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I am not sure about anyone else, but I am feeling a need to do something to memorialize and honor R's memory, since an actual service does not seem to be happening any time soon.
I first met R in the kitchen at Camp Vermillion, she was new to the group and was looking very overwhelmed. I forget who was barking orders in the kitchen but I pulled R aside and told her not to take that person too personally, because it appeared as if she was, and she looked like she was about to cry. We connected and became fast friends over that weekend, and through the years.
We did a lot of camp outs, sleepovers, and we really bonded, and I felt like she was a sister from another mother. I never had any siblings, so having a chosen sister was such a gift to me. We also did a lot of volunteer work, she was very generous with her time and herself. She was never afraid to dig in and work hard. I wish I was more like her in that way.
She was a talented and creative woman. And for whatever reason, she never got the credit she deserved for a lot of her gifts and talents. And I know I took her for granted at times.
As in all true friendships, we had our ups and downs, and I am sad to say that I have not spoken to her in about a year and a half, since the last time she came down here to CA to visit. She said some things to me and my daughter that were the cause of a lot of pain for me. I was very deeply hurt, and honestly have had a difficult time getting over it. I have had some difficult times since speaking to her last that I know would have been made easier just by being able to talk with her. I regret my pride in not reaching back out to her.
I know my life feels a little more empty now that she is gone. I always believed that somehow we would find each other again, and am grieved that we never did.
R, I hope you find peace and comfort in death. I love you and I miss you.
R J H
1960 - 2009
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