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I'm sorry not to have posted sooner -- this is the 1st I've been online other than to look up homework/lecture assignments all week, with multiple 18 hour days this week.
Yes, IHAD, it is exhaustion speaking, and a sense of isolation, and something else I didn't realize. I had been smudging myself when I got home from bad evenings at work, but then had a good couple good weeks and between that and lack of time, smudging fell by the wayside. I didn't realize it but I've been picking up a lot of insidious, and awful, energy in recent weeks. People are stressed to the max. The IRS audited 2007 returns and a lot of upset and panicked people are calling. Plus the company instituted a $15 "small account balance fee" a lot of people waited until too late, and now are angry and taking it out on us. A lot of people are just plain stressed -- I had some guy go off on me and start yelling and swearing because I asked for his info so I could call up his account to answer his question. I seem to get a lot of problem calls at 7:58pm -- right before my shift ends. And some creepy calls, too. :puke:
So now I'm making time, or stealing it, to smudge every night before I go to bed, which is helping. I focus a lot of the smudging on the ta tien and solar plexus regions, and then let the smoke rise through my aura. Even at that, the other night my boss snapped at me, so I smudged her energy away before bed and fell right to sleep. Only to wake up at 3am, so I made myself some cocoa. Fell back to sleep and had awful nightmare -- she came into my house and was walking around inspecting it. And then some other people were with her and taking pictures. It creeps me out that she was able to come right back in just a few hours later.
In the meantime, I had urinalysis lab on Friday and asked if I was the only one to get the letter. It turns out 4 out of 5 people in the lab that morning got the same letter. None of us qualifies for any scholarships, grants or assistance because we have degrees already. The aid we are getting is strictly loans. And due to the current economic situation, even private loans have to be certified by the university. So if they cut us off, we're shit out of luck.
Some were told not to worry about it by the financial aid office. We all were told we can appeal in the spring. I asked the MLT program director if it would be possible to switch to the Bachelors in Med Tech program, in order to qualify for more loans, but apparently the financial aid office didn't lie about that one. Federal rules are we have to get the AS and pass certification exam first, and only then can go for BS. For now, as a group, we are setting it aside as something we can't do anything about at this time. Hopefully we'll stick together as a group. If we go it alone, they can pick us off one-by-one and the financial aid office can literally decide who stays and who goes...on their whim. But...if 80% of the program sophomores give notice they're dropping out, they'll have a serious problem to deal with. There is no other reason for us to be competitive with each other -- there are more jobs then applicants and the program has a 100% employment rate.
Understand, the last year is pretty much full time. We have classes all day 4-days/week in June and July. August off. Then 3 lab sciences in the fall (the equivalent of 6 non-lab classes). And then 20 weeks of clinicals -- 40 unpaid hours per week training in a hospital, plus homework, exams and a project. So working through it is virtually impossible.
I'd like to think our local government would be helpful, but that's not been my experience. Maine's government -- repub or democratic -- is either totally incompetent, totally corrupt, or some combination. Unless *they* stand to lose money, they really don't care.
I was hoping to have heard back from the young couple re: Jade Hill Farm but haven't. I did get another call yesterday. Haven't been able to connect yet..but selling would solve a *lot* of problems, from paying for school to buying Jake new hips...
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