WEIRD dream last night!!!!

[JanusAscending]

So being a little bit anxious about my second lip biopsy today, I took an extra melatonin along with my pain med. and my normal one Xanax last night. Went to bed early to get a good nights rest.(slept on the LR sofa, cause I do less tossing and turning in my sleep, which sometimes causes my hip nerves to act up) I fell asleep rather quickly for me...and proceeded to dream that I was living in one huge house, a compilation of every house I've ever lived in, therefore I was located in a very HUGE neighborhood!!! In the dream the weather was mild and there were parties going on in everyones backyards, with every neighbor I can ever remember having, coming in and out of my house at will, while I was trying to sleep!! I finally got so pissed off in my dream, that I got up and tried to shoo them all out of my house. Some left peacefully, but some didn't. Next thing I knew there were people, complete strangers, coming into my home and going through all of my "stuff"! The more I protested because they wouldn't leave, the angrier and more fearful I became....to the point that I knocked some teenage guy down on the floor, stomped on him, thought I'd killed him, and poured water on him to revive him only to find that the water had drowned him!!!! Yikes...so I started trying to call 911 for help on every phone in the house and couldn't get through on any of them(I have three phones on land line) I finally remembered my cell phone in my pocketbook, and was able to get through on that. I must have gotten through, because in my dream I was awakened by sirens and flashing lights. At this point I sat straight up on the couch....wide awake...and grabbed for a cigarette and lit up, still not sure if I was dreaming or if was real. (I'm in the process of quitting, but I keep them around for times such as this!!!)
Well after taking a couple of puffs, I put it out realizing that this was just a NIGHTMARE. It took me a long time to fall back asleep, so it was good that I went to bed early!!! My test went smoothly today, although much more pain once the Novocain wore off than last time. I won't have any results for a few days. This Tech that did it calls me even before he notifies my Dr. with the results, which I really appreciate. Any thoughts on this dream you'd care to share with me??
Thanks!:scared:

[MorningGlow]

1. You mean apart from the anxiety manifesting in it--?

Hey JA--yikes, what a scary dream! Honestly, I'd say that was a highly detailed, symbolic anxiety dream. All your houses rolled into one seems to be a symbol of your Self and your many aspects, as well as your entire life up to now. People invading your home (self) mirrors the way a doctor invades your body and the way fear of a medical procedure invades your spirit and psyche. And then there's that bit about fearing death (in this case the teenager's) and being cut off from communication with no way to save a life--I'd say that is symbolic of your fear of the test outcome.

Sorry you had to go through that--both the dream and the second biopsy! Keep us posted on the results, okay? :hug:

[JanusAscending]

6. Thanks ALL !!!

MG...you nailed it! Everyone else who went a little deeper...right on, I agree....and in stead of 4 Dr.'s ...try 5 + the new Chiro! The day went so much better for me once my daughter and Aidan picked me up to take me to the Dr. First thing out of Aidan's mouth when I got in the car was,"Nana, did you know that you are the best friend I have on earth"????
:wow: I just about melted....remember when I was worried about this kid being slow with his verbal skills? O8) Even though the Universe can "turn our world upside down" sometimes words like this turn the Universe upside down!!! When the nurse called my name when it was my turn to see the Dr. he looked at me and said "that's you Nana"!! No one ever calls me by my first name around him???????:shrug:

[Behind the Aegis]

2. I hope things go well for you.

...I was living in one huge house, a compilation of every house I've ever lived in, therefore I was located in a very HUGE neighborhood!!!

This is often representative of all stages of your life. Considering you are looking at another biopsy, it may be your mind "flashing your life before your eyes." However, don't take that as a bad thing. Your mind may be trying to make sense of a "life threating" event, real or imagined.

In the dream the weather was mild and there were parties going on in everyones backyards, with every neighbor I can ever remember having, coming in and out of my house at will, while I was trying to sleep!! I finally got so pissed off in my dream, that I got up and tried to shoo them all out of my house. Some left peacefully, but some didn't.

Nature, herself, was in a state of relaxation. Your former neighbors were in a 'festive' mood and wanted you to be a part of it, but you wanted only "retreat." This seems like a sign of those around you rallying around you, feeling unsure how to express such support, and you feeling irritated by their "intrusion." You may be anxious, but there is a sense of calm and others "asking about the situation" is only causing more anxiety. Some are giving you your space (close friends), others, not so much, likely co-workers.

Next thing I knew there were people, complete strangers, coming into my home and going through all of my "stuff"! The more I protested because they wouldn't leave, the angrier and more fearful I became....to the point that I knocked some teenage guy down on the floor, stomped on him, thought I'd killed him, and poured water on him to revive him only to find that the water had drowned him!!!!

This part may well be the doctors. They are "violating" your body; i.e. "going through your stuff." You don't want the procedure, no matter how useful it may be, and it is causing great fear. You may be confronting your own mortality (the idea that many young people, teens in particular, think "they can't die"). You emotions (water) have been so overwhelming, you feel you are drowning in your own fears, mortality, and the unknown.

