Anyone else getting "hit" hard today/this week?

[FirstLight]

Whew!

I have been seeing some pictures in my space for a few weeks now that I know are "hard-core" and I need to deal with if I want to move forward. In all levels of life, relationships, spiritual openness and healing, and success/sustanence...
These are so deeply ingrained I have been bucking them even harder by indulging in said rotten behaviors and thought patterns. Almost like a junkie goes on a last binge before rehab.... crazy energy finally caught up to me last night & today.

On the POSITIVE side I have done everything that I should be doing in times of spiritual crisis: Taking a salt & lavender bath to cleanse, seeing my chiropractor/energy healer to just get 'worked on' without touching the real 'stuff' of it, and calling my spiritual teacher to ask for a one on one session and some healing flow in the meantime, I also grounded, ran some energy and put the issues in a box wrapped in light until I can handle it properly. Whew! crying all the while, and feeling body aches, etc...

So I *should* give my spirit the props for knowing what to do about it, and recognizing the energy before I let it completely have it's way with me. and wow, how hard it is to DO that sometimes when we are in the shit.

still feeling very 'worked over' by the angels right now...maybe a short nap is in order.. ;)

Thanks for letting me vent...anyone else getting sideswiped lately?

[FirstLight]

1. wow, i just realized this...

I started this post still crying and it could have turned into the total victim whine,
and I shifted it myself by just realizing I didn't have to 'sit in it'...
and giving myself props for 'handling' the waves of energy that 'seemed' overpowering...wow

cool beans, man...but my body still hurts!

[OneGrassRoot]

3. ...

I give you props, too!!!

:applause:

:yourock:

:loveya:

[OneGrassRoot]

2. Very unsettled.....

I'm anxious and CONFUSED. Like extreme adult-onset ADD set upon me yesterday and today. Weird stuff. Unsettled is the main word for me right now. :shrug:

Not feeling what you are, FirstLight, and I'm sorry you're feeling such extreme emotions and distress.

Keep breathing, girlfriend.

:hug: :hug: :hug: :hug: :hug: :hug: :hug: :hug:

:loveya:

:grouphug:

[FirstLight]

4. ya, breathing is GOOD! ...you too!

It's all good and I have seen this coming like I said...so it isn't a surprise. What really whomped me was that the issues are so CORE and run through every aspect of my life, and that they are entertwined too.
(...like having a talk about my teen with my mom.... and having to face the stuff I put HER through. Really huge stuff for me to tell her I am sorry and ask her if she forgave ME for my awfulness and stupidity.. and to have her say: of course, you just had to go there to see what it was like, you have aways been that way...wow! huge release! huge words to hear not just from my mom, but from the universe as well!)

and so I a ready to work the big chunks of this tomorrow with my teacher, we'll do some visioning and releasing, etc... meanwhile I get to hold myself in love and light and healing and try to feel better in my body. It's also so amazing when the powerful stuf comes up and vibrates out - how much we really DO channel it through our cells...

so many powerful waves on the planet right now - that is no doubt some of the stuff we are both feeling.

Hope your sense of anxiety subsides with each little healing thing you do for yourself today.
All we can do is nurture ourselves through it, right? (and eachother too! :hug: )

[Kind of Blue]

5. Oh, a nap sounds good right now. I'm getting hit very

hard this week - in the wallet. I'm tired of juggling right now.

On the POSITIVE side, I think this post caused me to remember that I've gotten use to juggling and am forgetting to ask for assistance.
Thanks for the tips, FL. I will go for the salt and lavender bath now :)

[Kind of Blue]

53. Financial problems solved.

After a much needed loan - not really, don't have to pay it back, husband received a contract we'd given up on and my job offered me more work that fits very, very nicely into my day, even freeing up my weekend even more.

Must always remember to ask for assistance and take salt and lavender baths :)

[kimmerspixelated]

6. YES!

It has been a strange pulling of emotions with crying jags...I thought maybe a menopausal thing...but with the earthquakes and the most likely magnetic wobbling in our cosmos, I really think it's related. Also, someone posted yesterday about the planets doing their thing, was it Pluto? Jupiter?..I feel it, I really do! Take a deep breath!

[kentauros]

7. Yeah, from my chiropractor yesterday!

I was joking with him as he was poking some of my pressure points that he likes to inflict pain on me when I'm trying to be relieved of pain ;)

Oh, and I just woke up from dozing off in my computer chair for about 20 minutes...

