I used to be a Band Geek. I'm not ashamed to admit it...In fact I'm proud. It was a hard row to hoe, that I will admit.
I remember in our freshmen year we sucked big time! The band went to a parade and scored like in the 60's...the judges told us to please not come back until we learned to play our instruments! Talk about humiliation!
Later that year during concert season we were practicing and we just couldn't get this one passage right...though we tried and tried. Finally Ms. Briant, our fearless band director, broke down and started crying. She didn't leave the conductors stand, she just sat there tears rolling down her pale cheeks, finally she said softly, "I have given up everything to be here...". She paused and began to regain her composure...she looked up her eyes red, mascara beginning to run...she spoke louder this time, "every day I give you guys everything I have...everything!....and all I ask is that you try your best too...I don't have any life but this band...I don't even have a family anymore...just you...just you!" She then left the podium and walked to her office.
Her outburst was so unexpected and so powerful. Personally I was moved beyond words. I glanced around the room and looked into the eyes of my fellow band mates and realized that the majority of us would probably have marched over the edge off a cliff for her. Maybe a core group of us understood that she wasn't there just to pick up a paycheck....she cared, and not just a little, she cared with all her heart.
That was 1972, by 1976 (our senior year) we were competing and winning..scoring consistently in the 90's and being praised by judges for our musicianship...And every step of the way, every evolution of our craft, every epiphany of musical life was guided by this wonderful lady. Every now and then I still break out the old b flat clarinet and toot out a few tunes. When I play I imagine myself once again, wearing white shoes and a big furry hat. I daydream about whistles piping out in the cold misty morning signaling me. I begin marching...and as the drums beat in syncopated rhythm I bring my clarinet to my mouth in a stylized ceremony and I begin to play.