom that I rent from a very kind family, I'm extremely fortunate that I have a boyfriend who has a job, who moved in with me just as my unemployment ran out, even tho we werent really "there" yet (guess were there now lol). My teeth are falling out(thank goodness im the only one who can tell for now)
I'm reminded of back when I first started working in 1985 and the vicious cycle of "you have no experience" but I cant GET experience if I dont get a job! (my mother finally hired me at her job just to GET me a job) Now its the same but different...I cant GET a job, because I dont HAVE a job...what the hell kinda sense does that make?
I have 15 years experience in my field, I have an impeccable attendance record, stable work history, never any disciplinary actions, several commendations, excellent references...but I am worth nothing in this job market..no one will hire me because no one will hire me....
Do I have it bad? hell yes...but millions have it much worse, so I am grateful....But I fear that at my age, the american dream is lost to me....everything I spent my life building up is gone, 25 years of building MY dream up, is gone...as the years tick by, theres less and less a chance that I'll be able to regain even half of what I had accomplished before this recession hit.
the goal is no longer the "Dream" but survival.
Tomorrow and every tomorrow....I'll send out more resumes, but I'm seriously considering making up a fake job to add to it....
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