[winyanstaz]

22. Part of feeling out of balance may be ....

the "possible shift of the earth's orbit by 3 inches according to NASA.
They are saying the quake in Chile may have shifted the planet's orbit.
First Light has a good link on it..and...

here are a ton of links...

http://news.google.com/news?hl=en&source=hp&q=chile+quake+may+have+shifted+earth's+axis&um=1&ie=UTF-8&ei=hPeNS-TsOIrysQPAiOTfCA&sa=X&oi=news_group&ct=title&resnum=1&ved=0CAsQsQQwAA

[kentauros]

23. It does make me wonder...

I knew about the tilt shift, although I used to listen to shortwave radio and have heard the few times when they've added a second to the atomic clock. That's because the rotation of the earth is slowing down. The quake sped things up minutely, but not enough to offset how much the earth has slowed over time. That's just the time angle, so to speak. I don't really know the energetic effects like the rest of y'all.

Up until last Friday, I was managing to get this sciatica under control on my own. Then, like a light switch, the severity was increased a huge amount. There was no indication that was going to happen, and so I was rather pissed when it did ;)

But, I like my chiropractor; he always gives me ideas for things to try in my rehabilitation. Plus, I give him links and info, like the one for Earth Clinic. I'll have to see if he's looked at it yet, as he's all about "alternative" therapies and such :)

[Fire Walk With Me]

8. "Snuh".

http://2012basics.blogspot.com/2010/03/wow-end-of-februarymarch-comes-in-like.html

:hi:

Glad that you've made it through!

[Fire Walk With Me]

41. Okay.

The jerks at my (old) transitional living house has managed to get me moved next door, into a significantly less viable situation. I knew it was coming in some form and told several people there. Of course, not one of them volunteered to help me, is it would then come down upon them.

"Oh boy...right....again." -Laurie Anderson

And it will get worse. It's a given, it is what they are and what they do. I have no need to revisit the psych ward. Thanks, but move on.

I cannot wait until the third dimension self-combusts. Just cannot.

So, my micro prediction is true, duh, no surprise, too easy. Now wondering about the macro, in March and April.

[WhiteTara]

9. FL, sounds like you are overwhelmed

Here is an acronym that you might like to incorporate in your spiritual health regime. It's called HALT. Four questions to ask yourself.
Am I Hungry
Am I Angry
Am I Lonely
Am I tired.

Answer those and it will be of immediate help.

Yes, I'm definitely being swept by the forces running the Earth.
I also work on the 3-4-5 Count Plan
Breathe in 3
Hold for 4
Breathe out 5

Repeat until the emotional flooding subsides.

[OneGrassRoot]

10. That really, really, really does help

Breathing. Proper breathing.

When we tell our kids and others -- just breathe -- it really is very good advice.

Several friends are convinced that if more people breathed properly, rather than the shallow, unconscious breathing patterns most have, many illnesses would disappear.

I like the 3, 4, 5 count myself. :)

:hug:

[WhiteTara]

28. I find it stops the emotional flooding

that comes with the flight/fight response to all the craziness of life. It has helped me in times when I want to pinch my beloved's head right off. By the time that I have completed the 3 4 5 several times, I remember that I love him and am able to have a rational conversation.

[Dora]

11. For three weeks now!

Unfocused. Cluttered. Distracted. Fatigued.

I was even researching nootropic supplements today to see if that would help me with my brain blocks to progress.

I think I'll start by drinking more water.

[NuttyFluffers]

29. same here. and my sleep schedule is a mess. 7am is now my new bedtime...

it's horrible! it was like this before the spate of earthquakes, had a month of rest at end of december until mid january, and haven't been right since. i'd like to think it might be related to the earthquakes of late, but that might be wishful thinking. i just can't get anything together and absolutely cannot function during the day. it's like i need to be asleep during the day, and when i wake, it's like a fog.

[glinda]

38. Same here the last couple of weeks. So much coming at me all at once.

[lildreamer316]

12. YES.

We are dealing with some very serious, intense stuff right now. I'm really emotionally exhausted. I never saw this coming. AND - I don't know if any of it has any truth to it or not. It's very upsetting,but I have managed to keep my reactions on the right side of things; and calm.

We will see.

