On Friday, I had my first LBL hypnosis session.

[BanzaiBonnie]

It was pretty cool.

When I got there, the counselor told me there was not likely to be anything earthshaking, especially the first time working with her. I told her that was okay as I'd already had earthshaking on the way to the session.

I've been excited and looking forward to this for weeks now. A couple days before I began to get butterflies in my stomach. By the night before, they were elephants. Then on the way, driving to the appointment, it was all I could do to stay the course. I had a wall of fear that was so extreme that everything in me was yelling run, run, run back home.

I knew it was mounting for a full blown panic attack and I wanted to head it off, so I began searching inside of myself for the source. Now, mind you, I was driving down the freeway. There I was searching to name the source of the feeling when I realized I had a similar reaction more than 20 years ago I had been on my way to a women's spirituality event. I KNEW there were going to be women of many different faiths and paths there, including witches. My church upbringing was rearing its ugly head. As I drove across a bridge, the wall of fear I had to go through was palpable. It was real and so thick I could feel it as I made my way through, but I kept driving.

So, this time as I kept driving I got to the point where I could feel that fear was called guilt. It was a feeling I've carried with me all my life. Some unknown something that made me feel that I'd done something really terrible. Now, I know I'm not that bad and have not done anything more than the stupid things that most people do.

As soon as I named the feeling, it evaporated.

After I’d related this event to the counselor and she’d explained some things about what we were going to do, we began.

I went through a number of events in my current life and she asked me after each one what the lesson was that I took away from the event.

After a few other remembrances, I went back to a time when I was three and outside in the sun. It just felt so good. She asked what I got from that and I told her that the sun felt good and it was good to be here in this body.

My counselor then asked me to go to a time when I was in my mother’s womb. She asked me when I entered there. Three months. Three is what came to me loud and clear. I was busy feeling my finger and toes for the first time. It felt so funny to stretch into them and feel them move that it made me laugh a little.

She asked me about my mother and I told her what I knew about how my mother felt. My mother was sick. She was still having morning sick. I feel badly because it’s my fault. ( J) You understand that it’s not anything you did because she would be sick with any fetus. I responded, yes, but I take things personally.

Then, picking up on my experience of feeling guilt she asked me to go to the place where that started.

It was in a church. I was an infant in my father’s arms. The minister was yelling at him. My father was leaving the church, he was holding me and I thought the minister was yelling at me.

(J) worked with me a bit more to resolve the situation and eventually brought me back to the now.

[BanzaiBonnie]

1. Sorry, I need to explain LBL is Life Between Lives

Sorry I omitted that.

I want to add that I would recommend this to anyone who feels so moved.

[Celebration]

2. thanks for the thorough description

Next time do you go to the LBL?

I wonder if I am even able to be hypnotized. Do you clearly remember those events when you are hypnotized, and not at all when you aren't?

Are you feeling unburdened of guilt now?

Sorry--I've never really been hypnotized so I am wondering how this goes.

Glad you had a good experience.

[BanzaiBonnie]

3. In the next session we will go to past lives

The whole process is about building trust with your counselor and taking one step by step to a deeper place.

When we do the between lives part it may last 3 or 4 hours. That's a long time. And there may be much more information than can be easily remembered, so it will be taped.

Events that were more current I remember when not hypnotized. Early events I did not consciously remember, but I do now. I especially can feel how strange it is to slide into a body. It was almost like putting on clothes. It sort of tickled and it certainly "tickled" me. It made me laugh because the feeling was funny.

I've done a good deal of altered state work, but I've not been hypnotized before. We go in and out of altered states all the time. And I was wondering exactly the same thing; could I be hypnotized. When I really felt it was when I was coming back. I felt how deeply I had gone in. It's not easy to explain, but it feels safe and familiar and I wanted to stay longer.

[MorningGlow]

4. Cool!

Glad you had such an...enlightening...experience! :D

Seriously, that's great stuff. I've done a few past-life regressions, and it's always been really fascinating. I'm interesting in hearing what your life-between-lives session is like.

[Flying Dream Blues]

5. Thanks for sharing this with us, Bonnie...

I am fascinated by the LBL books and found them to be not so much life-changing because I already believed so much of what is in them, but so validating and reassuring, like a sweet spiritual gift. I do believe his work is meant to provide a loving validation that will help so many others believe. On a personal level, I think LBL experiences must be tremendously life-changing in a wonderful way. I hope you'll continue to share with us as you go on this journey!
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