get some (probably very unhealthy) jollies by pissing off RW conservatives.
If simply being who I am pisses them off because they hate me without even knowing me, that's their choice and their problem, although I'm sure most of them would make serious problems for me and all of us if they could.
I wish it was not this way; I don't really want to add more fuel to a diseased mind and add to a mentally ill persons problems, but what can I do? I can't change to accommodate their insanity. I try to have compassion for them and understanding, and can sometimes feel pity for them in the face of their demented hatred. I tell myself, they are sick, and they can't help themselves, their consciousness has repeatedly been poisoned since birth.
But I am only human, and sometimes cannot bring myself to get some satisfaction in pissing off someone that is exhibiting the characteristics of being a bigoted asshole.
So far no one has ever assaulted me physically; I smile at them beatifically when they verbally abuse me or look at me with that exaggerated look of disgust that RW conservatives get when encountering something that frightens them because it is different and/or because they are jealous because they can't express their deeply closeted LGBT feelings and desires.
We also have some LGBT meetups in the area, and I will sometimes drive 200+ miles back and forth total to mingle with a broader LGBT population. Communicating through the internet with friends helps also.
But yeah, there are those lonely days when I'm not strong enough to cope as well, also. I just try to stay positive, and channel anger, frustration, and sadness into something constructive, and that often gets me through the bad day to a better next day.
This is an incomplete nutshell.
Thank you for bringing up this sensitive subject that I believe very important for us to hash out.