[FirstLight]

14. Hugs, hun...

I know you have been getting rolled for a while too...and I am sending you hugs and love for some ease in your shifts within & without :hug:

[FirstLight]

13. I wonder how much of this is Earth related too...

Thanks for all the advice, too...I haven't been feeling like I am that 'overwhelmed' ...been trucking along pretty good. Just had some road bumps that got squirrely, lol

but MAN, I took a nap and the body aches are the worst...not even like a fever, just like I have been working out and strained my muscles in my legs or something. My hips and low back are waaay ouchie! (now I admit, i had to take a week off my arthritis meds because I had that narly cold, and the aches could be the arthritis trying to set in again... but yikes!)

~~~~~

EARTH changes and our bodies...wild stuff, too

did you guys see that the earth is actually moved off its axis from the quake?

http://news.yahoo.com/s/space/20100302/sc_space/chileearthquakemayhaveshorteneddaysonearth

wonder how much of our collective roller coaster this week is due to this 'wobble'...?

[rumpel]

18. missed this comment, duh

but heard the same thing just a little while ago..as in my response post..

[teenagebambam]

15. You bet!

Same work crap that was active a few weeks ago, then settled down for awhile, now has reared back up. Lots of rocks being upended and the bugs crawling out. I'm only indirectly affected, but I'm actually starting to get the urge to start kicking a few of those rocks over myself, which is TOTALLY foreign to my nature!

[liberalmuse]

16. Oh HELL yes!

In fact, I came to this forum to see if anyone else sensed a big energy shift a few days ago. It may have come with the earthquake - I don't know. Supposedly we lost about a millisecond in the day because of that. It's been nonstop awfulness since 2/28. I usually thrive under a full moon, but if I were a man, I would say I was kicked in the nuts hard this week. There are no words to describe this week, or this day, which was about 5% great and 95% pure hell. OMG, make it stop!!!

On edit: I should say that I don't do stress well, but for some reason, I've kept my cool, even when hit with some really terrible stuff. Weird! I am sending all the positive thoughts out I can muster to all here who are being affected with this weird energy thing (or whatever it is). Bless you all. Especially as the junk comes out - and it's junk that needs to come out, but it's awful stuff to have to look at.

[rumpel]

17. Big time...

and I thought it is my personal financial problems, having one foot on the streets the entire time since our eviction.
It is hard to keep a level head.

I heard Blitzer report that the shift in Chile, actually shifted the earth's axis, and even time.
Amazing

[FirstLight]

19. Get this - my root chakra is off too...

Now I know that our grounding is related to this and the earth is going freaky this week...but my TAILBONE has been throbbing in pain off & on today...:wtf:

ya, I got my chiropractic adjustment, and my hips were out, but nothing wrong in the sacrum...but it is still pulsing like a button being pushed.

Howz YOUR grounding, folks?

(btw...there was a 3.7 in Missouri near the New Madrid today too, the second in a month...:scared:)

[liberalmuse]

20. Interesting!

My left hip, and entire left side went out on Saturday for no good reason. I was on the treadmill, but I've been able to walk and run every day for months now without issue. It's getting back in line (slowly) again to where I'm running again. I'd never thought this might be related to grounding.

[FirstLight]

21. Yep...I've been 'out' since friday in my hips, too

meant to go see the chiro over fri and sat, but didn't get there till today. Now my alignment feels like it's not right because i've been walking around crooked for 5 days!

so how do you 'do' grounding? do you wanna share techniques? lol

[kentauros]

24. I was going to ask how y'all did grounding

because I feel like we're all in the same boat! Left leg, pain, hunched over, "bent", hobbling... ;)

[liberalmuse]

37. I'm not the one to ask...

I have...issues. If I turn on the salt lamp for a long period of time, or meditate, things go whacko, and I believe it is because I do not know how to properly ground. Or else I'm just a hopeless case.

[elleng]

25. Just learned that husb is a sociopath!

Didn't take me too long! Just married for 26 years! Separated since '06, trying to negotiate financial arrangement.

Explains SO MUCH! Pray that daughters (21 and 25) will be able to 'adjust.' They just can't figure things out, like whom to believe, their DAD (who lies whenever its convenient) or me. SO, I guess I've been 'hit!' THINKING about it.

[rumpel]

30. Not fun..

Was married to one, too. Was with him for over 10yrs - only after he left,(needed attorneys on both sides to make him leave) I started hearing all sorts.
Considering I am still fighting for my rights, (17 yrs) and him continuing on his usual show, they don't even know harming others is wrong.

[Fire Walk With Me]

33. It will become increasingly difficult for that temperament to survive as the vibration increases.

I'm sorry that both of you have had this experience. It might get uglier as the Earth Changes, but there is an end to it. Stay positive :hug:

[elleng]

35. They KNOW; they don't CARE.

Left the house after he assaulted me. He said yesterday, in meeting w. my attorney and alternate dispute resolution guy, that he would DENY the assault. Lots more going on, but my atty is great, and I actually feel better that I have a 'name' for 'reason' for his behavior.

[rumpel]

42. be careful

while a restraining order is just a piece of paper in the real world it may be a good thing to have.

At the time of the divorce the therapist called my mother, (she was still in Japan then), and said she better come so there will be no outbursts of violence.

Because of their utter arrogance they can be vindictive, too. Glad your attorney is great. I learned the hard way you can not give them the benefit of doubt.

Yes, I also think that the vibration is as such - that the lies and deceit are not going to stay hidden for long.

[elleng]

44. Vindictive, indeed!

I give him NO benefit of doubt; everything in writing. He JUST proved to me, again, how true what you say is.

He won't get to me physically, as I'm 30+ miles away, and will only see him in presence of others. I do fear, however, what he'll do against me via the girls.

Daughter just announced her engagement, so during the next year+, there will have to be much more communication, one way or another, than otherwise. He'll have to pay (as he's kept from me my share of sale of house) and I've asked daughter to let me know what he says, every time, re: plans, and who does what. Daughters and I are very excited, but I must say that I have concerns for them. Me, I'll survive.

Thanks

[Brewman_Jax]

26. Yes

in addition to some legal trouble, my office gym will close in 2 months, and there are a lot of unhappy people.

The big corp owns the equipment, but they hired a fitness company to run the place. There was a merger and lay-offs and re-organizations and membership has dropped off and the subsidies for the fitness company didn't come through and now they can't stay in business. They've been losing too much money. Talking to one of the part-time trainers, the fitness company should have been looking for new members instead of sitting on their hands waiting for the big corp to come through. :shrug:

We have until mid-May. I don't want to join LA Fitness or any of the big and inconvenient chains. :(

[get the red out]

27. Yes

My husband was in the hospital over the weekend, unexpectedly due to a bad medication reaction and I had my planned outpatient surgery yesterday. My mind was going negative about 100 miles per hour on Saturday until I had my Reiki appointment and it really helped, A LOT!

Things are calming down now some and we are both on the mend so far, so I am hoping for progress. But my mental state took a quick hit, and interestingly enough thinking back it happened when that horrible earthquake struck. I had been dealing with illnesses in my family since late January but didn't go crazy until around the time of the earthquake. Fortunately I was able to step back away from my mind's activity and see it for what it was and do things to improve it. But it was definitely a hit.

[FirstLight]

31. well, at least it isn;t just me...

But I am sorry to hear so many of us dealing with pain, grief, stress, etc... :grouphug:

my tailbone doesn't hurt this morning, but my 'head isn't on straight' - the crick moved up to my neck! (5th & 4th chakras?)

...and today I am busy till 3 and then doing my meditation/healing appointment to work the big stuff...oh goody, not looking forward to it.


Got lots to speak to in all your posts, but I'm trying to get ready & running out the door till later this afternoon.
...and I am sure I'll have more to share upon my return!
hang in there, everyone!
:hug:

[Missy Vixen]

32. All I want to do is sleep

I forced myself out of the house last night to go to a workshop I was eagerly anticipating a week ago.

It was great, but this whole "I'm so tired and distracted" has to stop.

:hug: to everyone on this thread. I'm sending whatever good things and blessings I have to all of you.

:hug:
:loveya:

MV/Julie

[Blue_Roses]

34. Yes. I'm exhausted.

what is going on? So much is not making sense.

[northernlights]

36. I've been feeling ok inside, but all around me people are losing their heads

On the phones we've had a lot of angry people all week. Tonight I had a total psycho. She was xferred in from another dept, who instead of "warm xfer" with intro, dumped her on me cold. I was waiting to here the other rep introduce her. Instead heard, "This is crrrezy. Thiis is just crezy." Introduced myself and before I knew what hit me, the customer went on an hour-long, nonstop screaming rant. Unreal.

And my dogs are acting out again, too. Tonight at late night pee, they took off full tilt into the dark. I thought they just went to one of their pooh areas until the neighbors lights went on in the back. there were my dogs, racing around their back yard. :grr: Hopefully they didn't notice. They're very old. Hopefully deaf and blind...

And I still think this is just the beginning. It's going to be a very hairy ride.

[BlueIris]

39. Yep. Feels like the bottom fell out.

Blech.

[FirstLight]

40. Okay, thank GOD my body is done tweking for now...

And I had to move my appt to domeditation/visioning for healing to this afternoon.

Trying to get past the big issues before starting the next phase of responsibility and success and relationship in my life.

Lots of old 'rebel' energy coming up...self destructive tendencies, the whole "fuckit" mentality.

Wonder how many past lives have got to do with destruction and personal 'failure'...? sheesh.

big stuff for sure. I am not upst at the moment, it is holding off till I can look at it and really work it. but I realy want this to be cleared once & for all, cuz I am done with this type of thinking and behavior, for sure.

It's like the lower earth/new earth are doing battle...within me! whew

[rumpel]

43. I notice many people have a stressed out look on their faces

Normally many, smile and greet - but nope, even if they crack a smile it is strained

[omega minimo]

45. Every one I know, under intense pressures these past two moons in particular

and with the recent full moon conjunction....... we all seem to be pressed by absurd/irrational circumstances to decide what we really value and choose to focus on, letting the crap fall away.

[OneGrassRoot]

47. I love that, omega....

"...decide what we really value and choose to focus on, letting the crap fall away."

That seems to be the main choice we're all facing...the one empowering aspect of life. We can't always seem to choose the circumstances we're facing, but we can choose how we respond.

:hug:

[omega minimo]

50. and how we spend our time

:pals:

[freeplessinseattle]

46. literally

About a week or so ago my car got sideswiped in a hit and run, just minding her own business in front of my building. Work has been very challenging to get lately, and the customers more trying personalities more often for some reason. This week has been so wonked trying to schedule, things falling through, phone numbers being inaudible, and dealing with difficult people, it's like Mercury retrograde on steroids.

[glowing]

48. Yes, Ended up going to work at the wrong time.. found that out after blowing

out the front tire of my husband's mustang. I had to call him at 6:45am to come get me.. He had to wake up our little boy and come change the tire to a donut.. He has to take it in today to buy a new tire because whatever I hit blew out the side and messed up the rim a bit.. hopefully not too much that it will have to be replaced as well. What a nightmare. I guess I'm lucky I didn't fall off the ladder while painting the house as well...

[FirstLight]

49. What a fuckin' week, huh?

Sorry, but it's just been crazy. My house is reflecting the hurricaine winds of Change that swept through..looks like *something* happened around here.... yikes!

So the week started out with a lot of physical pain for me. Arthritis and energetics were NOT treating me well at all!

Had 2 big 'events' on my calendar for the week, thank goddess they were at the end of the week!
Spent so much of this week in obsevation AND in the thick of the process.
...and the big thing was recognizing that it was about stepping into my creation. I asked for all of this: tribe, success, spiritual growth, etc... I had to be willing to squelch the little rebel girl who wants to say I am a fuckup and don;t deserve it...and step into being a powerful momma goddess incarnate ;) choices, choices...and I can let my rebel girl out to play - but I have to get my 'homework' done first!

Also had to reschedule my reading/visioning/healing for the big issues brewing under the surface...it was just too much to look at before trying to do the big stuff on Thursday Friday. (I have Monday night meditation class and plan on going in a little early to work on it)

sooooo wednesday came & went without a hitch, just busy

Thursday was a lunch meeting with a Chamber of Commerce Director of the Green Coalition and I was going to just throw out my ideas about creating a directory/publication for the sustainable businesses in town. HE tells me there is too much going on to just have a quarterly issue, we need weekly updates...how about an online newspaper? .....Soooooo the 'Tahoe Eco News' is now MY baby.
Holy shit! I have never been an editor, never even been so much as a manager at McD's...and now I have sponsors chomping at the bit for a busines plan! eeeek! Luckily, the community and crossover of who I know and those in my tribe is incredible. I have an ex-editor who is going to partner with me and sho me the ropes of non-profit. And my chiropractor friend (who is also in monday meditation class with me) says he'll show me how to do a bus plan.! wow, just wow.

Friday was a Day of getting ready for circle. I actually kept the kids home from school for the day...no reason, just thought they need an extra day of unwinding too... and we had the best, most grounded day! I started to ge nervous and stressed in the afternoon as crunch time approached...did I have all my stuff? was anyone going to show? can I get the kids fed in time to go? how much time did I need to prep?...and my teen and the kids were really good at reminding me to breathe and we laughed at the stress instead...wow.
