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Edited on Tue Sep-07-10 01:41 PM by Ricochet21
Recently I had a wonderful client. I won't tell you much about him. Let his story speak for itself. This will be the main content in my October newsletter. I felt that the message was so powerful, that perhaps it can help some of you right away. Yes, it offers kudos for what astrology can do for each of us, but the message goes straight to God Him/Herself. In his own words... (long)
It’s Always Darkest before Saturn Enters Libra
September 2, 2010
Anonymous
{my few edits and additions are inserted in braces}
Although I was born in September of 1961, my life began, really began, on October 29, 2009. That was the day Saturn entered Libra. Up until a few hours ago, I had no knowledge that event even occurred, but what I have known since last October and I mean know as in knowing in the deepest depths of my soul, is that on that fateful October day my life changed forever. A shift took place of such profound measures that it opened up access for me to a new universe and a new way of existing. Quite simply, I for the first time since walking the planet (this particular incarnation) could see everything clearly. Within one 24-hour period I moved from darkness into light, from suffering into enlightenment. It was a transformation of biblical proportions, and at the same time one that I believe with my whole heart is waiting to take place for each and every one of us, waiting for us to allow.
What I learned just a few hours ago, as I sat for the first time in the authoritative and loving presence of astrologist Rick DiClemente was that he had full knowledge of my transformation. Even though the man up until today had never met me, nor had any knowledge of my existence he was able to convey with quiet directness the exact date my shift took place and then went on to tell me why.
What I write next I offer with the utmost sincerity, not as a way to wallow in a past pain, or to allow the ego its significance in story, but as an example of the pure power of allowing. Less than a year ago I had come to a point, a crossroads, a place where I believed that suicide was the only way away from my dense emotional pain and suffering. Death, in my clouded, ego-fueled mind, was the only way to peace. I planned my demise and waited for inner strength to carry out my egoic plan. But God, my creator, the Universe, my higher power had other plans for me. I would come to realize that God’s plans are the only plans that really matter. Once you allow yourself to hook up, align with Universal intention, the will of God, life gets, oh so amazing.
I am born of the sun sign Libra. I am 48 years of age as I write this, and I had just turned 48 then I was shown the plan of the universe, the Grace of God. I was born to a mother who was a Scorpio, and a father who was a Capricorn. If you were to look at my astrological chart, even to the novice astrologer, you would see that astrologically speaking the mother symbol rules my birth chart. The symbol of the mother sits as a {handle} of a {bucket} that carries the entire cosmic concoction that is me. My mother, the mother that I asked the universe to give me, was a true {dark side of} Scorpio. She was all of the traits we know to be Scorpio traits at their worst; these traits that were left unchecked, and without the benefit of enlightenment caused me great emotional pain. I suffered to the absolute extent that only a soul who chooses such suffering will. I was born the most sensitive of children to a mother with no boundaries, with little sensitivity to others, with only ego, narcissism, and a need to covet light that she did not have herself. This was my preordained fate. Needless to say the lessons ensued.
By the time I was an adult with many years of psychotherapy and astrological and spiritual guidance under my belt, I moved away from her. And I never returned. I had been educated enough to understand even then when I pulled away, and have come to know now at my most spiritual center that I chose this woman to be my mother, and she chose me. I have learned over the years and have come to accept, and really know that we are all here for a reason. We are placed here to teach, to learn, and to use one another for one purpose. And this is the tricky part --the purpose is always the same. Although the circumstances may be different, the endless varying circumstances, the purpose we are here is always the same. We are here to learn the lessons needed to shift us into alignment with the Universal plan, to get closer to God, to bet back to our creator, to live the God that is in each of us. We are here to become God.
Even though I had removed my mother from my physical life, the influence of her Scorpio energy clung to my being, continuing to maneuver me. I was challenged to endlessly engage the same types of people, to invite the same energy that she generated over and over in attempts to this time beat it, to win over it, to replay it until I rose victorious. Year after year, relationship after relationship I chose those who helped me repeat behaviors that created that familiar feeling of self-hate. Of course in the egoic haze of non-enlightenment I had no idea this was what I was doing. I was simply caught up in the illusion of ego and life. Why do I keep attracting losers? Why is everyone so horrible? Poor, poor pitiful little me! UGH!!!! I had removed the perpetrator but had not yet understood why I had created the challenge to begin with. What would become clear soon enough was that I was here to learn to love all, even those who had done me unjust.
One of the most difficult lessons for me to learn in this life has been that there is a Universal plan. Plants know this and they don’t resist, animals know this and they don’t resist, the planets know this and they don’t resist. They all allow. It is only humans and our over-evolved egos that resist the Universal plan, God’s plan, and thus make life on earth a living hell. I chose the mother I chose and she chose me so that we would have a better chance to move forward in this lifetime toward enlightenment. It was a contract signed with God’s blessing before we entered even this life.
All through my life I have looked for teachers, mystics, astrologists, therapists, etc., but what I didn’t realize was that the true power was always in me. The act of aligning oneself with God is not learned, nor is it an act of assertion. Alignment with God’s plan is truly in the act of surrendering. The first step to getting closer to God’s plan is to surrender your own plan, which is to surrender your ego. The secret of life is to allow.
The last Scorpio I had located, invited and seduced into my life to recreate the familiar situation of self-hate and to cause me deep, deep pain was my business partner. He, unbeknownst to me when I met him and even when I asked him to become my business partner, was also a Scorpio. He actually, believe it or not, shared the same birthday as my mother. How precise we can be in generating duplicate scenarios until we learn our lessons. A few moths after meeting him I was once again smack dab in the same familiar territory I experienced as a child. I used him to generate self-hate, suicidal thoughts, despair, depression, sadness, and every negative emotion known to man. And he, as the truest of true Scorpios, was more than happy to use his bag of tricks to lie, deceive, manipulate, and drain all light from me, over and over again, until my only option, I believed, was to die. He and I were the perfect match. I didn’t learn what I needed to learn from my first Scorpio teacher, so here he was sent by the Universe {right when Pluto entered Capricorn squaring Librans} to bring me round two of the Universe’s lesson plan. I was on my way to ending it all, well my life this go around, when God intervened in the form of planet Saturn.
It was October 30 2009. My business partner and I were returning from a business engagement, a dinner party at a client’s. The part to of the story I neglected to mention before was that my Scorpio partner had also promised me on many occasions that he and I would become a romantic couple. He loved to dangle the carrot of a life happily ever after. I had lived my life as a gay man. He had lived his life as a straight man. But two months after knowing one another he declared his love for me and then spent the following five years causing as much suffering as he could. To what ends? Ask any astrologists worth their weight, or any psychologist for that matter, and they will tell you it was so he could feel self-hate and deep shame, the feelings that came from devastating those around him. His food and sustenance was shame. He would do whatever he could to feel it, so causing pain was his daily MO. That October 30th as we were parked in front of my home he again began the manipulation, the lies, the promises of a life together as partners, as a couple, of never leaving me, of it being him and I against the world, him and I for eternity. As I got out of the car he said to me, “I don’t care what happens to us as long as we are together forever.” I remember thinking, “wow, that is a lie. I won’t be deceived anymore.” {Saturn’s entrance into Libra triggered Pluto which had been working on him unconsciously since 1/25/08}
I never saw my business partner again. Almost five years together and I never laid eyes on him again after that night, after that last lie. God intervened in the sense that at that moment as I walked away from his car never to see him again I realized that I was of God, and this relationship was not of God. This relationship was wrong. It was of deception and it was time to move from it toward the light.
I woke up the next day and clearly understood the simplicity of life. From that day forward I used my emotions to gauge my proximity to God. When I was riding the wave of the Universe, if I was flowing in the river, if I was aligned with God’s plan then life was easy, my mind was clear, my emotions enthusiastic and joyful. When I was out of alignment with the universe then I would feel anxious, angry, sad, or any of the other thousands of negative emotions we as humans endure. I learned over the next few months that it was my ego that had made the plans for me in the past and if I was to be at peace I needed to remove my ego from any future agendas. I learned to live only in the present moment and to bring enthusiasm and love into every present moment without expectation of outcome, and from there I learned the most important lesson of all, that I was of God, a child of God, and that God would always provide.
I went to see Rick DiClemente on a lark; a friend of a friend of a friend recommended that I see him. You know the chain of coincidences that are not coincidences. I am going to begin to see clients of my own, not for the purpose of astrology but to help others make the shift from ego to inner peace. I wanted to see how another professional set up his office, website, etc. I contacted Rick to see how a true professional helps people change their lives.
When I told Rick that my entire life had changed last year in the course of one day, literally overnight, he said to me, “Yes, and I can tell you the exact day.”
Of course having not given him any tangible information to be able to make such an assertion, I challenged him. He said simply, “It happened on October 29, 2009; that is when Saturn moved into Libra.” He went on to explain that Saturn was the planet that ruled the truth, that ruled what was right, that was about making decisions based on fact, was about getting the answers answered that needed to be answered, and that on that day Saturn had entered Libra. Libra he went on to tell me represented relationships and partnerships. He told me that at that moment, as Saturn entered Libra, I could no longer be in any relationship built on deception, manipulation, slithering and poison. And of course Libra is my sun sign.
That is just what the shift felt like for me. Year after year of being stuck, of hearing the same deceptions and believing them, of being hopeful, of having false hope and the POW {Saturn} --in an absolute moment of clarity I thought, enough is enough, I will not be lied to again. It was as simple as it had been complicated for the five years prior.
Today when I left Rick’s office I pulled up my Google calendar, just to be sure, just to affirm for my ego, my mind what my heart and soul already knew and sure enough there it was the date October 30, 2009. The appointment stated, dinner with ….
Much has happened to me spiritually since that fateful day, since the shift took place. I have done much work to make sure that I stay close to God. I have studied the works of Eckhart Tolle, Hinduism, meditation, and chakra balancing. I have devoted myself to a Swami in India. I have volunteered to sit vigil at hospice. I have studied Reiki and have graduated to the second level. So much work has been done.
Today I have a very practical way of living, where love is what I try to bring to every interaction, every present moment. Each and every time I meditate I send Reiki to both my beautiful Scorpio teachers-- to my mother and to my ex business partner in appreciation to them and the Universe for bringing them both into my life. After all they brought me closer to God. It is for them that I know God.
I laugh when I think it took the mere movement of the planets to get me to see the light, to awaken me to the God inside of me. Trust me, if it can happen to me, a wretched sinner from way back, it can happen to anyone.
I do want anyone reading this to know that you are of God. We are all of God. Love and let what will be, be.
And just think, there may be a planet out there, far, far, away, getting ready to create a shift for you, a planet in motion, on a course to alter your destiny. I can’t tell you if this is the case, but there seems to be one man at least who can. So check in with Rick DiClemente, he might just have some inside knowledge on an impending miracle – about to happen just for you.
{My Note: this anonymous donor has dedicated his life to helping people make the shift. I think he’s right on time, he knows exactly how to do it. Blessings to him.}
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