My Grandma visited me in a dream this morning...

[FirstLight]

She was my fave out of the whole family.
My Mother's Mother, our lives mirror eachother in ways that are strange & amazing. She passed when I was 13...

She was my role model capricorn woman, telling my dad at the age of 76 that he wasn't chopping wood right and showing him how to do it ;)

She was in an abusive marriage and kicked her drunk husband to the curb when it was unheard of to be a woman alone with kids.

Her kids ages and spacing is exactly the same, an older son and two little ones...

Her voice and spirit has helped me through many times in life, when my first husband left and i was wondering what to do with his laundry, it was HER voice i heard loud & clear "I ain't washing NO man's dirty socks!" (which was her reply when i asked her as a teen why she never remarried, lol)

It was HER spirit that showed me the legacy of abuse that I was breaking for MY daughter the day before I left my abusive ex.
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So last night, I was in this classroom, and the teacher was my Ma-maw...she looked more spry than her last years, dressed just so in a 1950's style dress and a white sweater over her shoulders. She kicked out the troublmakers in class, "I'm not puttin' up with any of that foolishness," she said.
And when she finally set her eyes on me, she smiled and said "you look great sweetie, doin' real good for yourself."
I hugged her and couldn't let go, i could feel the softness of her sweater and smell her ...

She continued to set the class in order and I got the feeling that she was a teacher in the afterlife, that this was her gig for now.
And she was imparting stength to women, it was an all female class..
Her lingering message as I awoke...as she chucked me under the chin.

"Don't let anyone tell you you're less, honey..."

[BanzaiBonnie]

1. Oh Firstlight

that was beautiful. How special to have her as one of your "night school" teachers.

[FirstLight]

2. crying as i tell you the story...

tears of missing her but also of gratitude. She is definitely one of my main guardian angels... :loveya:

[MorningGlow]

3. OMG what a great visit

Okay I'm all teary now--thanks a lot! LOL!

Seriously, what a wonderful spirit your Ma-maw is--what an honor not only to have known her, but also to carry on her legacy in your spirit family and your earth family.

Interesting that she came to visit at this particular time! What powerful energy going on now...

[I Have A Dream]

4. I suspect that she's also VERY proud of the intense work...

that FL is doing right now. :D

[I Have A Dream]

5. Wow, wow, wow!

:bounce:

:cry:

[catzies]

6. Ohh, how lovely and loving for you. Grandmothers' love is very special love

:hug:

[FirstLight]

7. mmmhhmmmm...nothing like it!

I swear i can still smell her sweater today, she is VERY close.

I remember reading that the 8th was a portal opening day, i guess the veil between worlds is very thin indeed!
:hug:

[FirstLight]

8. and the message lingers on...

I shared with my older sister some of this story, here is her reply:
(she is pretty RW and goes to a little country episcopal church, so we aren't all THAT close...she was always closer to my dad's dad, and my uncles, oddly enough. She's getting the shift kicked out of her right now too. She is the breadwinner of the family, her hubby is disabled by back issues and cares for the kids. spends her money like water, etc. she is being downsized out of a job by October, they just told her last month and she's been there 10 years. She has always done things "right"...held the long term job, had insurance, bought a house and car by herself, but she isn't happy and her true nature is a healer. She trained in massage years ago and let it go for a desk job and security...
which is what we are all learning is not really reliable these days, right?)

Her reply:

thanks for sharing, I need a tissue.
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In our church we are on a series about the Holy Spirit.
Yesterday our pastor dove into how the Holy Spirit is in someone.
Someone who gives selflessly, caring, works hard with their hands......many different ways the Holy Spirit shows these are the gift one is blessed with.
I had tears in my eyes for most of the sermon.
Feeling led to do something different.....using my gift.....we'll see where things go.

Love you.

[Celebration]

9. Awesome story!!

And you had a big smile on your face when you woke up!

[FirstLight]

10. funny how this spills over

still jobsearching today, the extra temp job fell through so i am redoubling efforts...

and i think re-reading this and taking it all in helps me to keep pushing forward, despite the slim pickins!
I am calling it the Spaghetti Technique: throw your resume at everyone, and see what sticks! ;)