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and self-satisfied man, who was willing to have people stoned to death for disagreeing with his religious views. He then reportedly experienced something, that we today might call "a psychiatric crisis" -- as a result of which he went under a different name, Paul, stopped stoning people to death, and began preaching instead love and forgiveness
The transformed man, Paul, is responsible for some of the most beautiful early Christian passages:
If I can speak all human tongues, or even the languages of angels, but have no love, I am just a noisy gong or a rattling cymbal. And if I can foresee the future and understand hidden things and possess all knowledge, or if I have enough faith to move mountains, but have no love, I am nothing. And even if I give all my possessions to feed the poor, or am willing allow my body to be burned, but have no love, there is no benefit. Love endures and is kind; love does not envy; love does not promote itself, is not vain, does not behave badly, does not seek its own advantage, is not easily provoked, imagines no evil, is not pleased by doing harm, but rather is pleased by truth ... When a child, I spoke like a child and understood like a child and thought like a child: but when adult I put away childish things ... So now there remain these three: faith, hope, and love -- but the greatest of them all is love
Not being scholar of these texts, I cannot vouch for the conclusions, but the so-called Pauline epistles seem to have been written by at least two, and probably by three or more different hands, and they do not all convey exactly the same message: those more certainly attributed to Paul seem rather more gracious and generous to me than the texts less certainly attributed. Persons quoting Paul to justify less gracious and less generous attitudes usually quote the texts less certainly attributed. Of course, this is not decisive in attempting to estimate accurately the man's views: the texts less certainly attributed might indeed be reporting attitudes that Paul himself held; after all, his former self Saul had been intolerant enough to approve stonings; but it is entirely clear that Paul was aware that no one understands everything clearly, as when he says for now we see through a glass, darkly
The story is interesting, in part because it suggests the potentially transformative role of "a psychiatric crisis." It is the story of one person's catastrophic realization that his self-righteousness is blind and childish and completely inadequate. I find he has something to say, worth hearing, and I find myself willing to listen to what he says -- though I do not need to agree with every word, nor need I regard him as blameless (as he surely did not consider himself blameless)
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