I think the heat is sucking the life out of me... at least SOMETHING is!

[FirstLight]

Meanwhile, back at the farm…

Today has been frustrating on many fronts:
Job insecurity = Still waiting on a call from the radio station for a 5-15 hr a week gig as production asst… Then, I got shined on for a third time from the MG Ed at the local daily because they are too corporatized to hire me to replace the lady I have been filling in for the past 2 years (she’s retiring) It would be a big break – but it occurs to me that the newspaper may not be a stable place to work…
My job at the church is only worth $200/week at best, and my ONE client that I freelance for is to poor and has cut me to 5 hours a week…

Housing grief= My “long term” rental arrangement is over by September (preferably August) because the couple is getting a divorce and he is taking this house (she gets the kids…) Since I have a Sec 8…finding a house should be easy. At least I know I can look at a place for 1200, instead of looking at the back seat of my Honda as the only option! Everyplace is either a major dump with not enough bathrooms, etc, or isn’t available till the end of the summer, or just out of price range. I am really a little disappointed today at our options, and still have to figure out how to deal with the packing and moving right before the new school year. Ack.

News fatigue= Every time I look at headlines, the whole thing is just so damn impossible. I can’t even bear to look or be involved anymore. My activism is directly proportionate with my feeling of success any given week...

Poverty stress= Survival is the name of the game here - we are so close to the edge, I actually had to put groceries back at the grocery outlet! I realized that I only had $30 on me, because I had to put the other $20 in the gas tank! (driving around looking for houses is eating gas too)

Just a hard Monday, and I have deadlines to meet and all I wanna do is drink my wine and veg out.
I wish I could run away to 1988 for a little while, and just be 18 and have no worries or responsibilities. Just for a day?

[bobbolink]

1. You don't deserve this.. to be hit from so many directions, when you are working so hard

to do all that is asked of you... "pull yourself up by your bootstrings".

So many are so close to just giving up, and where is the outrage?

I realize that giving up *IS* my only option.

Will it matter?

Naw.....

:hug: :loveya: :hug:

[FirstLight]

2. Thanks Bobbie...

Still, we get up the next day and continue to move forward...even if the direction is questionable...because all there is to do is to keep pushing forward.

There's a mythical figure who was given the punishment in Hades of having to roll a large boulder up a hill, only to have it roll back down...for eternity.

I feel just like that!
:hug: for you too, fellow warrior!

[bobbolink]

3. please check your PMs!

:hug:

[snappyturtle]

4. Here almost another month has gone by! I hope your situation

is less stress producing each day forward. You're not alone. :hug: