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Today I started reading Louise Hay's "The Power Within You," -- I didn't intend to buy it because I am on such a limited budget, however I found her way of thinking so profoundly self-nurturing that I decided I would treat myself.
Interestingly enough, since I have adopted this new attitude of "you will make it through this, OK you might have done it sooner, but you weren't ready, now you are, be kind and supportive of yourself..." all sorts of opportunities are opening up for me, it's like I've tapped into some deep wellspring, a Universal source of goodwill. I've been in counseling before, so this negative self-talk (I am really hard on myself, from the standpoint that I am highly educated, but I beat myself up because I am not where I 'think' I 'should' be in life) that I had been indulging in for awhile is nothing new. It just needs to be reframed, and once I remembered how to look at things from another angle and be good to ME, think positively everyday, talk to and calm my inner child, I feel more capable of taking on just about anything that comes at me. Every night before I go to bed, I thank the Universe for changing me, although at times it has been so hard and painful, and I ask for help (this is another area that is hard for me, I always wait until it is almost too late to reach out for assistance).
When I look back at my life, I have had so many varied experiences and challenges, I've met all of them head on and emerged victorious, albeit sometimes a little bruised emotionally, however I realize that I am very strong at my core. And during times that rock me, I need to remind myself that this too shall pass, and I will be just fine. It has caused me to totally examine every aspect of my life, make financial and living decisions differently, live more simply, and learn to trust the abundances in the Universe, they truly are there, if we just believe.
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