http://www.leaderu.com/stonewall/pages/nathan_b.html(orginal thread on the camp:
http://www.democraticunderground.com/discuss/duboard.php?az=view_all&address=104x3833616......
Two years later, my Dad called a family meeting to give "a special announcement." My brothers and sisters considered that Dad was going to announce his intentions to wed again. But inside, I feared that the disturbing image of my dream may in fact be a reality. Still, I rationalized. Dad? Gay? Being told in my dream? "No," I told myself, "it is all too far fetched to believe."
"Kids," my Dad said to us, "after much thought and consideration, I have come to the place where I need to tell you something. I believe in my heart that I want to live the rest of my life with men rather than women." The news brought me to the edge of my seat and I blurted out, "You're gay?!" My Dad looked at me, nodded, and responded softly, "I'm gay."
The goose bumps soared up and down the back of my neck. My attempts to rationalize my dream had been viciously crushed by my Dad's words. I felt myself submit to the truth and I admitted that it hurt. Responding to my tears, my parents explained that the dream I'd had two years earlier was given to me the very evening my Dad revealed his secrets to my Mom. The sharp tone she used in her response was a cover-up to hide her shock and not reveal the truth to me prematurely. To her, the dream and the timing involved, were more than coincidental.
My Dad's words to my Mother that day reflected his commitment to a specific destiny. He was making a purposeful statement declaring that he no longer was going to combat his fleshly yearnings. His was a conscious calculation of the consequences with a conclusion stating that for him, the freedom to have sex with men was worth any price. Whatever the cost, my Dad had chosen to surrender his life to homosexuality and it meant that soon, certain people would have to hear about it. Specifically, it meant that someday there would come a time when he would tell his children. God new then that this devastating news would one day be presented to me. He gave me the dream as a preparatory attempt to soften the blow.
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