What am I doing? Where do I begin?

[BanzaiBonnie]

There has always been someone who lived at the edge of the village that people went to when they needed help. That person had a knack for healing.

They stayed at the edge of the village for a couple of reasons. One being, many people were afraid of that person. They knew that old man or woman who lived way at the edge of town was different. Those healers knew things that the townspeople did not understand. Knowledge is power, and that caused concern, jealousy and sometimes downright fear. But in time of need, they always went to the edge of town for help.

The other reason the healer lived on the outskirts was because they needed to have distance from the center of the village. They skirted convention. They needed to let go of the societal structures so they could see the weakness in what has been built.

Sometimes they were lucky enough to have someone to teach them long held traditional medicines and healing ways. They also learned to connect with their own divinity for knowledge and wisdom. If they were steeped in the conventions of polite or not so polite society, it would be difficult to hear their own higher truth.

So they lived on the fringe of society. They were shunned, unless needed. They were feared, because they held secret wisdom. And sometimes they were killed, because society can't have anyone around that doesn't fit in.

Where am I today?

Am I brave enough, bold enough, strong enough to stand tall even when society at large does its best to knock me down?



A voice called out to me, “who do you think you are?” Taunting me. Attempting to make me doubt. And in the sassiest voice I could muster I responded, “Well, I guess I’m about to find out.”

[mysticalchick]

1. Amazingly, we are always given the Grace to find out

.... and just from talking with you over Skype for a short time last week, I know you are definitely brave enough, bold enough and STRONG enough to head into whatever awaits you.

Holding you always in the Light, Bonnie.

[BanzaiBonnie]

2. The vision of last weekend

was confirmation that I really don't know what's coming. THAT was not something I ever expected.

In service,
Bonnie

And thank you MC. Also, thanks to everyone for their support over this dream vision I was shown. It meant more than you will know.

[OneGrassRoot]

4. ...

"They needed to let go of the societal structures so they could see the weakness in what has been built."

"...confirmation that I really don't know what's coming. THAT was not something I ever expected."

That's so powerful. Your entire post is beautiful and poignant and powerful.

Bless you.


:hug: :hug: :hug:

[Kind of Blue]

3. Beautiful vision, Bonnie.

Bonnie, you bring up a flood of memories. I remember stories my parents tell of walking through the forest on a well-worn path to a small house in the forest, and long before they'd get to his house he'd be walking up to greet them, always knowing someone was coming.

I can't tell you the nostalgia I feel for the rituals, the remedies, the cures, the long talks deep into the night that always put the adults so much at ease, when we visited or when they'd come to us. I wonder sometimes if they're still there, or on the fringe of society, now that religion has a strong hold.

[I Have A Dream]

5. I have a Rosicrucian friend of Facebook who is from your native country, Blue...

and just yesterday, he was lamenting the fact that churches have so overtaken the country and that things are so much worse than before this happened. :(

[Kind of Blue]

13. Yeah, thought as much.

I think among the great things my parents have done, the best was leaving. No matter how much I bash religion, I know no one is gonna come after my life for my beliefs. I love this country. Good Bless America :hug:

[I Have A Dream]

15. I found his post. This is what he said.

"Check out how honest and hardworking <nationality removed for privacy purposes> were in the 70s...yet CAC shows that as at 1976 <country removed> had only 11 registered churches...as at December 2006, <country removed> has over 68,000 registered churches! We now have more churches than schools and hospitals combined. More pastors than teachers and medics combined. Yet where is the corresponding moral elevation needed to breed an honest and positive thinking citizenry?"

I'm glad that you feel safe, Blue. We all have a soul-level memory of being persecuted for our beliefs, and I'm glad that this life won't add to that for you. (Big :hug: )

[Kind of Blue]

16. Wow, all those churches and the need for

honesty and positive thinking is even greater. It's so sad.

Dear IHAD. You really know how to look at the big picture and still get to the heart of the matter. Yes, I am safe and should no longer feel persecuted :hug: :grouphug:

[Fire Walk With Me]

6. Yay!

:hug::hug::hug:

More power to your Authenticity! And for those who will be given permission to rise to their own, from your example!

"They were shunned, unless needed."

I've always said that the speed at which society accepts something is directly proportional to how quickly beneficial said something is, to society.

[I Have A Dream]

7. Bonnie, it is sad that the wisest among us are relegated to the...

periphery of society. I think that this is one of the reasons that the world is in the state that it's in today. Until we as a species fully embrace wisdom and allow the wise people of the world to have a voice in reference to what is best for humanity, I don't think much will change in the world. I pray that this paradigm shift is right around the corner.

Thank you for doing your part. :hug:

[BanzaiBonnie]

8. We cannot change things from within the system

The hippies really had it right in some ways. I think the LSD allowed them to open to more truth than will ever be admitted. Although I don't use any drugs, it's my feeling that those who do should always have someone with them to assist in the experience.

I don't feel relegated to the periphery so much as I've made a choice to escape the entanglement of society. There are other lives I've had where it was more a fact of being shunned. And that was a lonely path indeed. Just typing this brings tears to my eyes. It was at that time a way of diminishing who I was. It also could have had a drastic impact on my physical survival.

But I'm far from being on the periphery yet. I do find the more I remove myself from the predominant culture, the more of my own authentic voice I hear and the more I can see what's coming. For me, right now, part of this contains an element of survival for myself and my family.

Yes, I wish to be of service, but what I do, anyone else can too. It's not some special mantle than was laid on my shoulders as a gift. I had to open to the gift that is there for everyone. It's there for everyone that is willing to do the work.

[I Have A Dream]

10. Sorry, Bonnie, I didn't mean that you personally were being relegated.

I meant what was done in the past and what has been our customary way of dealing with such people, as you described in your original post. However, you are certainly one of the wise people to whom I referred in reference to the changes that society requires.

[BanzaiBonnie]

11. No apology necessary

I'm riffing in general on this. I'm doing something that is closer to automatic typing. So no need to worry that you have done me harm in any way dear one.

I just happened to touch on one particular past life that I know about in which I could not abide the rigidity of the church. I was shunned by my family and do remember that I died alone. But what I wrote in response to your post allowed the event to be brought up. And things can only be cleared when they are brought into the light.

I have been processing my past lives for many years and letting go of my attachment to them.

[FirstLight]

9. wow, just wow

that last line says it ALL for me right now :cry: :grin: :hug:

[BanzaiBonnie]

12. I began a blog today - with this entry

I just reworked the post I started here this morning.

http://edgeofthevillage.wordpress.com/

We'll see how it goes.

[OneGrassRoot]

14. Lovely, Bonnie....

Godspeed to you and your path. :hug: :hug: :hug: