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To take the Blessing, it helps if you had a mother or aunt who took it and lived. I figured I had a good chance there because my grandmother, whose name I have, was Blond-Becky and she was Blessed when she was just a little kid. The story I got--which is different from what my cousin got--is that Blond-Becky was stuck out all night in the woods after a lightning bolt struck down a tree and her path home was blocked. Then she took the Blessing and the path shone clear for her in the moonlight, but when she arrived home, her father had killed her mother with an ax, so Blond-Becky ran off again into the woods and had her babies there, and that's where we came from.
Grandma Blond-Becky was a tough old woman, that's what we heard. She took a man, and had all of our mothers and fathers, and she kept them safe when there were bears and when there was frost, and even through the waves of people who swarmed through the woods from the cities when their food ran out. She always knew how to keep her children safe because of the Blessing, and here I was, her great-granddaughter, so instead of marrying Simon or taking up a gun I decided I'd get myself Blessed, too.
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It wasn't that Simon was objectionable, really. He was steady, like my mother wanted, and he could hunt, like my father wanted. But I'd known Simon from the earliest time I could remember, and he had always been...Simon. Just so tall, as tall as Simon. Just so big, as big as Simon. And with just so much inside him, just so much as Simon had--and that wasn't quite enough. Simon would never want to follow any old road to see where it took him. Simon would never stay up late to listen to the night-sounds of the woods and try to understand what they meant. Simon would always be just Simon the fletcher, concerned only with the feathers on his arrow-shaft or the curve of a new bow. Steady, steadfast Simon.
But I'd tasted more. I had followed roads without knowing what they'd lead me into; and I'd dug into the banks around the old city to find papers with pictures of the mythic days; and I'd once watched a doe birth twin fawns, one white and one red, and I had sat perfectly still with breath abated until both stood on shaking legs and their mother led them off into the bracken-fern. I didn't know, yet, what that portended, for I'd not been Blessed and I knew it was a secret too big to share with anyone: still, I knew it was important, important enough to guard with my life.
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