Some recent deaths in the family, and I am missing my Moon Circle so badly...

[Hekate]

Sorry, not sure I can complete this post, but I think I need to. I just got a random email from a Pagan friend who moved away ("What happened to the listserve?" was the gist; it's not even a group I belong to) and suddenly I was in tears over my Circle disbanding last year.

Of the deaths in my family since I first came to DU, I simply don't have the time or inclination to post in GD as events unfold. Usually because I'm hundreds of miles away from my computer at the time, but more so because Dying and Death are a busy time for the living.

Mom passed away 2 years ago in the Fall, and my family (that is, my sibs) came unglued and has never been right since. My late dad's only brother died a year ago last summer. My mom's last sib, her younger brother, died at the end of January, a week after my sis and I visited him. My cat that I had for almost 20 years (you kitteh lovers know) went into kidney failure right after that, so I nursed him through his dying for two weeks and we buried him in a sunny corner of the back yard, where he can dream of his days as a mighty hunter. My mother in law, a Holocaust survivor, died a week ago today, finally letting go after her major stroke 9 months ago; of course it was my husband who took care of the arrangements with the rabbi, and our neighbor held the minyan in our living room.

I participate in and facilitate other people's spiritual traditions, from Mom's Unitarianism to my mother-in-law's Judaism, but damn I miss my Circle of women. :cry:

Thanks for sitting with me awhile...

Hekate

[Mrs. Venation]

1. Sometimes

Even though one's spiritual journey might not match that of another, we can find common paths. I think we especially need to find those paths at the times when we feel incomplete, for whatever reason.

You have endured great loss; it seems bewildering sometimes, doesn't it? Those people who have helped to anchor our lives leave us and it feels as if we will never feel whole again. Even the passing of people who have caused us anguish and confusion can be devastating.

I'm glad to sit a spell with you. I hope you soon find respite from the pain and loss.

Mrs. V.