went a little early out to Meyers...(which is like the Tahoe suburbs, but it's all just cabins in the woods and there's like the 'first outpost' on the highway feel as you come off the mountain.)

Went to my spot where I walk in the mornings and saged and prayed and offered tobacco to the winds... honoring the community that I am blessed enough to join in. Blessing J-- and J-- for their offering and showing up. (my chiro & his wife - who are offering the bldg for meditaiton circles to anchor community in this town, they just bought the practice from the hippie couple who retired last year...)
Went and set up, lit candles, saged the room, put pillows out and drums.... and waited.
and waited...

Finally after druming alone in the bldg and making it vibrate...His wife and daughter show up...it was so perfect for them ...so THEY could honor and bless the space, THEIR home away from home, THEIR healing practice. The daughter is 8, and is even in the same class as my daughter...our little 'priestesses in training' hehe...

So I carried on as if there was a host of people in the room - which there were, most just didn't have skin on;)
And the 3 of us really had a great drum (the wife led, which was fitting, and I could feel the beat really being held by them and it was cool because they were claiming the space for their family and healing practice) and passed the talking stick and shared gratitude and joy at being there. It was perfect...

and 2 more women showed up! a mother and daughter, ironically. the daughter is my age and used to go to my Lutheran church! how about that!
so we drummed again, I led this time ...then passed the talking stick.
I was so overjoyed to see the women's faces - old and young, all mirrors of the One :cry:
then the elder momma led the next round... the beat was a sweet gentle heartbeat, and a perfect conclusion...

I am still reeling from the week's events. so much POWER & GRACE...all around me...and even within me.
I am grateful for my tribe
and I am just as grateful for YOU here at ASAH - my 'virtual' tribe, so I can share nd offer more blessing to you and myself as we walk this path called SPIRIT

we are all One...

:grouphug:

A-HO! *the talking stick is now passed to YOU*

[Fire Walk With Me]

51. And the bullshit continues. Of course. I've clearly predicted so in this forum.

I request that all klowns and meddlers leave me alone. I only wish to continue my recovery and to fix what I have broken (and to be true to myself and what I have found as well to be true).

Jerks where I live are actually attempting "good cop/bad cop". (slaps forehead) Just days before one was saying "Mike is everyone's Ho!". I have since updated his perception and am working upon the others. Some simply insert metaphorical fingers in their ears when I begin with the earthquake prediction, economy prediction, empathic ability, etc. Then continue like robots. Incapable of accepting new information, only capable of continuing their programming. One even left a condom on my bedframe, saying that he had nowhere else to put it after he found it.

I would tend to like people more if they did not act so awfully toward me, if they would give me one percent of the privacy I request as an adult. There is a lovely program for those who MUST control others, get with it:

http://www.al-anon.alateen.org/

[get the red out]

52. They want to keep you down to boost themselves up

Keep your mind where you are not where they are,they sound like angry children trying to pretend not to be afraid of the dark by tormenting someone holding a lamp.

You are "good people" FWWM, I'd be willing to bet they resent the heck out of your spiritual path, because they've got nothing and inside they know it. Sad, scared people stuck at age 12 who can only feel good if they put someone else down. It isn't a path that keeps someone's head above water for long.

Bless you on your path, you're pretty darn wise.

GTRO

[Fire Walk With Me]

54. Thank you, but none of that stops those bent upon destruction.

:hug:

[get the red out]

55. No, I have experienced that kind

I just wish you well and hope you know you have light and deserve better.

I was a mark for that kind of attack for my entire growing up all the way through college and into the "adult world" until I let it drive me mad. I don't know why I was targeted from so early and into every new venue of my life - I call it my "spiritual tag". I have even experienced it in the work place, years ago. I will never know why, it just happened. I know when I was younger I new nothing about setting up my own boundaries, physical and spiritual, but that still doesn't explain why I had a target on my back all those years. I am super sensitive to that kind of person now and close myself to them as fast as I can in every way automatically. I can't explain how I learned to do that either.

I hope you will find a way to a new situation away from this kind of people. They are all about destruction and promote harm. Parasites.