Yikes...so I started trying to call 911 for help on every phone in the house and couldn't get through on any of them(I have three phones on land line) I finally remembered my cell phone in my pocketbook, and was able to get through on that.

911 is the call for help. You realize no matter what is happening, you need help. The land-lines may be the "practical" side (anyone in the house could have used them) trying to make sense/get help. It is, however, your every personal move (cell phone in your pocketbook...no one else can get to this), which indicates you are still in control, you will find the strength in crisis, to do what is needed on a personal level.

I hope this helps and I hope things turn out well. In an unrelated feeling, there are about 4 doctors involved, one, in particular annoys you, but that's the one you trust the most. I guess, I am saying, follow your instinct.

[Flying Dream Blues]

3. I think MG and BtA did a great job on your dream, JA, I would just like

to wish you all the best and send you good, healing vibes that everything will be ok.
:hug:

[OneGrassRoot]

4. I second this.....

Thanks Flying Dream Blues and more :hug: JA!

:grouphug:

[winyanstaz]

10. I will give your lips a good zap :)

[crikkett]

5. We're certainly rallying around you. Take care.

Nature, herself, was in a state of relaxation. Your former neighbors were in a 'festive' mood and wanted you to be a part of it, but you wanted only "retreat." This seems like a sign of those around you rallying around you, feeling unsure how to express such support, and you feeling irritated by their "intrusion." You may be anxious, but there is a sense of calm and others "asking about the situation" is only causing more anxiety. Some are giving you your space (close friends), others, not so much, likely co-workers.

[elleng]

7. We LOVE you, Nana!!!

:grouphug:

[JanusAscending]

8. Back at ya elleng!!

I really appreciate all of you !:pals:

[winyanstaz]

9. That was the House of the Never Ending Rooms...

Which means that you were on the verge of a Lucid Dream.
Remember, the House of the Never Ending Rooms can take any shape..including all the homes you have ever lived in. :)
However the more you got upset, the worse the dream became and it turned into a nightmare. It was your anger and anxiety that turned the dream more negative is all.
I would not worry about the dream :)
I believe that the first posts on your dream nailed it as well. It is your anger and anxiety that was manifesting.
It does tell me that you don't like people walking all over you or going through your things though :) I can relate :P

[JanusAscending]

12. Thanks W!!

The way I 'blab' all of my private business and feelings here on ASAH, one would never know that I am a very private person. I sometimes don't understand that dichotomy in myself. ie "My life is an open book" but don't come round poking your nose where it doesn't belong, unless invited!!! It seems that perhaps you do understand!! I appreciate the lip ZAP earlier too! This AM it was feeling a little better, but the edge of the oval shaped incision, where it was cauterized was peeling away, only half off, and driving me nuts! I was afraid to pull it all the way off for fear of making it bleed. Well...my hot breakfast cereal took care of that! I must have swallowed it!!! :yourock:

[Stevepol]

11. All the people intruding on your sleep, makes me think

maybe they represent the fears that are aroused in you by this biopsy. Maybe you sense this fear in your friends, and they are just making it difficult for you to relax and sleep. The scene at the beginning seems to be a very good one.

I think you should keep focusing on the beautiful qualities represented by the first scene and try to keep the fears out. Your reaction to the teen-ager could represent your anger at yourself over issues that you haven't resolved as yet that maybe you need to forgive yourself and/or others for.

Best wishes.

[JanusAscending]

13. Stevepol...

Your last paragraph is RIGHT ON ! I'm just not sure how to go about letting a couple of things go that I haven't been able to face head on yet! How does one do this when the people involved are no longer with us? Do I just say to myself "I forgive you"? (meaning myself) for what you did to them? I'm always beating myself up about mistakes from the past, and not quite being able to 'let it go'!!! P.S. Do I need to talk to a "shrink"??

[Stevepol]

14. The fact you're dreaming of this indicates you're already beginning to deal with it.

I really can't suggest much that others would not also suggest and you yourself have probably already tried: prayer, reading good material about forgiveness, continuing to read things and do things related to the beautiful scene at the beginning of the dream.

Remember it takes time. I have a lot of issues like that to deal with myself and I don't think there's any single magic bullet. It's just a combination of things that gradually bring about changes. Here are a few things that I've found helpful that you might want to ck out to see if they ring true to you.

The Course in Miracles ideas have often been helpful to me with regard to forgiveness (of myself and others). Here's a web site with many articles that could help: http://www.circleofa.org/

I also like Cayce's ARE. It's positive and helpful and has study groups around the country.

There are many wonderful people in churches and often you can find real help there if you can find one whose tenets you are comfortable with.

If you aren't already taking part in some discussion group related to one of the organizations or people you have faith in, maybe you could start doing that. Dealing with the bogie men is a combination of positive things you do to enhance the sense of beauty and order of that dream scene and techniques you find useful in combatting the black moods when they start to weigh you down. Music can often be a great help too.

There's nothing wrong with professional therapists, but so much depends on the one you choose. It would best be somebody you truly trust.

My prayers and good wishes go with you as you face your challenges. The dream suggests you have a lot of helpful forces that are working with you unseen. (BTW, I meant to reply to your post but evidently I replied to my own post. Sorry.)