My spiritual awakening

[Dragonbreathp9d]

Chris brought a girl over the night before, I had crashed out early because I was setting up a feast ( I and jerrod have pics) to get a girl from work over- she wasn't able to make it but set up a sunday date- and I think things were supposed to happen that way
No one showed up for food and she chilled with me went chris went to work. I started talking about the tattoo I want to get and I was talking about people's auras things started getting deep and bizarre
She is a practicing witch of nature ( sounds weird I know) and asked me what aura she had- she started pulsating purple and we both said the word purple at the same time
She looked at me with a knowing look and said "you really can see people's auras" she asked me more about passed strange experiences and she looked me in the eyes and told me "you are not alone"
She then took a crystal that was around her neck and said " now, this does not come off of me, but it can help you channel energy, I'm just curious" so I took ahold of it and she asked me to close my eyes, focus on it, and describe
what I felt
At
first cold, but then it started getting hot, very very hot, hundreds of degrees even, and yet, it was comfortable
I started seeing myself as a young boy, 10, maybe, in a field, my cousins, a corn field, beautiful day
We both start describing the scene, and then she says "home"
Suddenly the crystal started pulsating an electric feel and it felt like my fingers and the crystal were melding into one and the scene shifted
Suddenly there was a log or wooden cabin, in the midst of miles and miles of fields, fenced, horses, smells, oh my Lord it was so beautiful
Mind you we are both describing the same scene out loud to each other
I kept seeing someone and at first I tried to move on from the image but he wouldn't let me
I described him " an older, cherokee man with two braided pony tails, slightly grey, and a white cowboy hat"
She starts crying- " that's Jeff! Jeff, what is he saying?"
I focused and focused he was jubilant, elated, one of the happiest people I've ever seen and I described that to her as I focused and tried to hear what he
was saying
"it's not your
fault, I don't blame you at all baby bee"
He did ten years in prison for trying to kill her father because he kidnapped and abused her
Then he went back to the cabin and both of us came out of the trance we were in
It dealt like half an hour and it lasted six minutes
Mind you, I was stone cold sober
We come out of it we shuffle it off a little but she tells me the story about Jeff. The she holds out her hand "hold out your hand, palm up, but dont actually touch me"
I did so my hand started cupping and I felt an amazing warmth and started feeling her, character I guess, catching emotional snippits
"feel that" she inquired
"warm, so warm"
She smiled and closed her eyes, I went somewhere for but a moment but there was no time
She brought us out, looked at me and said " you are very strong, very powerful, and so kind"
"I have something I think you need, I'm not sure why but I feel like you need extra tried to hear what he
was saying
"it's not your
fault, I don't blame you at all baby bee"
He did ten years in prison for trying to kill her father because he kidnapped and abused her
Then he went back to the cabin and both of us came out of the trance we were in
It dealt like half an hour and it lasted six minutes
Mind you, I was stone cold sober
We come out of it we shuffle it off a little but she tells me the story about Jeff. The she holds out her hand "hold out your hand, palm up, but dont actually touch me"
I did so my hand started cupping and I felt an amazing warmth and started feeling her, character I guess, catching emotional snippits
"feel that" she inquired
"warm, so warm"
She smiled and closed her eyes, I went somewhere for but a moment but there was no time
She brought us out, looked at me and said " you are very strong, very powerful, and so kind"
"I have something I think you need, I'm not sure why but I feel like you need extratried to hear what he
was saying
"it's not your
fault, I don't blame you at all baby bee"
He did ten years in prison for trying to kill her father because he kidnapped and abused her
Then he went back to the cabin and both of us came out of the trance we were in
It dealt like half an hour and it lasted six minutes
Mind you, I was stone cold sober
We come out of it we shuffle it off a little but she tells me the story about Jeff. The she holds out her hand "hold out your hand, palm up, but dont actually touch me"
I did so my hand started cupping and I felt an amazing warmth and started feeling her, character I guess, catching emotional snippits
"feel that" she inquired
"warm, so warm"
She smiled and closed her eyes, I went somewhere for but a moment but there was no time
She brought us out, looked at me and said " you are very strong, very powerful, and so kind"
"I have something I think you need, I'm not sure why but I feel like you need extra tried to hear what he
was saying
"it's not your
fault, I don't blame you at all baby bee"
He did ten years in prison for trying to kill her father because he kidnapped and abused her
Then he went back to the cabin and both of us came out of the trance we were in
It dealt like half an hour and it lasted six minutes
Mind you, I was stone cold sober
We come out of it we shuffle it off a little but she tells me the story about Jeff. The she holds out her hand "hold out your hand, palm up, but dont actually touch me"
I did so my hand started cupping and I felt an amazing warmth and started feeling her, character I guess, catching emotional snippits
"feel that" she inquired
"warm, so warm"
She smiled and closed her eyes, I went somewhere for but a moment but there was no time
She brought us out, looked at me and said " you are very strong, very powerful, and so kind"
"I have something I think you need, I'm not sure why but I feel like you need extra tried to hear what he
was saying
"it's not your
fault, I don't blame you at all baby bee"
He did ten years in prison for trying to kill her father because he kidnapped and abused her
Then he went back to the cabin and both of us came out of the trance we were in
It dealt like half an hour and it lasted six minutes
Mind you, I was stone cold sober
We come out of it we shuffle it off a little but she tells me the story about Jeff. The she holds out her hand "hold out your hand, palm up, but dont actually touch me"
I did so my hand started cupping and I felt an amazing warmth and started feeling her, character I guess, catching emotional snippits
"feel that" she inquired
"warm, so warm"
She smiled and closed her eyes, I went somewhere for but a moment but there was no time
She brought us out, looked at me and said " you are very strong, very powerful, and so kind"
"I have something I think you need, I'm not sure why but I feel like you need extra

[Dragonbreathp9d]

1. Continued

protection right now"
She cupped her hands together
and focused, then held out her hand,
when I reached mine out to recieve it,
suddenly I, feel I guess, a purple sphere
swirling with part of me
"tell me what you feel"
And, I started feeling , God I dunno, elation? pulsating out from my center
"that's your energy, flowing from your heart through your veins, focus on it"
It grew in intensity, and part of how I am changed is I can now feel that and somewhat direct it at any time, "now focus on my energy through yours" and I felt her orb get obsorbed through me, circulating through my body till it came to reside right behind my right ear, and I could see like a purple fairy version of her there, and by see at this point is see on another level
" that's part of my soul, it will always be there to protect you, I see something hard for you soon"
We cupped hands together again and she took on some of my grief and pain, told me "no one needs to carry that"
I started feeling my energy flow again, strong, we looked at each other and she glowed in purple and the rest of the world, I dunno, not faded away, it was still there, but we werent, we were seperate from it
We stayed like that
talking and she started to get a little upset, and I
started getting uncomfortable, weird, then suddenly, I felt an arm around me, and her, and I looked, as did she to the space in-between us, we looked at each other and smiled
"do you feel that"
My response " how could I not feel your grandmother"
And then the room started filling up
I saw so many relatives
Including stewart, oh thank God, my suicide cousin was so prominent and happy
My whole apartment was full of both of our passed loved ones
They were there for support, I thought just through this, but they knew more than I, I had no idea what was coming
I'm skipping some that was a blur, but keep in mind that the entire 'event lasted at most 1.5 hours
This next part takes a little backstory
I have only told Sean, Bonnie, and my current roommate chris (and only after something he said but I'll get to that)
Because I was afraid that one of the distinct possibilities was that I was going schizophrenic
My other though was that I had a night we were seperate from it
We stayed like that
talking and she started to get a little upset, and I
started getting uncomfortable, weird, then suddenly, I felt an arm around me, and her, and I looked, as did she to the space in-between us, we looked at each other and smiled
"do you feel that"
My response " how could I not feel your grandmother"
And then the room started filling up
I saw so many relatives
Including stewart, oh thank God, my suicide cousin was so prominent and happy
My whole apartment was full of both of our passed loved ones
They were there for support, I thought just through this, but they knew more than I, I had no idea what was coming
I'm skipping some that was a blur, but keep in mind that the entire 'event lasted at most 1.5 hours
This next part takes a little backstory
I have only told Sean, Bonnie, and my current roommate chris (and only after something he said but I'll get to that)
Because I was afraid that one of the distinct possibilities was that I was going schizophrenic
My other though was that I had a night

[Dragonbreathp9d]

2. Part 3

terror, something I hadn't had in years
One night I
woke
up at 2:53. Something was in my room
Then, I was attacked
Spiritually
And I knew it instantly
Suddenly I lost control of my left arms muscles , dear Lord it hurt, my arm twisted all the way around my back, completely unnaturally and out of my control, I saw him, tall lanky long haired dark figure, and as he tried to take my mind I got a flash of his face, ungodly, and I prayed, for the first time in years I prayed for the Lord to give me the strength to fight it off, and I remember shouting "I am me and no one else!" and my body jolted. The battle was over.
The cat ran into my room hissing- it never hissed- I ran out of my room and scooped the cat up, I saw it shift attention and I saw the figure darting out
Then, I looked into the kitchen, towards the only light that was on, fell to my knees, tears beating my knees, begging for forgiveness
Then turned on all the lights and slept with the cat on the couch
I really thought I was attacked, then I thought crazy, then just had to chock it up to night terror because both were unacceptable to me
at the time
One morning I heard chris shut my door, after I got up I asked him
what was up, he said he had had a dream, but it was too real, he said he was laying on the couch and saw someone tall, lanky, long haired, and shadowy go from bonnies room into mine, he snapped awake and saw the same exact scene, opened his eyes to the same view and got up to make sure no one went into my room
Sean told me to keep that shot under wraps
And Bonnie looked at me like I was crazy
Sean believed me, but he was also looking out for my best interest
Ok, so back to what happened yesterday
We were just up and about talking, taking it all in- when she told me about the figure in her dreams and how she thought he was there watching us, same figure, we felt him there. Then she says "you've never been baptized have you?" I said no and she asked if I was willing
I said sure why not, then she "no I mean really, like really take it to heart. " she started blessing the water and I confidently said "yes", then we both heard the must disturbing laugh you could ever hear in
your life and both looked where it came from
She quickly but calmly said "sit sit sit"
And we
began what was basically an exorcism
He jumped into my body, I saw him, he was me, but not, not at all, I saw him in the reflection of her eyes, then in them, she asked who I was as we were praying and she was putting the holy water on me
"I'm me" but it wasn't then" no me" she asked me again, my body jolted a little "I am jonathon Ryan Travis vann and no one else" and I felt the battle, then I confessed, and I asked for forgiveness and collapsed into her arms she started talking to me and then her voice and demeanor changed, she became an angel, sent by God, who was stern yet - I can't even describe the overwhelming beauty and grace and love and caring- and I confessed and asked for forgiveness, then that dark demon was gone
I immediately felt different than ever before clean, pure, and me to my most everything , me, dear Lord, I had forgotten who I was, And now I feel taller, further away from the ground, and so in tune that it has been almost
distracting
After the demon left, she channeled Duncan "its like you leveled up in a video game or some shit" with his
exact facial expression, for a moment and then pointed to him next to me and said " your roommate never left you" and he was there next to me, he had been there to help, then she channeled my Aunt Mary, Stewarts mom, and she said "suicides don't go to hell boy there was nothing you could do" in her voice
The rest is a blur
But I am changed
I can feel, the flow of life now
I think I have the ability to help others now
My eyes changed color
Instantly actually
At 11:16
I know that because chris had a weird feeling and txted me "what's going on?"
Right as I fought the demon
She said it to me right after it was over " you're eyes, the grey is gone, they're more blue, turquoise and hazel, you've got your eyes back"
And I'm sure of the change myself
I noticed how grey they were for so long, years, as long as I can remember. And now they see in their true color
Thank you for reading, I don't know if I could ever tell that whole story
I'm
a writer for a reason
My name helped
save me
It was part of my armor
It had history
The only unfortunate thing, and I repeat only, is I
will never forget that laugh
Needless to say my purple angel and I are a bit confused as to how to move on. We kissed, even though we tried not to, it was just inescapable at times, we've both said I love you and mean it, however we both realized our connection is greater than us and or human instincts can't cloud our judgement in how to use our gift
If we were together, that would mean limiting the amount of people we could help
And our love is spiritual, we have met many times before, we are both sure of it
Ya the best I could describe is that the angel was either the metatron, the angel who speaks to man for god, or a sera or archangel. God the beauty!
We went on a walk later and on our way out we saw a
Man on a phone in a white shirt, with anethral smile, such a smile, we said hi how are you "it's a beautiful night" we looked at each other and both
vocalized and or knew that he was an angel
I wish I could
describe because you both see it and don't, feel it and not, it truly is a 6th sense.

Every day since then has breeder new surprises. When I focus on people's energy I almost feel like I'm rolling.
Just remember, as much bad in the world there is, there is double fold good.

[cleanhippie]

3. Well. OK then.

What a very bizarre story. Thanks for sharing.

Considering that I am in the middle of reading Burrows' Naked Lunch, it seems appropriate.

[Dragonbreathp9d]

5. I like you sn

When I grew my hair out and became a hippie I swore to never be a dirty one, haha

[cleanhippie]

6. Thats kindof my story.

Retired from the military and grew my hair, and started to get called (all in fun, of course) a "dirty hippie". I started correcting them by saying I am not dirty, as I bathe every day. Soon after, clean hippie was substituted in the above...

[Dragonbreathp9d]

4. I must also say

That I have never believed in that stuff, I would have considered myself an agnostic, I guess, thought there was something but honestly more atheistic than anything else. For the most part religion angered me. But religion is good for the person, and bad for the populous. Honestly also, if I hadn't experienced this with another person I would have checked myself into a mental institution